[ canonmates who don't trust each other for shit babey ]

[usogi]

time to solve some MURDERS, taka


thanks jan

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[bakaomi]

I think that if I get in trouble at this point, it'll be my own fault.

[usogi]

....

[senri will just lean in to give him another kiss, soft but tentative]

... if that's what you want from me, it's not like I can say no....

[bakaomi]

You can say no. I'm not going to force you to do something you don't want to.

[ he'll easily stomp on his own feelings for senri. ]

[usogi]

[senri huffs out a laugh

and settles so he can rest his hand on taka's shoulder]

... you just let me cry all over you for an hour....

I think I owe you a favor - so I guess that can be going public, if you want.

[bakaomi]

... I don't want it to be a favor.

[ there's a pause, and then he shakes his head. ]

Forget I said anything.

[usogi]

[senri blinks and pauses]

.... Taka...

[he'll peer up at him]

... I didn't mean it like that.

I want what you want...

[bakaomi]

It just feels like I'm guilting you into something.

Just-- I shouldn't have brought it up after trial. We can talk about something else.

[usogi]

[senri shakes his head and he'll

move to crawl on top of taka instead, leaning down to press their lips together again]

... you're so stupid.

I'll always take an excuse to kiss you, if you'll let me.

[bakaomi]

[ he kisses him back

and he isn't sure how to vocalize that it's because every weekend he is reminded again and again of how easily they can die. and even though they're going to get revived at the end, that moment where someone targets you and you can see death approaching--

it's terrifying, and taka escaped it, but he might not escape it next time. senri might now.

so it seems so pointless to waste time hiding behind a lie. ]

You're stupid.

[usogi]

[and senri is just going to laugh quietly at that, nuzzling against taka's cheek because he can't quite understand his complicated feelings. it's gross because senri's face is probably still warm and damp from the tears but]

.... I am.

But you're smart.

And you make up for the places that I can't, so... there are things we can do together.

[bakaomi]

[ he's just going to hold senri closer. ]

You're not actually stupid. You're one of the smartest and most useful people here.

[usogi]

[and senri laughs at that, weak even as he goes with the pull]

What.... Did you get hit in the head overnight or something?

[bakaomi]

You do so much. And just because you aren't book smart doesn't mean you're not at all.

[ taka please don't call senri out on being a bad student while complimenting him ]

[usogi]

[ . . . . senri just shakes his head and presses his face into taka's shoulder again]

... it's not enough.

No matter what I give people to start, it's not enough. If... If I had Ray-kun around, or Jude-kun, or Zo - they could've fit together all the pieces I couldn't get to click, I bet.

[and he's blinking back tears again]

[bakaomi]

You don't know that.

And you're not the only person in trial, Senri. It's not your job to figure out everything on your own.

[usogi]

[senri pauses at that

and falters, if only because... he's used to doing so much on his own]

.... it's easier to focus on myself, than expect everyone else to do better.

[bakaomi]

But we all need to do better.

[ every single one of them. ]

Like Catra was right. I've been with Merriment for the longest, and I haven't prevented a single murder from happening. I've done nothing useful. So I need to be better than what I am.

[usogi]

[senri pauses at that - and automatically shakes his head.]

No way. If you hadn't seen what happened at the carnival, you wouldn't have been able to tell Ishirin-san, and Mizuki-san wouldn't have been able to keep us on track.

If you weren't there to save Ruin from Luna, we wouldn't have even been able to get the person who hurt Fortune in the first place.

If you hadn't come up with the code with Ray-kun, and been able to tell us what all the symbols meant, we could've been in even worse trouble.

I wouldn't know half of the things that I do - without you. I wouldn't have found the other Ambitions, if it wasn't for you.

[bakaomi]

[ it looks like he's about to say something, but then he closes his mouth and lets a moment pass. ]

I could say the same thing about you.

I would have never told Ishikirimaru or Ray anything if it wasn't for you. I'd probably still have been doing all of that by myself, and I could be dead right now, if it wasn't for your influence.

You brought so many people together who may not have done so on your own. You've given us information and motivation. Just because you haven't done every single thing perfectly doesn't mean you've failed.