usogi | [ canonmates who don't trust each other for shit babey ]

[senri pauses - and then quietly shakes his head. he moves closer to taka again, and presses his face into taka's shoulder instead of just the pillow]

... You take care of me.

It's a little hard right now - but I still believe in you. You don't have to do anything specific, or be anyone else.

[ he considers wrapping his arms around senri, but decides against it. ]

... were you going to punch me?

[ since he went to sasuke. ]

If I was still mad... but I'm not anymore.

[it whittled down into being sad and - ]

... I came back because I missed you already.

[ oh

he takes a deep breath, and then slowly lets it out ]

You have bad taste,

[ . . . senri just sighs.]

Please say something nice to me or I will punch you.

[he's fine with being a little more vulnerable in front of taka but it's

getting harder when it feels like his attempts to talk are being shot down]

[ there's a pause

he really wasn't expecting senri to come back so soon, and he never quite figured out what he wanted to say here, since most of the reasons why taka is upset has less to do with senri and more to do with his own personal issues with dealing with people

but he can't really say any of that. ]

... you're so important that it scares me.

[at the end of the day, senri is still the most terrified of being left alone.

of everyone realizing that they've put their faith in someone far more twisted and petty than they expected, and they'd leave him behind. all he wanted was one person who would care for him unconditionally and - these words, that he hopes more than anything aren't a lie, are enough to make him settle against taka's side familiarly, and wrap his arms around him]

.... you don't need to be scared.

I'm still right here.

As long as you want me to be - I'll be right here.

[ he sinks into the touch, and the tenseness that was in his shoulders slowly starts to evaporate.

it's still eating at him, the disappointment and unease directed at himself that he could so very easily wreck this. ]

I'm sorry. You can be mad and punch me, but I'm sorry. I'll do better.

[senri wills taka in closer to him, shifting so that he can press a kiss to taka's hair even as he listens.

the aching in his chest unwinds a little bit - he can't be mad at people at lying, technically. no matter how much he believed in taka, he can't be mad at taka for lying. it's not fair, when he's going to make mistakes. he already let go of a lot of that. but... as long as he cares about senri enough to apologize and keep trying....]

... okay. I know you will. You always do your best.

You still have my heart, so please take good care of it.

[ it's the first thing that actually makes taka relax a little. he sighs, allowing himself to get closer and wrapping one arm around senri.

it's strange, because objectively this wasn't the worst fight they've ever had. but it still hurt like it was. he supposed that's what it means when you put your heart into someone else's hands; you have to hope they don't squeeze it too hard. ]

I will. I'll always be here for you.

... mm. Then as long as you want me here, I'll be waiting.

[whether that means he has to endure some lies, or if things get a little bit rocky. he buries his face in taka's hair and holds him close, happy just to have this boy back in his arms. the night away was good to cool down, as always, but he's still more grateful to be able to come back here. where he's supposed to be.]

We'll keep trying to get better. It's okay if we make mistakes sometimes. I forgive you....

Bonds can be stronger than you think. The weight of knowing you isn't that heavy in the first place.

[ the emotion he feels for senri is... sometimes a lot to process, and right now it's overwhelming. so he just presses closer, trying to erase as much space between them as he can without upsetting either of their injuries. ]

... that's still hard. [ he's still getting used to the idea of not having to rely on just himself, that if he wanted help someone would happily step up. but. ] It's so much easier when I'm with you.

[senri pauses - and just sighs quietly as he presses another kiss taka's right temple, then the center of his forehead, then his left temple]

... you can trust me to take care of you, too.

[he might get mad, and he might storm out, but - ]

I'll always come back to you. You're my home too.

... my rabbit.

[ he could fall asleep like this, in senri's arms, and he presses a kiss to his cheek

and then he pauses ]

Is Sasuke going to want to punch me?

[ it may kill the mood but this is a very real concern with sasuke ]

[senri hums happily with the kiss he gets in return and settles for burying his face in taka's hair again, even though it means he probably ends up speaking fairly close to his ear - ]

No, I think he just thought me being that mad was amusing.

He kept asking me if I was sure that I wanted to punch you... and I had to say 'we'll find out'.

[ yeah that tickles

he squirms slightly ]

Mm... but can you punch now?

I think so. He was a really thorough instructor.

[like he sounds surprised but he shouldn't because sasuke is a fucking ninja????]

I told him that once I'm done being mad at you, he should give you a lesson too.

[ . . . ]

He and I are using Battle Armor on you and Ishirin-san this week, so please be careful. Ray-kun said he didn't want it which is... annoying.

Ray has our prize from capture the flag. And it seems like people gave him a lot of their prizes, so... he's definitely protected.

[ how ray managed to get so many people to fling dangerous items at him is fairly impressive. ]

I'm really glad that people realize we'd be really out of luck if something happened to him....

He's an ass but he's a good kid.

[ there's a pause, and he lets his hand trace circles on senri's back ]

[senri will just idly press closer to taka then, shifting so that he can tuck his face into the crook of taka's neck]

... he's really good.

I meant it when I said that I don't blame you, if you have to do what you can to keep his trust. I don't think he'll ask you to lie to me anymore but...

I forgive more easily than he does anyway.

He came to find me after.

[ to apologize. ]

... well, he didn't know.

[and senri sighs.]

I sort of... relied on you to always be honest with me, even if I didn't like what I'd hear.

[ever since the academy. it's part of why they don't get along - but in a world where senri is fake to 98% of the population, he sort of just enjoyed having something real]

But circumstances change... and people are allowed to make mistakes.

[ this isn't what he wants.

he doesn't want senri to think that he's just going to lie now, just because senri gives the okay. he squeezes his eyes shut and just breathes for a second. ]

I don't want to lie to you. I just... didn't think it was my place to tell you that because of your relationship with him. And if I admitted I knew who it was, you were going to get it out of me.

... Ray-kun was being stupid. [and he sighs] I know why he tried to keep it from me in the first place, but that lie didn't even last a day.... Sometimes he underestimates me too.

[ . . . ]

Sieg-kun was the one who told me that Ray-kun was the one who left Love. I guessed the rest from there.

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