Mm, good debate prep - but it's alright. I'm suuuper stubborn.
[ . . . ]
And... I want him to be happy... I know that he has people waiting for him back home. A girl who loves him so much that she confessed twice. A best friend that he'd do anything for. I'm selfish enough to ask him to come with us first but...
He's well-loved. I think he's figuring that out, too.
Cheri said, once upon a time, that the only "should" and "should not" when it comes to love is that you should talk to everyone involved and should not try to make decisions all by yourself.
And then something about two-way and maybe three-way streets—
[senri loves sincerity more than anything
but he'll just give taka a kiss]
... but I told Cheri that you'd be way too jealous for that. But... it's not like I mind either.
Sometimes I don't understand how you love me as much as you do - it's already a lot more than I deserve.
I'm not sharing. I'm not letting someone borrow my boyfriend.
[ he has to repeat it
it might be different, maybe, if it was a relationship where everyone liked each other equally. like... it'll still be odd, and he'd be hesitant, but the idea of sharing senri with someone who doesn't like taka at all is terrible. ]
... I'm still trying to figure out how the whole love thing works, but I don't think it has to do with whether you think you deserve it or not.
[senri just laughs quietly at that before leaning in to give taka another kiss]
... I'm all yours, Taka. I promise.
[of everything in this temple, he can at least say that certainly. if there's anything that taka could ever want from him, then senri would give it readily. he nuzzles against his cheek quietly but also admit]
... I think... a lot of this could've been avoided if I knew anything about love - at all.
[and he's a little quieter to admit that, because he has no reference. there's never been anyone in his life who loved him. he has friends, and he was just barely starting to let some of them in closer to him, but it was never quite the same.]
I hope it'll get better, now that I have a chance to learn with you.
[ because things will probably be different, when they go home and life actually slows down. they've definitely sped through stages of their relationship fairly quickly, going through emotions that normally would have probably taken them months instead of weeks. if they had just gotten together normally back home, he doesn't think they would be this in love after seven weeks.
it's real though, even if circumstances sped up the process.
he runs a hand through senri's hair. ]
I'm going to spend the rest of my life learning about love with you.
[he leans into taka's touch automatically, following his hand like the attention-starved dumb bunny that he is, but he's only entirely fond as he leans back in to press their lips together in a soft kiss, lingering. it makes senri's heart warm and he thinks about how much he's gotten to have in this game, despite all the pain that they go through]
... you know... I've been trying all week everything that I can to try to get as many people's wishes granted as possible. Because I think that they all have really important wishes and even now, I'm going to try to get Ray-kun's granted if I can. I'm scared... but people will make their choices.
For me... I let go of my wish, because I don't really need it. Some of it is because - I can wait three more years, once we get the top seat in the academy, and we'll get everything that we want. I have a chance that other people don't.
But even more than that...
I realized that if all I wanted was someone to love me, someone to be my family - you already made that wish come true for me.
And I just have to hold onto you as tightly as I can.
You don't even have to hold on that tight. I'll be here regardless, Senri.
[ it's weird, since takaomi really has the opposite problem. his family is large and they're doting and they're probably everything that senri would want for himself... and taka just complains and avoids them as much as he can, except for when it's convenient for him.
he really is a spoiled brat, huh. ]
I'll introduce you to my mom, but you're not allowed to be alone with her because I don't trust either of you.
that much gets senri to pause an for his heart to skip a beat - because he knows that taka doesn't like spending time with his family. it's one of the things that senri doesn't understand about him at all, why he'd avoid something that senri craved for his entire life. so when he pauses and he hears that the person that he wants to make into his family, invite him to meet even more of his family...
he presses another kiss to taka's lips, this time a little more insistent]
... you don't have to - if you think we're moving too fast, or you don't want to go back home, or....
[ it's fine, he kisses him back just as insistently, like there really isn't anything more important than giving senri attention. ]
Maybe not right away, since we're going to need to... readjust, first. [ ... ] It may take a while to be able to relax on Fridays and Saturdays.
[ to wake up and not be greeted by dead bodies or a trial. ]
But once we're settled... I'll take you there. If I'm going to spend the rest of my life with you, you're going to have to meet them eventually, I guess. Might as well get it out of the way.
you'll have to excuse him he's just going to. blush up to his ears and bury his face in taka's shoulder for a second because that's. a lot. that means a lot and it's not so much that he's afraid fo it but that he's almost afraid of how badly he wants it. the chance to have someone to be with him forever, to not feel lonely anymore, to have a family.... and he'll just quietly clutch onto taka as he thinks about it]
... Taka....
What's your wish...?
I always - I assumed it was the same as it was from the academy, but I... never asked...
[ it's funny, that after seven weeks this is the first time anyone asked him that. then again, it probably isn't that funny since no one but senri would probably care.
...
he should probably try to stop thinking like that. ]
[senri frowns a little bit at that, even as he lifts his head and studies taka's face curiously]
... It matters to me. Even if you've decided to change your mind... I want to know why you agreed to be here in the first place, and what you want now.
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[ . . . ]
And... I want him to be happy... I know that he has people waiting for him back home. A girl who loves him so much that she confessed twice. A best friend that he'd do anything for. I'm selfish enough to ask him to come with us first but...
He's well-loved. I think he's figuring that out, too.
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[ it's muttered
even though senri is literally right there so he can easily hear it ]
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[LIKE???/]
He always gets weird when we talk about her... and I told him last week to stop pretending that he's not going to go back to Konoha and date her.
