[ . . . the thing is that senri is slowly getting that. he's slowly understanding that - because yuma and touji do defend him to taka sometimes, and they'll go out of their way to make it clear when he's not being awful. and taka goes along with the things that he does too.
if he just opened his eyes a little, and maybe his heart - and stopped chasing after just one thing....
he sighs and continues to rest against taka]
.... right now, you're all I need.
[in this moment, as long as he has taka, he's alright]
[ he kisses senri on the cheek (specifically the side with his good eye).
things aren't fine, but eventually they will be even if it takes time and a couple of false starts. but he has senri, who's alive and talking and everything that matters in the world. ]
Good. I'm not sharing you.
[ he has decided that if anyone tries to visit he is. going to ignore them. ]
[taka is such a bitch but senri doesn't even mind. he melts a little at taka's words and settles against him. things still aren't completely alright... he's still in pain and he still has to think about finding sasuke and making things better with everyone else but -
for right now he can rely on taka to still take care of him, and hold onto him even when he makes such horrifying mistakes. there's still someone here who will look after him.]
Hm... at first I thought I'd be nice and let someone borrow you if they weren't somehow who annoyed me.
[ that's a very small list.
but he nuzzles his face against senri's. ]
But now I've decided they can wait til later.
[ the only people who would allow in is ray and sasuke still, and ray would probably prefer to let senri rest and they all know that they're going to have to hunt sasuke down. ]
[that's entirely correct and senri is okay with it. he relaxes at that and leans in just to give taka another kiss because he's dumb and gay and tired so he deserves whatever affection he can get his hands on, thanks!]
... okay.
Then until tomorrow, it can just be the two of us.
[because they're not going to be together on thursday night so]
[ it's fine, taka will kiss him as many times as he wants because even though he complains about senri being too spoiled. in the end, he's the one who does most of the spoiling. ]
[taka really does do most of the spoiling and it's bad.
senri will take it though, and he'll melt into the affection. at least for now, it's easier to put away his guilt as long as this person who cares for him so much is right in front of him.]
[ yeah. i'm gonna kill you if senri is dead after this hell week but yeah. ]
Mm. Got it. Since you guys are staying with Beauty, we won't be able to meet up with you before curfew ends. So we're probably just going to come back here.
[ also he has no idea how they would be able to explain to sasuke why he and ishi are suddenly there so. probably for the best. ]
.... stay with Ishirin-san the entire time and do everything that he tells you to do. No one can even find Beauty's room except for me and Ray so we'll be safe but....
I'm gonna worry no matter what - so make sure that it's unfounded so you can call me an idiot on Friday.
[ but he can understand senri's fear. this is the first time he's not leaving from the same spot as senri; all the other nights he was able to confirm right away that he was safe, but this time he has to wait until the announcement like everyone else. it's terrifying. ]
[ . . . . and senri will just nod at that and clings a little tighter - and try to mute how he winces when he aggravates his arm injury a little bit.]
Make sure you don't.
[because he's already fearful and injured and sad he doesn't need any more reason for that, and he's pretty sure that losing taka would manage to ruin him beyond repair]
[ there's a pause, and he moves back enough so he can take hold of the hand of senri's uninjured arm, so he can bring it to his mouth and press a kiss to his knuckles. ]
there's a pause as the red is absolutely going to slowly creep all the way up his neck and to his face - he's not sure if having this much blood rush to his cheeks is good for his injury but. here we are.]
I.
Oh.
[ . . . he's just going to press his face into the crook of taka's neck now. close as they are taka might be able to feel the way that senri's heart is beating heavily in his chest. help.]
[honestly being really, really gay is a solid distraction for senri and he leans up to press their lips together in a kiss that betrays a little bit of his desperation, he's sure.
he claims a second one for good measure and -
pauses and curses sasuke deep in his soul because he wants to show affection to his boyfriend but he can't god dammit.
so instead he just sighs and presses their foreheads together as he holds onto taka]
[ sasuke may have saved senri's life but he also cockblocked them so like, it cancels each other out.
and taka knew this, senri's feelings, but there really is something about hearing it said out loud that makes it seem like you're learning it for the first time. he lets out a breath and-- okay, sorry sasuke, he's going to steal another kiss
but at least he pulls back on his own this time. ]
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[ chizuru would not give a fuck but taka is pretending he does not exist for this moment. ]
... people love you.
