[he winces at the explanation - somewhere between pained and saddened. did he do that? did he string someone along? did he bully taka into saying that he liked him? in the end, was this all his fault and could he have done something to keep people from being upset?
he lets sasuke's arm go then - if only so that he can cross his arms in front of himself a little weakly, fingers pressing into his arm]
... I should've noticed....
[is all he has to say for taka. because he's good with people, so he should've noticed. he should've been aware of what they were feeling. it was just another thing that he didn't read, another piece that he was missing this whole time.
but when he speaks again, it's soft]
... there's always going to be a place for you with me, Sasuke. I meant it when I said that - because you're my friend. And I want you to be happy, and find peace, and...
[ . . . ]
I'm sorry - that I didn't notice. But it doesn't make you any less important to me.
But... I want what Taka wants, because his happiness is important to me too. So...
You don't have much room to talk about not saying anything. [It doesn't sound ugly, but he glances at Taka briefly.] It was too late. By the time I had accepted it, after the weekend, you both were together.
So... it didn't make any difference. All I could do was pull back.
[Softly:] It's fine. Stop apologizing. Ninjas endure, so... that's what I'll do and keep going. [His sigh is heavy, but maybe a little relieved. To have said something rather than keep it all in like he's done for so long. Taka still hasn't told him blatantly whether or not he wanted him to come; it was hearsay through Senri and little hints. In fact, Taka hasn't old him much of anything.] Sorry. For all I've done.
...I'm going to put Ray's camera back. I'll see you both later.
taka is still in the way of the door as he hasn't moved from it, and he still doesn't, but he's looking between sasuke and senri. he wants to tell people to stop liking his boyfriend, because it would make things so much easier for him. but he also can't exactly blame them, because there really isn't anyone as wonderful as senri, and it would make sense that others would notice that as well.
but he also can't argue against not being able to say anything, because at the end of the day, takaomi really is the person in this room who has admitted to his own feelings and goals less than anyone else; he hasn't admitted, not once or to anyone, what his wish even is. ]
... I told you that we'll figure things out. And you should go to Tokyo. Even if it's only for the one time, and you don't come back again after that because you decide you actually hate it-- you should come with us.
[ he shifts awkwardly, looking at the ground. ]
This isn't something we have to solve right away. All the complicated parts. But... at least visit once.
[senri still can't help but feel ashamed, like he missed a big thing here that could've prevented a lot of heartache. and yet at the same time, when he looks back over what's happened over the past couple weeks - he can't say for certain that he would've changed anything.]
... Come with us, please. We'll figure out all the hard parts when we're there, or later on - but... I don't want to have to say goodbye forever when we don't have to.
[if there's a way that sasuke could even vaguely stay in senri's life, even if he decides he doesn't want to be there permanently...]
I don't want anyone to have to apologize anymore, then. For anything.
[It's probably an agreement, but it's all he gives them. For a moment or two, he looks over Senri's face without saying anything. His brows knot. He doesn't do anything, no hug, no touching, nothing. If he has decided to go with them or go back home, he doesn't say.
Carefully, he winds around Senri and passes by with the camera and the parfait. Taka is still in front of the door, so Sasuke comes to a stop in front of the other boy. Here, too, he searches Taka's face even if Taka won't look at him.
The parfait gets shifted to the hand of the arm with the camera. He raises his hand, a fist, then two fingers extend and he jabs both gently into Taka's forehead.] I'm not sorry about either kiss. [And then the hand drops back down. He doesn't say anything about another time.]
[Sasuke is patient. He waits for Taka to slides over before he opens the door.] Mm. [It's more like an acknowledging grunt, if anything, but he does give both of them a short glance over the shoulder.
And then he leaves with Ray's camera and the parfait.]
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he lets sasuke's arm go then - if only so that he can cross his arms in front of himself a little weakly, fingers pressing into his arm]
... I should've noticed....
[is all he has to say for taka. because he's good with people, so he should've noticed. he should've been aware of what they were feeling. it was just another thing that he didn't read, another piece that he was missing this whole time.
but when he speaks again, it's soft]
... there's always going to be a place for you with me, Sasuke. I meant it when I said that - because you're my friend. And I want you to be happy, and find peace, and...
[ . . . ]
I'm sorry - that I didn't notice. But it doesn't make you any less important to me.
But... I want what Taka wants, because his happiness is important to me too. So...
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So... it didn't make any difference. All I could do was pull back.
[Softly:] It's fine. Stop apologizing. Ninjas endure, so... that's what I'll do and keep going. [His sigh is heavy, but maybe a little relieved. To have said something rather than keep it all in like he's done for so long. Taka still hasn't told him blatantly whether or not he wanted him to come; it was hearsay through Senri and little hints. In fact, Taka hasn't old him much of anything.] Sorry. For all I've done.
...I'm going to put Ray's camera back. I'll see you both later.
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taka is still in the way of the door as he hasn't moved from it, and he still doesn't, but he's looking between sasuke and senri. he wants to tell people to stop liking his boyfriend, because it would make things so much easier for him. but he also can't exactly blame them, because there really isn't anyone as wonderful as senri, and it would make sense that others would notice that as well.
but he also can't argue against not being able to say anything, because at the end of the day, takaomi really is the person in this room who has admitted to his own feelings and goals less than anyone else; he hasn't admitted, not once or to anyone, what his wish even is. ]
... I told you that we'll figure things out. And you should go to Tokyo. Even if it's only for the one time, and you don't come back again after that because you decide you actually hate it-- you should come with us.
[ he shifts awkwardly, looking at the ground. ]
This isn't something we have to solve right away. All the complicated parts. But... at least visit once.
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[senri still can't help but feel ashamed, like he missed a big thing here that could've prevented a lot of heartache. and yet at the same time, when he looks back over what's happened over the past couple weeks - he can't say for certain that he would've changed anything.]
... Come with us, please. We'll figure out all the hard parts when we're there, or later on - but... I don't want to have to say goodbye forever when we don't have to.
[if there's a way that sasuke could even vaguely stay in senri's life, even if he decides he doesn't want to be there permanently...]
I don't want anyone to have to apologize anymore, then. For anything.
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[It's probably an agreement, but it's all he gives them. For a moment or two, he looks over Senri's face without saying anything. His brows knot. He doesn't do anything, no hug, no touching, nothing. If he has decided to go with them or go back home, he doesn't say.
Carefully, he winds around Senri and passes by with the camera and the parfait. Taka is still in front of the door, so Sasuke comes to a stop in front of the other boy. Here, too, he searches Taka's face even if Taka won't look at him.
The parfait gets shifted to the hand of the arm with the camera. He raises his hand, a fist, then two fingers extend and he jabs both gently into Taka's forehead.] I'm not sorry about either kiss. [And then the hand drops back down. He doesn't say anything about another time.]
Let me out.
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he finally looks up at him and doesn't move right away. but he does eventually, sliding over to the side to allow him to leave. ]
See you later.
[ if sasuke won't say it then he will ]
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... thanks for the jacket, Sasuke.
I'll find you tomorrow.
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And then he leaves with Ray's camera and the parfait.]