[ canonmates who don't trust each other for shit babey ]

[usogi]

time to solve some MURDERS, taka


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[usogi]

[senri leans into taka's touch, he leans into taka's kiss, he leans into everything that he says even if it makes him laugh. his eye is still watery and he thinks it's so dumb, that when he's upset he cries, when he's happy he cries, and he wonders if he'll ever be into tap into feelings this intense for when he goes onto the stage. he wonders why it's such a painful thing to be real.]

.... you hate every holiday, Taka....

[he starts with that, as if a small joke will be enough time to ease his emotions into something that doesn't risk exploding so suddenly.]

... last week, I told Rise-chan my secret. I told her about you, because I wasn't sure how to explain what I felt yet. I didn't know what to call it. I told her about how we didn't get along at all, at the beginning. But I also told her about how long we've known each other, and how... even back home, I always had you.

'As long as it's you'... is what I've been thinking, for a really long time. [he places a hand over taka's, keeping it to hold] When we entered this game, and I thought... I could rely on you, at least, even if no one else would trust me. And even when people did start to trust me, you were the only one that I thought would never lie to me.

You're... [he shakes his head quietly] You've always been the most real thing in my life, like I don't have to act, and I don't need a script. I've always counted on you, to tell me when I was doing something that could hurt someone. To keep me safe. To... help me be someone better than I am.

I don't know how long I've had these feelings, but I plan to keep them forever.

I plan to keep you forever.

[bakaomi]

[ he presses a kiss to senri's forehead. ]

I should... be honest, since you were honest to me about Tamaki. [ ... ] I think I had a crush on Sheba. And then she died, and I didn't actually realize what those feelings were until a couple of weeks later.

I'm only telling you this because... I saw her yesterday, and we hung out, and it was nice. But it was just like seeing a good friend, instead of someone I like. Because nothing really compares to you. Whenever I'm doing anything, I think about how much better it would be if you were there too.

[ he isn't sure if he could ever feel this strongly for anyone else. like he might stop breathing if something went wrong, and something happened to senri. ]

No one makes me want to try as much as you do. No one makes me as happy. No one gets under my skin as much. I hate it when I wake up and you've already gotten out of bed, because you're the first thing I want to see every morning. I love you.