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[ i already regret sasuke and senri ]
i hate that jan made us a shitpost so i already have one to use
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i hate that jan made us a shitpost so i already have one to use
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i hate that jan made us a shitpost so i already have one to use
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i hate that jan made us a shitpost so i already have one to use
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... mm-hmm.
I know. I believe in you.
[a beat.]
Thank you for taking care of me too, Sasuke.
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But he still won't meet Senri's gaze unless Senri happens to talk. Time to shiver in quiet, gay silence.]
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he closes his eyes and pulls his blanket closer around him. if sasuke will be quiet - he'll tell a story.]
.... Seanbon's never had a family. He told me... he made his wing out of what he thought it would look like, not because it was something he ever experienced. When I was there, I played family with some people too... Majima-san, Mizuki-san, Madopyon... I liked it a lot. But they still don't know everything about me. I don't know... if I'll get to tell them.
[ . . . ]
Seanbon doesn't like playing pretend games - that's what he told me. Even though pretend games is what I'm really good at. A musician, a writer, a sporty person - I spent a lot of time pretending to be things that I could be, but at the end of the day, I wasn't. It made me just as good with people off-stage as I was on-stage, if I could read them, and give them what they wanted. They would say nice things about me. They would remember me, for two seconds, for five minutes, for a few hours -
It was easier than admitting that in reality, I didn't have anyone. No friends who knew anything about me. No family. I came here because - I thought I could use a wish to find them. To find someone who would have to care about me unconditionally - no matter what lies I told, or... maybe even without any lies.
[and he presses his face into his knees, somewhere between embarrassed and ashamed]
It's so... stupid now... Everyone has amazing wishes - and maybe that's why... I want to make sure I don't win alone, that as many people can win as possible. I'm just too afraid to admit to everyone that I'm such a narrow-minded, selfish person.
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But he wonders, looking at the fire and listening, what Naruto would wish for if given this chance. What Sakura would wish for, what Kakashi would wish for, but mainly what Naruto, if pulled from their meeting in the Valley on the statues, would more than anything else.
It wouldn't be anything like his wish, would it? It would be... thoughtful, selfless, something that would help others, the village, and maybe that's why Justice spoke to him so well. It was just... all he saw, all he had been jealous of in Naruto.
Maybe he and Senri are alike in that regard.
He's quiet for a long time before he turns his head enough to glance over at Senri, brows pulled somewhat together.] Mine is. [The fact everything he says is backwards... might make it easier, he thinks.] My wish... isn't selfish.
I needed... to protect the village from being destroyed. After getting rid of Naruto who... kept... I needed the power to... keep all the ninja villages... the same, how they always had been.
[Surprisingly, there's a defeated, apologetic look on his face.]
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he'd had a feeling for a long time - for over a week now - but it's something else to hear sasuke admit to him directly. he watches him, but the look on senri's face isn't one of judgment. there's only the slight surprise of being opened up to, and then his heart getting stuck in his throat.
this happened - when you fake everything, when you work off scripts and only scripts - and he suddenly doesn't know what to do when something very real and very fragile is put in front of him. he can feel the cold feet creeping in, the thing that leaves him immobilized in difficult situations]
.... I know that it's because you wanted something better. I know that you wanted to help everyone, but you didn't know any other way to do it. I'm not mad - and I don't hate you.
[ . . . ]
Can I try that hug now?
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...he does remember the feeling when she did in the hospital after he woke.
Sighing quietly through his nose, he begrudgingly lowers the mug and puts it down on the edge of the table. Slowly, reluctantly, he slides his legs a little further out and makes room by parting his knees, unfurling his arms.
He looks at Senri once, and then he looks away without looking back again.]
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it's such a simple concept and yet senri feels utterly tricked - but also the simplicity of that thought helps alleviate some of the pressure and the tension he thinks. he laughs a little bit with the gesture, puts his own mug aside, and brings his blanket with him as he makes his way over to sasuke, opening his arms easily and wrapping them around sasuke's shoulders to pull him in for a hug whether he actually wants one or not]
.... try this with Seanbon and I bet it'd make him really happy.
[which is totally the reason why he's doing this - not because the look on sasuke's face managed to break senri's heart a little.]
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He does, however, very slowly and faintly drop the bottom half of his face into Senri's shoulder, turned a bit outward.]
I'll think about it.
[He'll probably give him a hug. Leave him alone.]
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... mm. That's all I can hope for.
[these dumb parents and their robo baby.
but senri won't push his luck - he'll pull away eventually, even though his arms remained around sasuke's shoulders because he's a useless gay anna what do you want from me]
Maybe we can figure out wishes together - next week, when you're not talking backwards.
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Finally, he reaches up and puts a palm across Senri's face, pushing it back without exactly being very rough about it. It isn't much different than petting a cat only to have it haul a loose and bite you when it's finished.]
Shouldn't you be with Takaomi?
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I already took care of him.
[please sasuke, ray is the only emo that senri loves more. but he seems to pause and by that i mean dana thought we could end this thread but new plot information came up. when senri speaks again, he sounds appropriately disturbed - ]
.... There's one more thing.
Aimi came up to me after trial - and I think that Ruin's last follower used their power to transfer their injuries onto her. She started bleeding from her middle all of a sudden.
I - don't know what to do with knowing that.
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Sasuke makes a strange expression, lowering his arm.] She what? [Though it's more of a rhetorical question than a real one.]
She was bleeding during or after the trial? They checked almost everyone...?
[WTF]
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[who left senri to deal with that??]
When she showed me the injuries they said -
'Missed me'.....
[WHO LEFT SENRI TO DEAL WITH THAT]