Because he is.
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[ senri,,,,
but he kisses his cheek ]
They should just hurry and hook up then. I'm not sharing. You shouldn't even think about returning his feelings.
[ since earlier senri was wondering if he'd even be able to do that ]
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Cheri said, once upon a time, that the only "should" and "should not" when it comes to love is that you should talk to everyone involved and should not try to make decisions all by yourself.
And then something about two-way and maybe three-way streets—
[senri loves sincerity more than anything
but he'll just give taka a kiss]
... but I told Cheri that you'd be way too jealous for that. But... it's not like I mind either.
Sometimes I don't understand how you love me as much as you do - it's already a lot more than I deserve.
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I'm not sharing. I'm not letting someone borrow my boyfriend.
[ he has to repeat it
it might be different, maybe, if it was a relationship where everyone liked each other equally. like... it'll still be odd, and he'd be hesitant, but the idea of sharing senri with someone who doesn't like taka at all is terrible. ]
... I'm still trying to figure out how the whole love thing works, but I don't think it has to do with whether you think you deserve it or not.
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... I'm all yours, Taka. I promise.
[of everything in this temple, he can at least say that certainly. if there's anything that taka could ever want from him, then senri would give it readily. he nuzzles against his cheek quietly but also admit]
... I think... a lot of this could've been avoided if I knew anything about love - at all.
[and he's a little quieter to admit that, because he has no reference. there's never been anyone in his life who loved him. he has friends, and he was just barely starting to let some of them in closer to him, but it was never quite the same.]
I hope it'll get better, now that I have a chance to learn with you.
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[ because things will probably be different, when they go home and life actually slows down. they've definitely sped through stages of their relationship fairly quickly, going through emotions that normally would have probably taken them months instead of weeks. if they had just gotten together normally back home, he doesn't think they would be this in love after seven weeks.
it's real though, even if circumstances sped up the process.
he runs a hand through senri's hair. ]
I'm going to spend the rest of my life learning about love with you.
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... you know... I've been trying all week everything that I can to try to get as many people's wishes granted as possible. Because I think that they all have really important wishes and even now, I'm going to try to get Ray-kun's granted if I can. I'm scared... but people will make their choices.
For me... I let go of my wish, because I don't really need it. Some of it is because - I can wait three more years, once we get the top seat in the academy, and we'll get everything that we want. I have a chance that other people don't.
But even more than that...
I realized that if all I wanted was someone to love me, someone to be my family - you already made that wish come true for me.
And I just have to hold onto you as tightly as I can.
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[ it's weird, since takaomi really has the opposite problem. his family is large and they're doting and they're probably everything that senri would want for himself... and taka just complains and avoids them as much as he can, except for when it's convenient for him.
he really is a spoiled brat, huh. ]
I'll introduce you to my mom, but you're not allowed to be alone with her because I don't trust either of you.
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that much gets senri to pause an for his heart to skip a beat - because he knows that taka doesn't like spending time with his family. it's one of the things that senri doesn't understand about him at all, why he'd avoid something that senri craved for his entire life. so when he pauses and he hears that the person that he wants to make into his family, invite him to meet even more of his family...
he presses another kiss to taka's lips, this time a little more insistent]
... you don't have to - if you think we're moving too fast, or you don't want to go back home, or....
[wouldn't that be something]
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Maybe not right away, since we're going to need to... readjust, first. [ ... ] It may take a while to be able to relax on Fridays and Saturdays.
[ to wake up and not be greeted by dead bodies or a trial. ]
But once we're settled... I'll take you there. If I'm going to spend the rest of my life with you, you're going to have to meet them eventually, I guess. Might as well get it out of the way.
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you'll have to excuse him he's just going to. blush up to his ears and bury his face in taka's shoulder for a second because that's. a lot. that means a lot and it's not so much that he's afraid fo it but that he's almost afraid of how badly he wants it. the chance to have someone to be with him forever, to not feel lonely anymore, to have a family.... and he'll just quietly clutch onto taka as he thinks about it]
... Taka....
What's your wish...?
I always - I assumed it was the same as it was from the academy, but I... never asked...
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...
he should probably try to stop thinking like that. ]
It doesn't matter anymore.
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... It matters to me. Even if you've decided to change your mind... I want to know why you agreed to be here in the first place, and what you want now.
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[ hm ]
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senri looks thoughtful at that, and he reaches up to cup taka's cheek]
... let me know if you figure something out, Taka. Or if you need any help.
[ . . . ]
Can I ask what it was when you started...?
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[ he gives senri a quick kiss. ]
There are things I need to take care of. The wish would... make it easier... but I can always fall back on just winning at the academy.
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.... then even if Sasuke comes back with us, we can't let him have it.
I won't hold back - not even for Yumapi.
[not if it's something that taka needs him to do]
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[ dumbass......
still, he smiles into the kiss. ]
But get ready to work hard then.
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[and senri will just sigh quietly before he nuzzles into taka's cheek]
... can we go to bed now? The jackets are cute and everything, but I'm exhausted. I still have to talk to Sasuke tomorrow to make sure that he's okay.
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[ even without the sasuke stuff, taka has been running around a lot.
and he has to try to steal tamaki's dog tomorrow. ]
Come on, let's get ready to sleep.
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It's time to cuuuddle.♪
[but he'll pull away to get pajamas hell yea he knows what he's about]
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watches him with such a fond expression on his face before he goes to do the same. it's fine. ]