[Unsure of how to feel--no, that's a lie, he knows exactly how he feels, and he's always known how to feel and how he felt--unsure of how to process the feelings, he doesn't know what to do with himself.]
You... [He stops, trying to think about what he wants to say, how he wants to say it.] This whole time, you've... been the only one to give a damn, and... the only one who was making progress. I...
...was jealous. That it was so easy for you... to connect with others, to be so powerful in getting information and changing people's minds. And I guess... like Naruto... I never took my sights off you, the one always ahead of me, like Itachi, while I struggled to catch up.
So when... I saw you hurting, I hurt, too. But now... you're happy, and you can focus on winning the game the best way. I don't think... someone like me could ever make you smile like the others can. I...
[His face pinches gently. He's not sure if there's more. He's already exhausted. He turns to leave, but then stops after a few steps.] I'm sorry... [He wonders if his voice has ever been this fragile.]
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You... [He stops, trying to think about what he wants to say, how he wants to say it.] This whole time, you've... been the only one to give a damn, and... the only one who was making progress. I...
...was jealous. That it was so easy for you... to connect with others, to be so powerful in getting information and changing people's minds. And I guess... like Naruto... I never took my sights off you, the one always ahead of me, like Itachi, while I struggled to catch up.
So when... I saw you hurting, I hurt, too. But now... you're happy, and you can focus on winning the game the best way. I don't think... someone like me could ever make you smile like the others can. I...
[His face pinches gently. He's not sure if there's more. He's already exhausted. He turns to leave, but then stops after a few steps.] I'm sorry... [He wonders if his voice has ever been this fragile.]
About the photograph.