... it's a little lame to reference, but has Majima-san ever heard of Pocchi the Honeybee? Or 3000 Miles in Search of Mother?
[they're dream!ing parodies of Hutch the Honeybee and 3000 Leagues in Search of Mother, respectively - they're just old anime that definitely have nothing in common]
I guess the best way to explain it is - there's a long and difficult journey I have to go on, but I would like a home to come back to at the end of the day.... but I don't know if I'll be able to make it without some help, godly or otherwise.
[ given that the release date of those anime places majima at roughly 11~12 when they aired, it actually is possible he could have grown up watching them?? like he'd probably be confused by the slightly different names, but they're close enough that he's able to put two and two together. ]
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You're a good kid, Nito-kun. Hell of a shame ya got stuck in a game with a jackass like me, 'cause I can't risk not bein' part of the winnin' team.
I think that a lot of the people here can say the same thing, Majima-san. And for what it's worth, I'm sure you have something that you're working hard for, so I don't think you're uh - a jackass for it.
[cursing in front of a yakuza, even if he's just parroting him, feels kind of awkward]
I'm not asking you to spare me if I stand between you and winning or anything - but I thought it'd be worth at least asking for some help.
[ something about the way senri says that so calmly, like he's already accepted an inevitable defeat, pushes majima's buttons. without thought, he slams his hand down in the table enough to make it shake. there's a ferocity that flashes in his eye, a growl that grips his words, that definitively confirm the image of the ruthless yakuza that senri has already conjured of him. ]
Hey! Don't go sayin' shit like that so goddamn casually, ya hear me?
[ ... he takes a moment to collect himself and ball the hand he's got on the table into a loose fist. if there's any lingering anger on his face, it's resentment toward himself. ]
... Sorry. Just... save that kinda crap for someone who ain't me.
[the slam makes senri almost jump out of his seat - and he wonders if this is what it means for people's life to flash before their eyes. he knows that he's not as careful with his words as he should be, and he wonders if this is the mistake that'll push him over the edge. he breathes in sharply - ]
[and he's still nervous when majima calms down. it's a different kind of nerves compared to when he's about to go on stage, and he tries to tape them down, because even now he doesn't want to be so pitiful that he starts shaking in front of an ex-yakuza.]
I'm... not trying to be casual. [ah, his hands are shaking, and he tries to shift so that they're not so easily seen] But I don't want Majima-san to feel bad either.
I don't want to lose! I want to win more than anything else, when they're promising something I've wanted my whole life...!
[ . . . ugh.]
But it's hard - when I don't know what you're fighting for, but I know it's important.
[ seeing senri so shaken by his outburst just seems to further reinforce the fact that he doesn't deserve to win this competition when there are others who do.
a few seconds pass before he can look senri in the eye again. this eye isn't the one of the man who would become known as the "mad dog of shimano." ]
I'll tell ya this much—I ain't fightin' for myself. I don't care what happens to me, as long as I get what I came here for. Are ya willin' to go that far, Nito-kun?
Because my wish doesn't come true unless I get to enjoy it - until I get to face what I want, and reach it with my own two hands. I have to be alive for that.
[so the mods better chop off one of senri's hands before i'm happy.
anyway he's just going to wear a smile, and it's not particularly strong, it's not the normal peppiness that senri carries with him. but it's encouraging and genuine.]
Majima-san and I come from two completely different worlds, I guess....
But I still kinda hope you end up happy if your wish comes true too. Sorry if that's - weird to say. But if I said I felt otherwise, it'd be a lie.
[ . . . well there's a lot on his mind. he's just trying to figure out what's safe to say, and what isn't.]
.... I wanna believe in the version of the game where we play and the fewest number of people have to get hurt in the process. I wasn't very convincing here... but normally I'm pretty good at it, you know? So that's how I'm going to play.
I want to know if I can tell Majima-san about what I find out in the future, playing that way.
... You might've already forgotten - but you said that you thought you were coming here to fight people that deserved it. And you saw me and decided that I wasn't one of those people.
