So he thought that meant that you didn't feel bad for telling someone else his alignment - even if it was someone as trustworthy as Ray-kun. I get it, but....
Shishimaru sometimes needs things to be said out loud in order to understand him. Telling him that you're friends, that you care about him, that you're sorry if you make a mistake.
... I didn't want to apologize for telling Ray-kun, because I think Ray-kun is a good person, and I think that someone like him knowing... Will mean Takaomi-kun will be safer in the long run.
But I should have apologized to him for telling anyone, because it was without his permission.
... I know what you mean. You did it in his best interest, right?
But... that guy is bad with trust, and he thinks relationships are heavy, and bonds are fragile. He's... I think sometimes he's scared to let people in a lot.
So please tell him you're sorry, if only for not asking him first if you could protect him. I think he'll get it a little better then.
[ Madoka nods, then just stares at Senri for a kind of long moment.
Senri lied to her once, and he's referred to himself as someone with a lying habit.
But she also thinks - it makes more sense that he would lie to her when they barely knew each other. It's sort of 'fair enough,' in a way. It doesn't necessarily mean that he had lied to someone he knew from back home like Takaomi, too.
... As interesting as that is to wonder about, she doesn't want to pry. She tries to lighten the mood a little bit, offering: ]
Everyone has things they're sensitive to. Kyouko-chan hated it when people wasted food.
Um... I think it's the same for me. I don't like people who don't at least consider the impact they have on other people. I don't like people who trick other people.
You already apologized for that. I think... I don't like it, but it doesn't bother me as much on such a small scale. It's not good, but... It's not so bad either to tell a small lie to someone you don't know very well yet.
It bothers me when it's tricking a lot of people. When it's hurting a lot of people.
I guess that's why I struggle with this game sometimes - it's meant to reward people who'll tell lies, and get away with them. But not small lies. Sometimes they're really big.
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week 5, monday
lean in real close to whisper to her]
I went back to Cheri!
[hE'S KEEPING A PROMISE]
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[ just knowing that Sincerity will have a follower and be safe is more important than knowing Senri's alignment. ]
I'm staying with Cunning, for now. I like him.
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[he offers up a smile]
Do you know who the other Cunning followers might be, Madopyon?
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I don't know... I wish I did, so that we could explore places together with the Think Outside the Lock power...
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[ except for Madoka who just publicly announces that stuff right away, but whatever. ]
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[and senri sighs softly before he pauses - ]
... speaking of that, Madopyon... Have you talked to Shishimaru recently?
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Yeah. Um... Don't worry. I won't try talking to him anymore.
[ She assumes that Senri is worried about her bugging Takaomi. ]
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[ . . . ]
I don't think you were bothering him... I think - he cares about you, he just has trouble dealing with his own emotions.
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But I also don't think it was fair to tell someone else his secret, so it's okay if he doesn't like me anymore because of that.
[ she has managed to completely ignore what Senri just said about him caring about her. ]
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No that's not....
He's struggling because he still wants to like you, but Shishimaru's... he's fragile, I guess. He's easily scared away in friendships.
... if you didn't think it was fair, maybe you should tell him that and... say sorry.
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legitimately occurring to her for the first time. ]
Oh. I didn't apologize, did I?
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senri sighs softly]
... he told me you didn't.
So he thought that meant that you didn't feel bad for telling someone else his alignment - even if it was someone as trustworthy as Ray-kun. I get it, but....
Shishimaru sometimes needs things to be said out loud in order to understand him. Telling him that you're friends, that you care about him, that you're sorry if you make a mistake.
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But I should have apologized to him for telling anyone, because it was without his permission.
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... I know what you mean. You did it in his best interest, right?
But... that guy is bad with trust, and he thinks relationships are heavy, and bonds are fragile. He's... I think sometimes he's scared to let people in a lot.
So please tell him you're sorry, if only for not asking him first if you could protect him. I think he'll get it a little better then.
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[ She nods. Then hesitates. Then nods again.
Then hesitates again. ]
... Do you think he'll want to hear it, though...?
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... I don't think he would've told me, if he wasn't still hoping he'd get to hear it.
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I didn't want to be stubborn and keeping bothering him if he didn't like me.
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That guy...
He only hates liars.
He's kind of picky about who he hangs out with, and he's short-tempered, and difficult to get along with because you can't read his mind.
[ . . . ]
But he wouldn't dislike anyone that he knows is trying their best, who just wants him to be safe.
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Senri lied to her once, and he's referred to himself as someone with a lying habit.
But she also thinks - it makes more sense that he would lie to her when they barely knew each other. It's sort of 'fair enough,' in a way. It doesn't necessarily mean that he had lied to someone he knew from back home like Takaomi, too.
... As interesting as that is to wonder about, she doesn't want to pry. She tries to lighten the mood a little bit, offering: ]
Everyone has things they're sensitive to. Kyouko-chan hated it when people wasted food.
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but if he does, he doesn't seem to say anything about it]
Mm-hmm. I don't like rude people who don't care about the emotions of others.
It happens.
What don't you like, Madopyon?
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... I'm sorry too then, because I know I did the latter pretty early in the game.
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You already apologized for that. I think... I don't like it, but it doesn't bother me as much on such a small scale. It's not good, but... It's not so bad either to tell a small lie to someone you don't know very well yet.
It bothers me when it's tricking a lot of people. When it's hurting a lot of people.
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[senri sighs]
I guess that's why I struggle with this game sometimes - it's meant to reward people who'll tell lies, and get away with them. But not small lies. Sometimes they're really big.
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