usogi | [ i already regret sasuke and senri ]

.... it's hard to accept.

[and he'll admit that quietly, shaking his head.]

You know... I was really mad last week - because Dizzy said that whoever got away with Fortune's murder was a good actor. And I'm supposed to be the best. So if there's some other two-bit second-rate understudy in the game, I wanted to find them. Ray-kun's guess turned out to be right and... I didn't believe in Newt either, and I guess that's why I'm pretty happy after everything.

[ . . . ]

I know that there are things only I can do - and I'm... actually really happy that you're trusting me with them, instead of trying to protect me again.

But just like you'd be upset if something happened to me - I don't know what I'd do if something happened to you. I think we both know that we'd need to keep going, to make sure that this world has a chance at something happier.

That doesn't mean I'm prepared to lose you, or that I ever will be.

Stop saying things like that.

[It sounds like he's scolding Senri, but really, it's not difficult to feel the cold swirl of guilt in his chest. Something a little sad, a little lonely. The expression on his face doesn't change, though.]

Newt wasn't that special of an actor. There were too many deaths and too much evidence. We couldn't see the truth. He got lucky. [NOT THAT HE'S TRYING TO CONSOLE SENRI OR ANYTHING.] The way he played the game wasn't against the rules. The gods never set this game up for us to be protected.

Not without working with each other.

Beauty told me from the start - that the more that you're known to the gods and the fellow participants, the more likely you are to be protected. I... believed him then, and I think I still believe him.

[ . . . and he frowns.]

I think I hate Newt, though.

[Sasuke frowns.]

Why? Because he killed or because he lied? Both? [The frown doesn't disappear.] It would be hypocritical of you. I've done both.

It's not the same, and if you try to convince me that the you as you currently are and that guy are anything alike, I'm going to hit you and we'll both suffer again.

[HE SAYS THIS SO CONFIDENTLY but-]

... I think intention counts for a lot. I don't think that guy was trying to help anyone, even if I don't know what he was aiming for at all. But his message when he hurt Ruin, the way that he acted once he got found out... It was cruel, and pointless.

And even if you could've ended up the same as him - you won't now, and I believe in that.

[At this, Sasuke just sighs. There's no use wasting his breath trying to argue Senri Nito on moral ethics. Reaching up, he clamps Senri's nose between two of his fingers and squeezes.]

You're so damn annoying. The day can't come quick enough when I'm rid of you.

[The words don't match the feelings radiating around inside him, and that's the most awful part about the damn curse. He releases Senri's nose and drops his arm.]

Why won't you ever hate me like you're supposed to?

[sldkjfsdf there's a slight noise of discomfort and his hand will come up to rub his nose once sasuke pulls away]

... you take care of me more than you hurt me. You help more than you make mistakes. And even when you do things that are reckless, I know it's because you're sincerely trying to protect the people you think you need to protect.

So I'm not going to hate you. I told you that weeks ago.

Nothing's changed about that, and nothing will.

Moron.

[He won't argue. Not worth it. These damn orange shitheads who won't let him mess his life up or throw it away for a greater good...]

I'm going to sleep. How about keep your nose out of anything stupid until I wake up.

Hmm? You don't want to nap together?

[but no he's backing off and finally letting go of sasuke completely]

Juuust kidding. Sleep well. I'll let you know if I find out anything else useful when you wake up.

[at which point they'll probably have their parlor party]

[ i already regret sasuke and senri ]

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