[ it's so weird to think that they'll have so much time after this to do whatever they want. to go on so many dates and have fights and make up and have so many other first experiences together that they can't have while here.
taka thinks about his lucky he is, in the midst of so much death and lies, that he has senri here. even if it sometimes feels like the universe is conspiring against them. ]
[senri's brow furrows quietly at that before he shakes his head and keeps his arms around taka, resting some more of his weight against him to lean into him comfortably. ]
.... even if you're not, I wanted to say sorry.
Because even if it was fun while we were together, I'm sure I could've done some things to make it easier.
I don't like making trouble for you.
[even though for some reason trouble always seems to knock on his door]
[senri laughs a little bit at that - under the attention and from the words]
.... I get into a lot of trouble.
[for some reason. it's a little odd, and even odder still how every single time he's been cursed, he's been able to figure out exactly who it was that cursed him. but he'll just sigh quietly before meeting taka's gaze]
... I do feel like I can breathe a little easier, as long as you're next to me.
I feel like it's selfish to ask that of you - but I can't say that I don't like it. I just... hope the fun outweighs the curse.
No... I have a favor I need to do for her, but it's the kind that takes time and I'm not sure if I'll finish it before tomorrow. Maybe Saturday, but...
[ he can't say for sure
still, senri has a point there. ]
I wonder if he got hit by Hopelessly Devoted instead?
You might as well ask. Since if it wasn't her, that means someone else either Hopelessly Devoted him or there's two other arrows out there on top of what Cinque used and the one that got Sasuke.
[ which is now a lot more concerning now that it is affecting him personally. ]
Okay, I'll take care of it. I'll see if I can do that before everything today, so we can at least have a better answer. We have to at least confirm that one of the Ambitions went to Love... Cunning, Love, and Sincerity are where they all went off to.
Even if all we can confirm is that it wasn't Cinque, that still tells us something, so don't get too annoyed if you can't find out more, okay, dumb rabbit?
[ . . . . senri leans into the touch and. huffs quietly. because taka's right that he absolutely will be frustrated if he can't figure out everyone's alignments by trial, and it's unfortunately getting later and later.]
.... if this is all I can do, then I should be able to do it well.... that's all I think.
[sometimes he gets perfectionist about things, unfortunately.]
[senri just shakes his head and leans up to kiss taka's forehead]
'.... I'm trying my best, but every weekend it feels like it's not enough. But it's the best that I can do, with what I have, and the things that I do accomplish... well, they probably help someone, even if I can't see it right away.'
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[ it's so weird to think that they'll have so much time after this to do whatever they want. to go on so many dates and have fights and make up and have so many other first experiences together that they can't have while here.
taka thinks about his lucky he is, in the midst of so much death and lies, that he has senri here. even if it sometimes feels like the universe is conspiring against them. ]
I'm not mad at you.
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.... even if you're not, I wanted to say sorry.
Because even if it was fun while we were together, I'm sure I could've done some things to make it easier.
I don't like making trouble for you.
[even though for some reason trouble always seems to knock on his door]
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[ and sometimes even that word feels too small for how he feels. ]
Anything that might trouble you will trouble me, because I want to be there for all of it.
[ he kisses his cheek ]
The fun times, and the literally cursed ones.
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.... I get into a lot of trouble.
[for some reason. it's a little odd, and even odder still how every single time he's been cursed, he's been able to figure out exactly who it was that cursed him. but he'll just sigh quietly before meeting taka's gaze]
... I do feel like I can breathe a little easier, as long as you're next to me.
I feel like it's selfish to ask that of you - but I can't say that I don't like it. I just... hope the fun outweighs the curse.
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[ he pulls senri even closer, and leans in for another kiss
and pauses ]
Even if this particular one is a bit fucking much.
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We really have to get it undone. It's a little last minute, but I wouldn't suppose Rise-chan owes you for something?
.... It's kind of weird, to be honest. I think I hate it more because I know that even if Sasuke liked me for real, he wouldn't be anything like this.
It's like someone else's messed up idea of love coming out of his mouth.
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[ he can't say for sure
still, senri has a point there. ]
I wonder if he got hit by Hopelessly Devoted instead?
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I mean... maybe. I don't know if Cinnabon would choose Sasuke at her target - I can ask to make sure?
But... well, that means it was either Nonon-san or the last person that I don't know. I don't even know if that's Nonon-san's power this week.
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[ which is now a lot more concerning now that it is affecting him personally. ]
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Okay, I'll take care of it. I'll see if I can do that before everything today, so we can at least have a better answer. We have to at least confirm that one of the Ambitions went to Love... Cunning, Love, and Sincerity are where they all went off to.
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[ he runs a hand through senri's hair. ]
Even if all we can confirm is that it wasn't Cinque, that still tells us something, so don't get too annoyed if you can't find out more, okay, dumb rabbit?
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.... if this is all I can do, then I should be able to do it well.... that's all I think.
[sometimes he gets perfectionist about things, unfortunately.]
But... okay. I'll try not to dwell on it.
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[ taka can relate
but then he shakes his head. ]
You do a lot more than just that.
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[ . . . ]
I'll admit it if you admit it, though. That there's a chance that I do more than I think I do.
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he sighs. ]
Cheater.
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'.... I'm trying my best, but every weekend it feels like it's not enough. But it's the best that I can do, with what I have, and the things that I do accomplish... well, they probably help someone, even if I can't see it right away.'
I think you might know how that feels.
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it takes him another moment to talk. ]
Probably.
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... whatever you think of me, just know I feel the same about you.
I wouldn't be half as effective without you.
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he still appreciates the sentiment anyway. ]
... same here, Senri.