[ishi takes a seat on that last stair, though after senri didn't turn to look at him-- he doesn't try to push it. he's looking ahead, just sort of keeping senri in his peripheral vision instead.]
It is not something you should force, but neither does it mean that you should be alone.
[senri looks away - he'd rather not have anyone see his face right now. it's gross and blotchy and full of tears, and it's not at all the right face for an actor to show the world.]
.... It'd be okay. It's boring to just sit here with me.
As I have been informed several times, I am not the most exciting individual myself. [a very faint touch of amusement slips into his tone, there, but it fades again quickly enough.] I promise you, I do not find this boring.
[he'd be perfectly content to sit here and say nothing, honestly, if that was what senri wanted. just as long as he doesn't have to do it alone.]
[even though senri won't talk? even though he doesn't know what to say? and he doesn't know how to let himself cry and break down in front of another person?
but he thinks he can try to keep finding that catharsis later... for right now he won't deny that some part of him selfishly enjoys the thought of someone not wanting to leave him alone, for whatever reason.
it takes a long while before he speaks]
... has Ishirin-san dealt with this kind of thing before?
[it's also a long time before he gets an answer, a soft sigh breathed out before ishi speaks.]
I would very much like to tell you I haven't, but-- yes. This is not the first time.
[but that doesn't make it any less sorrowful. maybe it was a bit too much to hope that it might not happen here, that things could be settled without bloodshed, reversible or not.]
Call on me at the beginning of the week, then, and we'll do that before I begin working on the rest of them. I'm certain we can come up with something she'll appreciate.
[even if it's just barely, it's still a smile, so-- he'll consider that good enough, given the situation.]
Hopefully that will give some happiness back to her, if she enjoyed spreading it.
[ . . . . the truth is that he wants to stay a little longer and his gaze lingers but - he decides that he shouldn't keep ishi any longer than he already has.]
[he's not going to push it, if senri's decided it's fine to move on from here; he just nods, gesturing for senri to come with him as he starts back up the stairs.]
Where shall we go, then?
[cooking or no cooking-- he's more used to the less familiar bits of the kitchen by now, at least.]
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[ishi takes a seat on that last stair, though after senri didn't turn to look at him-- he doesn't try to push it. he's looking ahead, just sort of keeping senri in his peripheral vision instead.]
It is not something you should force, but neither does it mean that you should be alone.
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.... It'd be okay. It's boring to just sit here with me.
I'm - pretty used to going it alone sometimes.
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[he'd be perfectly content to sit here and say nothing, honestly, if that was what senri wanted. just as long as he doesn't have to do it alone.]
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If you're sure.
[even though senri won't talk? even though he doesn't know what to say? and he doesn't know how to let himself cry and break down in front of another person?
but he thinks he can try to keep finding that catharsis later... for right now he won't deny that some part of him selfishly enjoys the thought of someone not wanting to leave him alone, for whatever reason.
it takes a long while before he speaks]
... has Ishirin-san dealt with this kind of thing before?
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I would very much like to tell you I haven't, but-- yes. This is not the first time.
[but that doesn't make it any less sorrowful. maybe it was a bit too much to hope that it might not happen here, that things could be settled without bloodshed, reversible or not.]
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Have you lost friends?
Friends that you made promises with?
[ . . . . . ]
Sorry - to ask about something so sad.
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[if there's any time for sad questions, a day like this must be it.]
Did the two of you make a promise, before?
[he's skipping over that question, but the fact that he doesn't answer it might be a little telling on its own.]
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[and senri huffs out a laugh, bittersweet]
We said we'd win this whole thing. I was just waiting for her to be able to get the chance to move to my team officially....
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[he gives senri a nod there, finally glancing over to him.]
Keep that promise in mind throughout the rest of this contest, and move forward along with her memory.
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it's hard when shiki should be standing next to him, instead of being kept in his heart like someone already lost.]
... mmm. I will, Ishirin-san.
tags this while trial is on hold & i don't have to try to catch up yet
[he can take time for himself first, to deal with this however he needs to.
a couple more moments, and-]
If you know something you think she would like, shall we try leaving an offering for her when the weekend is over?
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senri barely manages a smile at that, but he does.]
... yeah.
She liked fashion, and sweets, and being cute and making people happy. I'm sure there's a lot that we could give her.
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[even if it's just barely, it's still a smile, so-- he'll consider that good enough, given the situation.]
Hopefully that will give some happiness back to her, if she enjoyed spreading it.
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[and his expression wanders back to something sadder, even if he tries to temper it away. he's doing his best. he promises.]
She'd be mad at me if I stayed down too long....
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[ishi glances back out to the clouds, there, considering.]
Would you like to go back, or do you need to stay here a while longer?
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... No, it's okay. We can go back.
I'm getting kind of hungry.
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ishi stands, then, reaching over to place a hand on senri's shoulder for a moment.]
Then I will go find something to prepare, or find a place for us at the cafe if you'd prefer-- and you may join me whenever you're ready.
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[he shakes his head and offers up a smile]
I'll join you now, Ishirin-san.
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[he's not going to push it, if senri's decided it's fine to move on from here; he just nods, gesturing for senri to come with him as he starts back up the stairs.]
Where shall we go, then?
[cooking or no cooking-- he's more used to the less familiar bits of the kitchen by now, at least.]