usogi | [ canonmates who don't trust each other for shit babey ]

[ah, he's so dumb. senri's face is red too - but he still laughs a little when taka immediately looks up. he shakes his head even as he presses himself more against taka, settling against him so that he can rest his head on taka's shoulder comfortably while he looks up at the fireworks in the sky

he glances briefly to taka while they're booming and

leans up to press one quick cold kiss to his cheek

and then settles back easily against him again.]

.... thanks for thinking I'm worth it....

You are worth it.

[ there's still things taka needs to figure out for himself, issues about intimacy that are tangled and are probably going to be a thorn he'll have to face at some point if this has any real chance of working out in the long run

but he can pretend none of that exists right now. ]

... I know letting people in is hard for you so.... I'll do my best, too.

[they've talked about it - how sometimes matters of the heart are complicated, and how senri is willing to accept those parts of people, but sometimes it's not so easy for taka. it makes senri nervous, given how complicated he knows his own heart to be but.

... growth and learning is what he's preaching to all the gods.

maybe he can learn something about it too.]

I think we'll... have to do a lot of the figuring out when we're home.

[ because admittedly, taka doubts that they should try to fix any and all issues while people are dying

that seems like it might go poorly. ]

[ . . . on the other hand, people dying and them still having their communication and trust issues seems like a poor idea to senri. but. he shakes his head and just settles more against taka instead of voicing that.]

.... mm, we'll see.

[for right now, the fireworks are quite pretty]

... hey, Senri?

[ he knows what he wants to say, but he's not really sure if he should. ]

[senri looks up at him, tearing his eyes away from the fireworks]

Hm?

... good luck tomorrow.

With whatever that you do.

[ . . . . god dammit.

senri is just shaking his head and he settles against taka again]

... Beauty turned me down already. He did it really gently? I was just telling him how I let Dizzy pick who I went on a date with from a list - Sasuke, you, Zo, Beauty, Cheri - and he barely even acknowledged it. I don't think I'm even on his radar.

[he sighs]

I think... that's for the best. Because no matter how much I like him, it's probably not good for me to be spoiled so much, or something like that. It's probably a passing infatuation anyway.

[ . . . . . ]

Please believe me when I say - I like you too. A lot. I'm just... learning how to deal with people still caring me even after finding out my lies.

[it's overwhelming for him, but he can imagine it's hard for taka to keep up with too.]

[ he can argue

because taka spoke to beauty, and no matter how many times they tried changing the topic, it always went back to senri. senri, senri, senri, and it would be a lie if he said that sasuke was the only person he was jealous of

but realistically, it is for the best, if only because beauty is a god and senri will be going home after all of this. it wouldn't work out.

although it's not like he's an expert on that sort of thing. ]

You might be surprised.

I don't think I will be... He'll probably humor me a little, because he's sweet and likes to give me what I want. He just said he wanted to see the fireworks, so I said I'd take him.

[ . . . and he shakes his head and tries to look up to watch taka's expression.]

I don't want to be surprised either.

I think.... I'd rather just make sure there aren't any loose ends there. So by Monday I can give you all my attention.

[ he lets out a breath and closes his eyes for a moment.

... this spot is actually pretty uncomfortable and his back is going to feel horrible later, but he doesn't want to move. ]

Don't you need to turn down all the other people who went on a date with first, too?

[ ? ]

Sasuke doesn't date boys.

And Yu-kun was probably just goofing off - I wouldn't have agreed if he was being serious.

Yu?

[ HE WAS JOKING HE DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT ANYONE OTHER THAN SASUKE AND BEAUTY ]

[oops]

Oh - yeah, but we were just joking. We spent most of our [pulls his arms around from taka just to use air quotes] "date" talking about Sasuke.

I mean Cheri technically joined Sasuke and I for a little bit - but I think he wants to take care of me more than he wants to date me.

So he does want to date you...

[ although taka seems a little

distracted now ]

[ ??? ]

Who?

[HE JUST NAMED A LOT OF NAMES]

Nothing.

[ ... ]

What do you know about Yu?

Depends. Do you want the filtered or unfiltered opinion?

Unfiltered.

[ normally he'd say filter because senri talks too fucking much but ]

I told you his alignment a little while ago and I think that it still fits? He's definitely the kind of person who would uphold a lot of strong ideals, and I think he's trying really hard to take care of everyone - but he also crumbles pretty easily if he messes up. I've moooostly forgiven him over his stupid theory in the first trial, but it was reckless and dumb and unsubstantiated so it made me angry.

Kind of a try hard, but he's going to try to befriend Sasuke, so if that makes two people who'll keep him in line, that makes my life easier. Althooooough, Yu actually cursed Ray last week in order to get Ray to defect, and I thought that was pretty annoying.

Tries to build really sincere relationships with everyone, mostly succeeds - but while I'm sure he cares about me, I don't think I actually trust him enough to share information like I do with others. I guess I just don't think he can do anything that I can't.

Overall? Mostly harmless! Very dedicated. Good friend. Would still lie to him if I felt like it.

[there's senri's unfiltered opinion of someone that he considers 'average' aka like how he treats 99% of people]

[ jesus christ senri

he nods along, but pauses once senri reaches the end. ]

Do you know anything at all about what he did before he came here? Back home.

[taka said unfiltered and he already knows senri's actually a judgey binch]

Nope, our conversations don't actually last that long - he doesn't really give me a chance to find out more about him.

Hm.

[ he sighs ]

Thanks.

[senri tilts his head]

What's up?

Do you need me to go find out? I'm sure he'll tell if I ask.

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