There's not a lot of people that I trust here... but I thought I could at least believe in what you said then.
[and he offers up a smile, tilting his head.]
If nerve's all I got going for me in this game, then I'll take it.
Sorry, I just... never met someone as fuckin' dumb as you, Nito-kun.
[ his laughter is not malicious; in fact, it's probably the most genuine he's been so far? he lifts himself back up and reaches over the table to clap a hand on senri's shoulder. ]
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I ain't gonna ask ya who you're playin' for, but why'd ya come here in the first place?
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[they're dream!ing parodies of Hutch the Honeybee and 3000 Leagues in Search of Mother, respectively - they're just old anime that definitely have nothing in common]
I guess the best way to explain it is - there's a long and difficult journey I have to go on, but I would like a home to come back to at the end of the day.... but I don't know if I'll be able to make it without some help, godly or otherwise.
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You're a good kid, Nito-kun. Hell of a shame ya got stuck in a game with a jackass like me, 'cause I can't risk not bein' part of the winnin' team.
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[cursing in front of a yakuza, even if he's just parroting him, feels kind of awkward]
I'm not asking you to spare me if I stand between you and winning or anything - but I thought it'd be worth at least asking for some help.
I get it if you can't.
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Hey! Don't go sayin' shit like that so goddamn casually, ya hear me?
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... Sorry. Just... save that kinda crap for someone who ain't me.
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I'm... not trying to be casual. [ah, his hands are shaking, and he tries to shift so that they're not so easily seen] But I don't want Majima-san to feel bad either.
I don't want to lose! I want to win more than anything else, when they're promising something I've wanted my whole life...!
[ . . . ugh.]
But it's hard - when I don't know what you're fighting for, but I know it's important.
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a few seconds pass before he can look senri in the eye again. this eye isn't the one of the man who would become known as the "mad dog of shimano." ]
I'll tell ya this much—I ain't fightin' for myself. I don't care what happens to me, as long as I get what I came here for. Are ya willin' to go that far, Nito-kun?
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Because my wish doesn't come true unless I get to enjoy it - until I get to face what I want, and reach it with my own two hands. I have to be alive for that.
[so the mods better chop off one of senri's hands before i'm happy.
anyway he's just going to wear a smile, and it's not particularly strong, it's not the normal peppiness that senri carries with him. but it's encouraging and genuine.]
Majima-san and I come from two completely different worlds, I guess....
But I still kinda hope you end up happy if your wish comes true too. Sorry if that's - weird to say. But if I said I felt otherwise, it'd be a lie.
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at this point, majima just looks tired. ]
... s'that all, or is there anythin' else on your mind while ya got me here?
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.... I wanna believe in the version of the game where we play and the fewest number of people have to get hurt in the process. I wasn't very convincing here... but normally I'm pretty good at it, you know? So that's how I'm going to play.
I want to know if I can tell Majima-san about what I find out in the future, playing that way.
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Ya got a lotta nerve, trustin' someone like me.
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There's not a lot of people that I trust here... but I thought I could at least believe in what you said then.
[and he offers up a smile, tilting his head.]
If nerve's all I got going for me in this game, then I'll take it.
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my
god
majima cannot do anything but slump in his seat and laugh. ]
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Sometimes Majima-san can be really rude too....
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[ his laughter is not malicious; in fact, it's probably the most genuine he's been so far? he lifts himself back up and reaches over the table to clap a hand on senri's shoulder. ]
That ain't an insult, for the record.
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Majima-san?! I don't know what that means!
[he doesn't have a SINGLE BRAINCELL]
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Don't worry about it. I got ya.
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[THIS IS A DISASTER]
Maybe I should learn how yakuza talk....
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You already did? Is there a difference?
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Last time was because ya surprised me. This time would be 'cause I'm makin' fun of ya.
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[senri manages a sigh]
Mm, I won't take up anymore of your time. But if you hear anything interesting, please share! I'm doing my best here too.
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[ he rises from his seat. ]
Be seein' ya, Nito-kun.