usogi | [ i already regret sasuke and senri ]

[The hardness of his face doubles, but it’s clear that he’s struggling a little with keeping it irritated by just how much he overcompensates. He doesn’t say anything for a long time! Like he’s giving the cold shoulder!]

Those... weren’t the right words I wanted. You’re... [hold on, he’s having to search for clarification] ...subtle. You... have what I don’t. You can pretend to be stupid, and you can pretend to be nice, and people don’t suspect you could be dangerous. That you’re digging for information.

They just hand it to you like it’s nothing. It’s...

[ . . . . ]

I'm an actor. If I've seen it, I can recreate it.

[feigning stupidity, being charming, it's all the same as reading off a script for him]

It's dishonest, but... Is lying so bad, if I like the people that I'm talking to and I want to help them, but I'll act like I know less than I do?

I thought that no matter what, the most important part was creating a positive interaction. People will talk more, if they're happier. If they trust you, they'll admit more and be more likely to do what you want. That's what charisma is.

[ . . . ]

I hope people will forgive me when they realize how much I've been hiding from them. That's all.

It’s part of the game. Just like the ones who decided to kill to get what they need. I know you’re angry with Guy, with Newt, but I can’t disagree with their methods. Trying to get what they need. It...

I’m not saying it was right, just an option they thought they had to use because they didn’t have... what you have. Charisma. [He frowns.] I don’t either. I never did.

All I ever had were my fists and my skills.

... you all came from different places than me. I'm... more mad at Newt than at Guy-san, now that I know what Guy-san's wish is. I'm still mad but....

I really need you to stop talking about yourself like you're the same as them. [and he'll pout up at sasuke now, frowning even as he reaches over to cover one of sasuke's hands with his own] Because maybe you would've done that at the start, but I trust that you won't do that now.

You're using those things to help people now - to help me.

At least those are real... even my charisma is faked.

[Dammit, don’t pout at him. He doesn’t pull his hand away, but he does look away some.]

That doesn’t change the the things I’ve done in Konoha. The things I’ve done... [There’s a very long hesitation here and even more reluctance.] ...to my friends.

There and here.

Things I’ve done to you.

[the confusion is so obvious on his face it's painful]

Huh?

To me?

Cursing you. [A sigh, quiet.] Being strung and still trying to do what I needed to do. [He’s quiet for a bit.] Your eye.

[ . . . . . ]

Yeah, I guess you did all that.

But you went on a date with me after you cursed me so I could get more favors, the being strung was annoying but I couldn't really blame you since it's not like you chose it, and - I already told you that you kept me from dying and that's more important.

I forgave you weeks ago, stupid. Stop making me repeat myself.

Fine.

[This doesn’t sound mean actually. He sighs, a long and low exhale. He is as tired of fighting it and reminding Senri as Senri is of repeatedly telling him to shut the hell up!!]

Let’s just... finish this damn game.

We will.

[and senri will just look around as he guides sasuke more into the heart of shibuya, the scramble crossing, the giant buildings, and he offers up a smile]

This is what my city is like. I wish there was a way I'd get to see yours but... for now, it'll be like pretending you did decide to come back with me.

[This place is still pretty wild for him. Konoha isn’t quite the city it’ll be when he’s thirty. He tips his chin and looks around, up the length of the buildings, the lights. It’s so much.]

I wouldn’t want you to see Konoha... as it is. Not when... it could be better. [He doesn’t look at Senri still.] Yours is... better. [He’s quiet for a second or two.] Senri, I...

...Nevermind.

[ . . . . squints.]

You...?

[???? lightly hipchecks sasuke as they walk]

Why'd you cut yourself off?

[He doesn’t sway too much because he is a stupid ninja, but he does frown momentarily. He slows to a stop, hooking his elbow doen a bit so Senri also has to stop, to face him. His brows knot in the middle of his forehead.

Senri should be rehearsing. Getting ready for a play. Not dragging him around.]

I never... told you about the rinnegan. The eye I lost.

[ . . . . ]

I'll be honest, that's not where I thought that was going at all.

[but.

he'll stop when sasuke makes him stop and tilt his head]

What about it...? You'll get it back at the end - sorry if you miss it.

No. It’s...

[He is strangely hesitant. He is, even more strangely, nervous? He turns his head and looks away as if he is deciding on whether he wants to backtrack, to say nevermind. Then he looks down between them, their feet.] It...

It was... meant to be a surprise. But... I don’t know what could happen. During patrol. I know we come back. I know everything goes back. I’m not worried about the eye, I... The rinnegan...

It... can open portals to other dimensions.

[ . . . . senri pauses, and he stares. because that's a lot to cover, for one. there's some part of him that's stuck on just how weird ninjas are, and how one special eye can apparently do something as insane as open a portal to another dimension but.

then the implication hits. slowly but surely, and his brow furrows as he tries to puzzle it out - but at the same time refrains from letting his hopes soar too high]

... so you'll be able to see Seanbon all the time, right?

[if that's

what sasuke means]

[Heh. Of course Senri would. A faint, dusty huff comes out of him. He can’t even be irritated. He just looks... exasperated on the verge of amused.]

You’re so stupid.

[Damn. He could have kept it to himself for a little longer. But not knowing if anything will happen Thursday. He’d miss... the chance just like he missed the chance to try better with Itachi.]

I know Konoha. I don’t know Shibuya. The dimensional portals... I would have to practice. It would take some time to forge one space to another.

[it's not like senri knows what that means. portals, dimensions, ninja-stuff - everything that's been out of his reach. but he listens to what sasuke says, and he nods slowly, comprehending. sasuke wants to come to shibuya. sasuke wants to come to tokyo, where senri will be and.

he smiles - a fragile, hopeful thing.]

... okay.

I can wait. However long it'll take, I can wait.

If that's what you want to do... I'll become the biggest star in all of Tokyo, so by the time you make it, you won't have any trouble finding me at all.

[ i already regret sasuke and senri ]

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