[ senri & ray are not okay ]

[usogi]

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[usogi]

[he stumbles with the shove - but he listens. and he listens closely.]

.... it wasn't a mistake. You're doing fine, Ray. I'm the one who made a mistake, because lying is the only thing that I do well until it all blows up. That's not on you.

You put your belief in me and I messed that up and I misled you. I'm the worst.

But I - .... I didn't mean to hurt you. Or to put you in a weird position, so I kept it to a half-truth. I lived in the technicality as if that made it any better, and I'll make sure I don't do that anymore, because you deserve better from me.

[ . . . ]

If you need to use me, that's fine. You don't have to care about me. But that's not going to stop me from caring about you. I can still believe in you, even if you don't believe in me.

[selfimmolates]

[—this goddamn moron.

this time, ray properly meets senri's eyes.]

And that's what's pissing me off about you!

[usogi]

[sdlkfj]

What....? Which part...?!

[selfimmolates]

[...

ray looks away again because he. actually doesn't know how to explain this.]

[usogi]

Ray-kun...? It's okay - you can just yell until you figure out, if that's what you need.

Emotions aren't easy....

[selfimmolates]

Shut up.

[usogi]

[um.]

.... I can wait....

[selfimmolates]

[..................

you know what. what if ray just. turns around and starts walking away because he doesn't know how to handle this. bye.]

[usogi]

[then senri will follow - ]

I didn't mean wait in one spot...! Come on, we were finally getting somewhere!

[selfimmolates]

[DAMN IT HE KNEW THAT WOULDN'T WORK

but the second or so that it gave him helped. he stops, looks up, and sighs. then, he turns to face senri.]

... You said Takaomi was a terrible liar. How often do you have the people you lie to lie to you back?

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It depends... and it depends on if I find out. Shishimaru's obvious, and I'm slowly getting better at finding Sasuke-kun's lies. I still don't know if the gods are lying to me.

I don't always guess that people will be honest with me but... well, if they're not, they probably have a reason.

[he tilts his head]

Why....?

[selfimmolates]

It turns out I'm not as ruthless as I thought.

[ray what does that even mean]

[usogi]

[ray what DOES that even mean]

... did you think that I'd think you're awful for lying to me back....?

[selfimmolates]

I know I'm awful. People thinking the truth doesn't bother me.

But it seems like I'm not so used to using people as tools when it isn't mutual.

[or when they're not about to die, but that's. a different can of worms and ray has said enough without going into horrific backstory.]

[usogi]

[ . . . jeeze. senri's expression softens.]

.... if you're looking to that kind of relationship, you really should just stick to Sasuke-kun.

But... I really like us being friends. If you need me to play substitute for the person that you normally work with, and be the one that gets us allies, I can do that.

I just... don't want you to take this all on by yourself. I hope you can try to keep trusting people, but if you can't...

I promise you can rely on me this time.

[selfimmolates]

... Please don't insult Emma. She's an idiot but she's still way smarter than you.

[usogi]

I accept this in theory but in practice I can only handle one prodigy child that blows me out of the water at a time.

[selfimmolates]

You'd love her if she was here. You're like her if she had a male clone who was aged by a few years and then dropped repeatedly on the head.

[usogi]

...... I feel both offended and pleased! Thank you, but also stop it!

[selfimmolates]

You're welcome.

[usogi]

[ . . . dammit.

senri just snorts.]

Are we okay now?

[selfimmolates]

... I guess, but you're still a pain in the ass.

[usogi]

That's rude, but I'll take it, I guess...!

[ . . . ]

Next time, please just tell me... I ran around in circles trying to figure out what happened.

[selfimmolates]

You could've just stopped thinking about it!

[usogi]

I haven't stopped thinking about it since Sunday! Sasuke-kun was so mad - he nearly died in a fire but I still asked him about you because I didn't think to stop myself!

[HE GETS SO CLUMSY]