usogi | [ canonmates who don't trust each other for shit babey ]

I didn't think they were lying.

[ but it's good to have a confirmation anyway. ]

If it's stuff as important as rules and what they believe in... I think that it's good to make sure that it's the truth.

A lot of this stuff is pretty crazy, you know?

[like

even for them]

[ yuni may have tried to have shinya snipe but like

they don't normally have to deal with murder directed towards them ]

Scared?

[and senri just laughs at that, and crosses his arms, but his fingers dig a little into the cloth of his jacket.]

You even have to ask? Of course I'm scared.

You can't really tell just by looking at you.

[ he's still all smiles and chatty ]

But I guess you'd be good at that.

[senri tilts his head]

That's the only way you'll ever compliment me, huh...

I can't have a breakdown right now. I have a reason I'm here too, same as everyone else.

And besides... if I did freak out, people would just be worried about me. I don't want to do that to them.

[he says that like it's the bigger reason - it probably is. senri's always concerned about appearances]

... you say that now but it'll be different if people actually start dying.

[ they have no idea what the actual details of how this competition is and what's really expected of them. ]

[ . . . and senri huffs a laugh.]

... I don't know.

The people that I've talked to - I think they'd be worried about me even then. There's probably some awful person who'd kick me when I'm down but....

They brought a lot of nice people to this game. I think that's weird too.

[ he chuckles ]

Well, if a lot of people like you then you'll probably live longer.

[ taka can't say that he won't die, but the chances of someone targeting him goes down ]

.... well, all it takes is one really strong person who doesn't like me.

[senri purses his lips at that and the mask slips for a second as he turns contemplative

and then shakes his head]

Give me your hand real quick?

[ SQUINTS ]

I can only say trust me so many times in one conversation.

[he's holding his hand out expectantly

and with his free one he's tapping on his phone]

[ honestly this time it has less to do with trust and more that this concept gives him hives

but he'll hold his hand out to senri eventually ]

[that's fine

senri just wants taka's thumb and he'll grab his whole hand to press his fingerprint against the home button of his phone]

I'm taking notes in this - and I always keep it with me.

If anything happens to me first, just ask a god for my phone so you'll know everything I didn't get around to telling you, for whatever reason... It won't matter if I can't play anymore.

So you better win.

[ this really feels like a bad joke

he stares at senri's phone for a moment, before finally looking away. the wall's a nice spot. ]

... I'll probably die before you. People aren't going to be worried about me with all the nice people you mentioned around.

[senri's phone is still learning taka's fingerprint and he's quiet for a second

he consciously keeps from holding taka's hand any tighter than he already is]

... your grades are better than mine, and you ask better questions than I do. In this game, I think information is supposed to win, so no one's gonna trust a liar.

[he'll mess up somewhere. he knows it.]

It's... just in case anyway.

Just in case.

[ it's smart to have a contingency plan. he should probably comment on that, but it takes a second. ]

I dunno. You seem to be thinking ahead... and you're underestimating how people tend to follow their emotions when they're stressed. Logic has a habit of taking a backseat.

.... I told you it's hard to tell lies all the time.

I have to think about what the next encounter might be, what people will ask me, how to make sure that even if something ends up weird - at least how to get them to hate me the least.

[his phone reads taka's fingerprint and saves it, and it takes senri a second longer to bring himself to let go.

what do you do when you want someone to hold your hand, but don't know how to ask?]

But people might find out anyway...

And when they do, the disappointment will probably eat up everything else at first, then the distrust. That's all it'd take anyway.

[for him to earn someone's dislike enough to be killed]

[ he doesn't think senri would end up hated that much.

the only person he ever really gets into fights with is taka, and even when senri's lies come undone back home, people still like him after. there's always the chance it could be different here, but taka also doesn't think senri is stupid enough to fall into that big of a hell.

he doesn't say this, because he also doesn't want to admit that he doesn't think senri is that stupid. ]

We're arguing about who's going to die first.

[ it's a little funny. ]

.... we always argue.

[and senri offers up a smile at that, brittle and insincere as it may be. but it still looks perfect on his face, not a bump or break in sight.]

But... I don't want to hear about you dying first.

[rabbits can die from loneliness after all. if taka goes first, senri might follow quickly enough after.]

If it comes down to the two of us, we'll just switch to the better god and then that's how we'll win the game.

[ there's still a lot he can say.

because even if they argue, and have tried to get away from each other, in the end taka does not actually hate senri. and he definitely doesn't want any serious harm to come to him.

but it's difficult to put that into words. ]

We'll just have to see what all the options are. I'll talk to all of the "scary" gods.

[ . . . ]

I'm gonna try to meet at least two new gods every week to start - and I'll do favors for the ones I like. If I can get someone to tell my god that they'll defect to him, then I get a magical phone charger that never runs out of energy!

[THAT SOUNDS AWESOME BY DEFAULT REALLY]

That'll take a little more work that Beauty's.... but it's never bad to earn favor with the gods, right?

We can compare notes next week and see which gods are the best anyway.

[ taka does not volunteer as tribute because senri does not deserve a magical phone charger. ]

We can also see what we find out about the other competitors.

[ since that part is

also very important ]

[senri totally deserves a magical phone charger shut up]

Mm, okay.

I know someone who's on Ambition's team - but is abandoning it soon. Chuuya-san is leaving Disorder, but I think he's gonna go to Love or Sincerity since he doesn't want to go to Indulgence.

Other than that, people have been kinda tight-lipped. I'm gonna try talking to them more one on one to see if I can get them to share.

If anyone asks, can you say you think I'm on Beauty's team? It's not a lie, since that's probably your theory anyway.

[he just also hasn't confirmed it,]

It's one of two of my theories, yeah.

[ he does not say what the other one is. ]

Hm. You sure know how to make people talk to you.

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