[ i already regret sasuke and senri ]

[usogi]

i hate that jan made us a shitpost so i already have one to use

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[moralmyopia]

[Senri really is a broken record. This has been, like, the sixth time Senri has had to tell him the same thing. He still... No, he sees it. He gets it. But changing how he is turns out to be a bit more difficult than he had been expecting.

He's trying?

His eye watches Senri's reflection in the glass as they slow before they pass by the window and keep going. He's still frowning.]

There isn't anything left for me in my world. When I got back, I'll be imprisoned for the crimes I've committed against my village. When I go, it'll only be to help Naruto complete what's required to stop the Infinite Tsukuyomi. The illusion almost everyone is trapped in, draining their chakra. If he can beat me, I'll help him undo it.

But... after that, I won't have a life. Even as a missing-nin, I'll be alone.

[usogi]

[ninjas are so fucking much.

but senri just... stares....]

You give up so easily when it comes to yourself....

It makes me mad.

[moralmyopia]

[He opens his mouth... but then shuts it? He has no good argument. Well, he does, but he knows it won't mean a damn to Senri.]

Why is it alright for us to hunt down Ray's killers, but you think I deserve better? His killers aren't any different than me. I've killed, too.

[usogi]

Because I hate them. Whoever they are. I might not hate them forever, but right now I hate them.

[senri's not the type of person who is delusional - when he found out that guy was the one who hurt zoe and jude, he was mad. he's still mad. but he can't harbor the same kind of anger that he did for newt.]

I don't hate you. And I never will, because you're not the bad person that you always paint yourself to be.

[moralmyopia]

Tch... You're so annoying. [There isn't any heat to these words.] You would change your mind if you knew the things I've felt.

And the things I've done.

[usogi]

No, I don't think that I would. I'd be mad at you, and exhausted by you, and think that you're an idiot.

[guaranteed!!!]

... but I'll never hate you.

[moralmyopia]

[Geez. There's a pause, and then he reaches up to pinch Senri's nose between his fingers. He doesn't shake, but he does squeeze it roughly for a second or two before letting go.]

Likewise. Moron.

[usogi]

[sdflkjsdlfkj

he absolutely makes a noise of complaint at that, wincing]

Who would hate me in the first place? I'm endearing!

[moralmyopia]

You're a pain in the ass is what you are.

[But he's Sasuke's pain in the ass? And, like, Takaomi's too, but they're sharing the burden. Otherwise, they'd be dead.]

[usogi]

[sdflkjsdf]

Be nicer to me... I gave you what you wanted.

[moralmyopia]

Fine.

[There's an extended silence of him not saying anything for the longest time, and then:]

I'm sorry.

[usogi]

[ . . . . . . . . . . . . ]

Who cursed you and with what.

[moralmyopia]

Why do you keep saying that? I'm not cursed. You're the one who told me to be nicer. You're the one who keeps going on and on about--everything like that.

Make up your mind.

[usogi]

Just because I ask you to be nicer doesn't mean I thought you'd do it!

[moralmyopia]

What do you want from me then! You either want me to be nice, or you don't! You never stop nagging me!

Why are you so annoying!

[usogi]

I'm not annoying, you're just confusing! You spend five weeks telling me how annoying I am - and then you'll just say I'm - amazing? C'mon, quit it!

[fslkdjfsdfjdskf]

You're so weird. It's not bad - just... weird!

[HE'S STILL FLUSTERED LEAVE HIM ALONE]

[moralmyopia]

You—!

Forget it. [His jaw hardens from ear to chin, and he turns his head away again so he doesn’t have to look at Senri.] Forget I even said anything at all.

[usogi]

[sdflkjsdfsdf

senri is

pouting.... but at least it gives him a second to collect himself as he peers at sasuke closely]

... I don't want to....

It was really nice of you to say that to me.

[moralmyopia]

[The hardness of his face doubles, but it’s clear that he’s struggling a little with keeping it irritated by just how much he overcompensates. He doesn’t say anything for a long time! Like he’s giving the cold shoulder!]

Those... weren’t the right words I wanted. You’re... [hold on, he’s having to search for clarification] ...subtle. You... have what I don’t. You can pretend to be stupid, and you can pretend to be nice, and people don’t suspect you could be dangerous. That you’re digging for information.

They just hand it to you like it’s nothing. It’s...

[usogi]

[ . . . . ]

I'm an actor. If I've seen it, I can recreate it.

[feigning stupidity, being charming, it's all the same as reading off a script for him]

It's dishonest, but... Is lying so bad, if I like the people that I'm talking to and I want to help them, but I'll act like I know less than I do?

I thought that no matter what, the most important part was creating a positive interaction. People will talk more, if they're happier. If they trust you, they'll admit more and be more likely to do what you want. That's what charisma is.

[ . . . ]

I hope people will forgive me when they realize how much I've been hiding from them. That's all.

[moralmyopia]

It’s part of the game. Just like the ones who decided to kill to get what they need. I know you’re angry with Guy, with Newt, but I can’t disagree with their methods. Trying to get what they need. It...

I’m not saying it was right, just an option they thought they had to use because they didn’t have... what you have. Charisma. [He frowns.] I don’t either. I never did.

All I ever had were my fists and my skills.

[usogi]

... you all came from different places than me. I'm... more mad at Newt than at Guy-san, now that I know what Guy-san's wish is. I'm still mad but....

I really need you to stop talking about yourself like you're the same as them. [and he'll pout up at sasuke now, frowning even as he reaches over to cover one of sasuke's hands with his own] Because maybe you would've done that at the start, but I trust that you won't do that now.

You're using those things to help people now - to help me.

At least those are real... even my charisma is faked.

[moralmyopia]

[Dammit, don’t pout at him. He doesn’t pull his hand away, but he does look away some.]

That doesn’t change the the things I’ve done in Konoha. The things I’ve done... [There’s a very long hesitation here and even more reluctance.] ...to my friends.

There and here.

Things I’ve done to you.

[usogi]

[the confusion is so obvious on his face it's painful]

Huh?

To me?

[moralmyopia]

Cursing you. [A sigh, quiet.] Being strung and still trying to do what I needed to do. [He’s quiet for a bit.] Your eye.