usogi | [ i already regret sasuke and senri ]

Shut up, you moron, and stop making it weird!

[Senri is blushing, but he can't even enjoy it because he's angry that he's embarrassed Senri called him out so blatantly when he was just TRYING TO BE NICE FLYING UNDER THE RADAR!!!!]

I'm Sasuke. Just take it and don't make a big deal out of it. You gave me information because you're talented at getting it when everyone thinks you're just an idiot. You're just like Naruto.

It's infuriating.

[ . . . . oh.

that manages to burst senri's bubble really easily as he sighs - ]

Oh. You're using me to work through your feelings for someone else.

I guess that's fine.

What? I would never call Naruto amazing. He's an idiot who can't do anything.

[Nevermind what he just said. Just--shut up. He's trying to pull Senri along again by continuing to walk.]

Forget I even said anything. What do you want in exchange for the intel?

Just confirm for me if Mouri-san is still in Justice. If my theories are right, the two Ambition just scrambled to Love and Sincerity. Estelle could've been the last Bambi I was missing.

[senri will go along with the walk though, letting his gaze fall onto shibuya instead. he relaxes as if seeing a piece of his home]

Also - be more honest with your feelings. You love your friends, you're probably going to go back home and date Sakura-san, and I'm getting tired of you pretending you don't and you're not.

Alright.

[He looks in the opposite direction of Senri as they walk, refusing to look back.] I'm not going back to date Sakura. I'm not going to date her period. [His lips thin and frown.] She confessed her feelings to me when we were younger to try to keep me from leaving.

But I left anyway because my revenge against Itachi was more important.

[He did say he let down a girl already, right.]

She did it again, recently... for me back home. Naruto and I need to settle things, and she tried to stop me by confessing. She'd just get in the way of our fight. So... I used the sharingan to show her an illusion of me killing her, something that would knock her out for a while.

I'm not going to date her because... I won't ever be able to make up for the things I've done.

... you're so dumb... You didn't even say once that it's because you don't want to.

Sakura-san already sounds like an amazing person, to still hold onto feelings for someone who disappointed her once before. I wouldn't blame her if she decided to change her mind - but feelings like love, and caring for someone... Even if you try to change your mind, that doesn't always mean that you can change how you actually feel.

[senri's gaze lingers at a display in a window - white roses - and then he shakes his head]

You're just the one who won't let yourself learn about a life outside of what you thought you needed to do. But you're not hopeless. Hobbies, friends, cooking, interacting with other people... you've done that fine here.

[they walk along, and senri just hums thoughtfully - ]

You just need to realize that you deserve more than people's hatred, despite the mistakes you've made.

[Senri really is a broken record. This has been, like, the sixth time Senri has had to tell him the same thing. He still... No, he sees it. He gets it. But changing how he is turns out to be a bit more difficult than he had been expecting.

He's trying?

His eye watches Senri's reflection in the glass as they slow before they pass by the window and keep going. He's still frowning.]

There isn't anything left for me in my world. When I got back, I'll be imprisoned for the crimes I've committed against my village. When I go, it'll only be to help Naruto complete what's required to stop the Infinite Tsukuyomi. The illusion almost everyone is trapped in, draining their chakra. If he can beat me, I'll help him undo it.

But... after that, I won't have a life. Even as a missing-nin, I'll be alone.

[ninjas are so fucking much.

but senri just... stares....]

You give up so easily when it comes to yourself....

It makes me mad.

[He opens his mouth... but then shuts it? He has no good argument. Well, he does, but he knows it won't mean a damn to Senri.]

Why is it alright for us to hunt down Ray's killers, but you think I deserve better? His killers aren't any different than me. I've killed, too.

Because I hate them. Whoever they are. I might not hate them forever, but right now I hate them.

[senri's not the type of person who is delusional - when he found out that guy was the one who hurt zoe and jude, he was mad. he's still mad. but he can't harbor the same kind of anger that he did for newt.]

I don't hate you. And I never will, because you're not the bad person that you always paint yourself to be.

Tch... You're so annoying. [There isn't any heat to these words.] You would change your mind if you knew the things I've felt.

And the things I've done.

No, I don't think that I would. I'd be mad at you, and exhausted by you, and think that you're an idiot.

[guaranteed!!!]

... but I'll never hate you.

[Geez. There's a pause, and then he reaches up to pinch Senri's nose between his fingers. He doesn't shake, but he does squeeze it roughly for a second or two before letting go.]

Likewise. Moron.

[sdflkjsdlfkj

he absolutely makes a noise of complaint at that, wincing]

Who would hate me in the first place? I'm endearing!

You're a pain in the ass is what you are.

[But he's Sasuke's pain in the ass? And, like, Takaomi's too, but they're sharing the burden. Otherwise, they'd be dead.]

[sdflkjsdf]

Be nicer to me... I gave you what you wanted.

Fine.

[There's an extended silence of him not saying anything for the longest time, and then:]

I'm sorry.

[ . . . . . . . . . . . . ]

Who cursed you and with what.

Why do you keep saying that? I'm not cursed. You're the one who told me to be nicer. You're the one who keeps going on and on about--everything like that.

Make up your mind.

Just because I ask you to be nicer doesn't mean I thought you'd do it!

What do you want from me then! You either want me to be nice, or you don't! You never stop nagging me!

Why are you so annoying!

I'm not annoying, you're just confusing! You spend five weeks telling me how annoying I am - and then you'll just say I'm - amazing? C'mon, quit it!

[fslkdjfsdfjdskf]

You're so weird. It's not bad - just... weird!

[HE'S STILL FLUSTERED LEAVE HIM ALONE]

You—!

Forget it. [His jaw hardens from ear to chin, and he turns his head away again so he doesn’t have to look at Senri.] Forget I even said anything at all.

[sdflkjsdfsdf

senri is

pouting.... but at least it gives him a second to collect himself as he peers at sasuke closely]

... I don't want to....

It was really nice of you to say that to me.

[The hardness of his face doubles, but it’s clear that he’s struggling a little with keeping it irritated by just how much he overcompensates. He doesn’t say anything for a long time! Like he’s giving the cold shoulder!]

Those... weren’t the right words I wanted. You’re... [hold on, he’s having to search for clarification] ...subtle. You... have what I don’t. You can pretend to be stupid, and you can pretend to be nice, and people don’t suspect you could be dangerous. That you’re digging for information.

They just hand it to you like it’s nothing. It’s...

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