[ canonmates who don't trust each other for shit babey ]

[usogi]

time to solve some MURDERS, taka


thanks jan

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[usogi]

Be nice to me, I have trauma.

[that was SELF-INFLICTED

but he'll lean against taka as he hits the door close button anyway]

[bakaomi]

That was kind of your fault.

[ but he still kisses senri on the cheek again anyway ]

[usogi]

I was helping...

[was he]

[bakaomi]

Of course you were.

[ lmao

he kisses the corner of his mouth. ]

[usogi]

Thank you for understanding.

[senri is just going to chase after taka's mouth for a proper kiss which i hate

but also thEY MADE IT TO THE ACTUAL ROOMS]

Ooohh.

[bakaomi]

I'm going to guess that we don't have to check out the rooms in the west wing.

[ he wanders into the bathroom to check it out ]

[usogi]

Why would we? It's a hotel! We can pretend that we're on a fancy vacation together...

[but senri will absolutely just be opening everything up?? opening the windows?? looking around and then going into the bathroom to follow after taka??]

[bakaomi]

[ he's examining the bath bombs?? and then sets one down. ]

Until you get cursed to fall in love with Madoka or something.

[usogi]

[wh]

That's my sister?!

[bakaomi]

That's sure going to be awkward for you, huh.

[ he has no sympathy ]

[usogi]

[sdlfkjsdf]

Stop - we've already had it awkward enough!!

[bakaomi]

It's just been a while since you were last cursed.

[usogi]

We're going to keep hoping that it stays that way.

[he says as he also picks up some of the beauty supplies provided]

It's the last week... I'd find it kind of scary if something happened to me. Most people here are my friends so they shouldn't try anything anyway....

[bakaomi]

[ he walks over and gives his shoulder a squeeze. ]

You'll be fine, Senri.

[usogi]

[ . . . and senri just sighs quietly before leaning over to give taka a kiss]

... I know I will be.

It feels a little dumb - to still worry about myself, at this point. Everyone else is worrying about me plenty.

[bakaomi]

I want you to worry about yourself.

[ he wraps his arms around senri, burying his face into his shoulder. ]

I can't do anything if you're not safe.

[usogi]

[oh.

senri just pauses at that before laughing quietly]

... sorry I turned your joke into something serious.

[but he'll wrap his arms around taka in return too, turning his head to kiss his hair]

... I'll be safe. I've been making sure of that since Day One - and I'm going to make sure that you're safe, too. Because I'll be useless without you.

[bakaomi]

You can do so much without me. Everyone believes in you for good reason, you know.

[ senri's amazing, in ways that he's not

his grip tightens on him. ]

But I'd rather not test that out. So we're both going to make it through the last week.

[usogi]

[ . . . and senri shakes his head quietly]

No, I... You got the Ambition alignments that I couldn't find - the ones that we needed, in the end. And all the gods care about you, and you've helped me learn so much...

You fill in all the gaps for me. And -

[ . . . ]

Can I be honest with you... about something...

[bakaomi]

Mm. You don't need to ask.

[ even if he wonders what it could be if senri has to lead in with that. ]

[usogi]

[ . . . senri presses his face into taka's hair for a second]

You told me... the first time that you used All Nighter by yourself - that I couldn't tell anyone. Even if I wanted to. And I thought 'of course not' because your alignment was the only one I kept as guarded as Ray-kun's and mine.

But after the trial... I told you to think about mentioning to Ishirin-san that you were the other person on Merriment, if you could. And I guess you did, and I'm... really grateful.

[he hesitates - but forces himself to continue]

Did he tell you... that I saw him before that? And when he told me - I got so scared, because I only thought of the worst things. What if you ran into each other? What if he didn't know you were just trying to help?

Even then - I was so scared of losing you, or not knowing how to help you, that I told him even though it wasn't mine to tell.

That was the first and only time I told someone your alignment, and I did exactly what you told me not to do...

[ . . . ]

I never lied about it - but I thought... I should tell you. And I'm sorry. But it's why I hate it when you say that I can do things without you - I've never wanted to. I never want to find out what it's like to be without you.

[bakaomi]

[ there's a twist of betrayal. it's the reason why he stopped talking to madoka, even though she was the first person here who he was genuinely started thinking of as a friend.

takaomi doesn't move, uncertain. ]

He didn't. He acted surprise.

[ there's a pause, and he slowly lets go of senri and quickly walks out of the bathroom. he doesn't leave the room, but instead just settles onto a sofa. ]

[usogi]

[and just like that - his arms feel empty.

he wonders if maybe he should've kept lying, if he should've kept it covered up so that taka didn't need to feel this way. senri thinks he was in the right but - more than that, he knows for a fact that he was scared. in that moment he didn't even think about anything besides how to keep taka safe

and he steels himself quietly before following after]

... I told him it wasn't my secret to tell... and I only shared it because I was...

[worried. scared.

he'll go to sit down on the couch - but not too close, as if that'll help give taka more room]

... I'm sorry....

[and now he's worried and scared all over again - as if one lie really is all it'll take for taka to decide this isn't worth it anymore. wasn't that what he was worried about the whole time?]

[bakaomi]

[ he doesn't look over at him at first, but he eventually scoots over to close the distance between them. he rests his head against senri's shoulder and closes his eyes.

it's more than a little hypocritical, to give senri a pass and not do the same for madoka. but. ]

I'm mad at you. [ it's an understatement; he's extremely angry. but. ] I also kept something from you to protect you.

[ the real reason for the brooch. ]

I love you so much, Senri.

[usogi]

[ . . . ugh.

maybe it's because senri is aware - that he did the same thing as madoka, that this is the type of thing that bothers taka so much, that even when he tried to be real that he messed up, but it makes something twist in his stomach. once taka is closer to him again, he wraps his arms around him like it'll keep him from going]

... I love you, too. [it's soft, but certain] I love you - and I don't know how long I have and...

I'm sorry... I haven't - there's nothing else. I won't -

[he hates how he stumbles over his words when it's something as fragile as this, when he's scared of breaking it]

... No more lies....