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if he just opened his eyes a little, and maybe his heart - and stopped chasing after just one thing....
he sighs and continues to rest against taka]
.... right now, you're all I need.
[in this moment, as long as he has taka, he's alright]
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things aren't fine, but eventually they will be even if it takes time and a couple of false starts. but he has senri, who's alive and talking and everything that matters in the world. ]
Good. I'm not sharing you.
[ he has decided that if anyone tries to visit he is. going to ignore them. ]
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for right now he can rely on taka to still take care of him, and hold onto him even when he makes such horrifying mistakes. there's still someone here who will look after him.]
I'd get mad if you let me go without a fight....
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[ that's a very small list.
but he nuzzles his face against senri's. ]
But now I've decided they can wait til later.
[ the only people who would allow in is ray and sasuke still, and ray would probably prefer to let senri rest and they all know that they're going to have to hunt sasuke down. ]
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... okay.
Then until tomorrow, it can just be the two of us.
[because they're not going to be together on thursday night so]
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[ it's fine, taka will kiss him as many times as he wants because even though he complains about senri being too spoiled. in the end, he's the one who does most of the spoiling. ]
So hopefully you won't get sick of me by then.
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senri will take it though, and he'll melt into the affection. at least for now, it's easier to put away his guilt as long as this person who cares for him so much is right in front of him.]
I've lasted this long... you know?
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[ he lasted a lot longer than taka thought someone would be able to put up with him. ]
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... Saturday's going to be busy, I think. Did Ray tell you what he's going to try to do with Luna...?
[please talk plot because you can't make out this week]
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[ if either of them die before they can make out again that'll be the true tragedy of the game ]
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Sasuke's going to be the one giving Ray the signal if she is or isn't, so if you could react too in order to help cover it up....
[group effort
also yeah too bad taka's dying tomorrow so they can't make out anymore]
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Mm. Got it. Since you guys are staying with Beauty, we won't be able to meet up with you before curfew ends. So we're probably just going to come back here.
[ also he has no idea how they would be able to explain to sasuke why he and ishi are suddenly there so. probably for the best. ]
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I'm going to find you as soon as I wake up.
Do you want to meet here?
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[ he gives senri a kiss on the cheek. ]
It'll be fine.
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a lot]
.... stay with Ishirin-san the entire time and do everything that he tells you to do. No one can even find Beauty's room except for me and Ray so we'll be safe but....
I'm gonna worry no matter what - so make sure that it's unfounded so you can call me an idiot on Friday.
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[ but he can understand senri's fear. this is the first time he's not leaving from the same spot as senri; all the other nights he was able to confirm right away that he was safe, but this time he has to wait until the announcement like everyone else. it's terrifying. ]
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Make sure you don't.
[because he's already fearful and injured and sad he doesn't need any more reason for that, and he's pretty sure that losing taka would manage to ruin him beyond repair]
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Senri.
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Taka...?
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[ which senri knows but
he feels like he should say it anyway, because the feeling can be suffocating at times with how much of it there is. ]
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there's a pause as the red is absolutely going to slowly creep all the way up his neck and to his face - he's not sure if having this much blood rush to his cheeks is good for his injury but. here we are.]
I.
Oh.
[ . . . he's just going to press his face into the crook of taka's neck now. close as they are taka might be able to feel the way that senri's heart is beating heavily in his chest. help.]
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he still means it though. and... in the chance that things don't go well...
taka decides not to think about that. ]
Mm.
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he claims a second one for good measure and -
pauses and curses sasuke deep in his soul because he wants to show affection to his boyfriend but he can't god dammit.
so instead he just sighs and presses their foreheads together as he holds onto taka]
.... I really like you too, Taka.
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and taka knew this, senri's feelings, but there really is something about hearing it said out loud that makes it seem like you're learning it for the first time. he lets out a breath and-- okay, sorry sasuke, he's going to steal another kiss
but at least he pulls back on his own this time. ]
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