usogi | [ canonmates who don't trust each other for shit babey ]

[ one of his hands move so he can cup senri's face, his thumb idly brushing against his cheek. ]

I don't want to worry you. You have so much going on.

[ the last thing taka wants is to dump his issues on top of what senri already has. ]

[senri will lean into the touch and let his expression soften]

... I do. But no one else knows that, because you let me cry on you, and you let me lean on you when I don't know what to do. The only reason why I can keep going is because I have you, to take care of me when I'm scared.

[his hand comes over taka's, and senri turns his head briefly to press a kiss to taka's palm]

You have just as much going on as I do. You're talking to a bunch of gods - and they're all so fond of you, and I know how hard that can be for you. You're the one who goes out on Thursdays....

I want to know - what you're thinking. How you feel. About all of it.

[ he gets reminded a lot of how different things might be if senri wasn't here. he wouldn't have branched out as much as he has. he doubts he would have spoken to ray or sasuke, or that he would have trusted ishikirimaru enough to reveal to him. if senri wasn't here, or if they never became friends, or even if he was just slightly too slow...

he wouldn't be here. he knows he wouldn't still be here, because there would have been no way he'd survive on his own and he would have been on his own if it weren't for senri. ]

I think that I owe you a lot more than you know.

... does it have to be about owing me?

[he pouts a little bit]

I'm not keeping score. I just want to take care of you, like you take care of me.

[ there's a pause, and he leans in to kiss him ]

No, I just... don't thank you as much as I should.

[ . . . senri just sighs at that, and shakes his head as he leans in for a second kiss, pulling taka closer to him]

You don't need to thank me for that, dummy. Just.... stay with me, just like this.

It's all I could ever want.

... even though I know that's asking for a lot, too.

It's not.

[ it's ridiculously easy, actually. they don't always get along. a lot of their opinions and interests clash, and they both still have traits and habits that annoy the other but

there's nowhere else he'd want to be more, than this place by his side. ]

It's the easiest thing you could ask for.

[ . . . . and senri just sighs.

he nuzzles affectionately into taka's cheek, and hums quietly]

... then stay with me, and when you can... rely on me more.

Being with you - has never been heavy, for me.

[ he blinks rapidly a few times, like he's trying to get something out of his eyes before senri can notice

his hand that was on his cheek moves to wrap around senri's waist ]

I like you.

[ . . . . senri may or may not notice - but he doesn't say anything. he just leans in to give taka a proper kiss, long and full of emotion.

he just murmurs against taka's lips]

I like you, too. I like you so much.

Please let me take care of you.

... if it's you.

[ he kisses him again, and again ]

I'll try for you.

[ah... senri just hums softly at that, he melts against the kisses, happily settling against taka's affection]

... thanks.

I won't bring up anymore than I already have today but.... let's keep trying, okay? So you don't have to carry it all by yourself.

... you make it less heavy.

[ he'll try.

takaomi has always been someone who is actually rather good at helping other people with their problems. but he doesn't open himself up to others. he and senri are a little similar in that way, although their motivations for not sharing about themselves are different. ]

[senri just hums a soft note at that, pressing another kiss to taka's lips as he stays as close as he can]

... it's a lot for one person, considering the world we came from before. I bet even Ryugasaki-senpai and Hakka-senpai would struggle with stuff like this.

But as long as we have each other, we'll be okay.