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[ . . . and senri just nods quietly]

Then... I can't let you be miserable...

[even if that's

the only thing that'll keep him moving forward for the next day, when he questions everything else]

... thank you for hanging out with him, even though you suspected how he felt about me....

... he tried really hard. He told me a lot about himself, things he probably never thought of telling me before. Konoha, his brother, his wish...

[ he sighs, his hold on senri tightening. ]

I didn't say anything. I listened, and commented, but all I really shared in return was stories about you. I'm pretty terrible.

[senri tilts his head at that, quietly curious before leaning up to press a gentle kiss to taka's lips]

Can I ask why...?

Do you not like him...? Or - you don't know how to talk to him....?

I just haven't told anyone. I've talked about the school a little, or music, or video games, but...

[ nothing else.

there's a reason he keeps saying he doesn't have friends. ]

[senri considers this quietly again and he reaches up to run his fingers through taka's hair]

.... does it feel too heavy?

To reach out to other people?

It's easier to just not to.

Your boyfriend is more of a scared cat than a lion.

... I did call you timid before.

[senri's expression softens though and he leans in to give taka another kiss at that, as if that'll manage to get some of the worry to disappear]

... but you connected with others - right? Rise-chan... Merriment...

You confessed to me.

And I still think that might've been the best thing that's happened in the whole game.

[ he almost wants to say the gods don't count, because it was easier to talk to them. they already knew just enough so that there was no point in staying completely quiet on things.

but he can't lie and say he doesn't care for them, and that the idea of never seeing them again is painful. ]

Thank you.

You don't need to thank me for that... I love you, and I'm always going to be grateful that you said something first, when I was too stupid to see it.

[he wraps his arms around taka's neck, pulling him in closer until he can rest their foreheads together]

... you're mine and I'm yours. I'll be alright, as long as I have you.

[ . . . ]

But... if you ever want to reach out more, even if it might not be easy - I'll help you carry the weight, if you want.

And if anyone ever hurts you, we'll send Sasuke.

Because he's your friend, too, whether you want to admit it or not.

[ he huffs out what could be a laugh, closing his eyes.

it's so strange to think that earlier this morning, they were imagining their future home together, and then later on sasuke kissed him, and now they're here.

no matter how rocky things get or curves people throw at them, they'll always arrive here. ]

What is he, our bouncer?

I've thought of him as a bodyguard for a while now, to be honest.

[ . . . ]

.... please trust him a little more, Taka. If he's coming all the way to Tokyo with us, wants to come to Tokyo with us...

[and he'll look up to watch taka's expression]

I ask you for a lot but....

I think this is a good idea.

So even if it's hard, can you... try to do it for me?

I don't... mind him coming, or anything. He probably should. Even if he doesn't stay there permanently and just goes back and forth, he... needs a break.

[ taka got the sparknotes version of sasuke's life and it sucks, wow ]

I dunno if we'll ever be close friends. But I'll try.

... I know you don't, because you're sweet, even if you're really bad at showing it.

[and he'll give taka another kiss at that- because senri never doubted it. being a ninja is hard, and sasuke's been through a lot, and he had a feeling that if there was ever a chance that someone would want something calmer, taka wouldn't mind opening up their world and a part of their lives

but]

... just open up a little. I know relationships can feel light a tightrope walk sometimes but...

If you slip, or it's not what you thought it'd be, I'll catch you.

[ he blinks in surprise at that

and he kisses him again, because he needs the moment to think and he'd rather be kissing senri while doing it than not.

We'll figure it out. It kind of seems like he thinks if we don't solve everything right away, it won't work, but... the whole point of it is that we'll have time.

[hmmm. senri will lean into the kiss because that makes it easier and he can't help but wonder quietly]

... is there anything that still needs to be solved...?

I want my friend to come with us, because that's the only way I'll have a chance of seeing him again. I don't think I'll be able to return his feelings... because I love you too much to even think about it.

If you two can just be friends... I think that'd make me the happiest.

... mm, well there's also the logistics of it all, but I think a lot of it will depend on if he's staying with us permanently or is going back and forth. When I was talking to him about it earlier today, he made it sound like we had to have everything figured out by now.

[ ... ]

He'd have to stay with us, right? He'd be given his own dorm room if he went to school with us, but if he doesn't...

Why wouldn't he go to school with us? Yuni got in because Shinbasaki-senpai would've died otherwise - that weirdo Chairman would love to have a ninja. Kumarin-senpai would probably just do the entire admissions process by himself if it meant someone to spar with, and then leave Hakka-senpai with all the paperwork.

[DREAM!ING IS SO FUCKED UP]

I mean, he probably wouldn't want to enroll if he's only visiting us instead of living there.

[ like, small vacations ]

He'd be a third year. He'd totally get away with it. None of them go to class anyway. Just take the free dorm space. Kumarin-senpai could still pay for it.

[ he just laughs softly ]

I'm just giving you all the excuses he'll probably say.

Mm, good debate prep - but it's alright. I'm suuuper stubborn.

[ . . . ]

And... I want him to be happy... I know that he has people waiting for him back home. A girl who loves him so much that she confessed twice. A best friend that he'd do anything for. I'm selfish enough to ask him to come with us first but...

He's well-loved. I think he's figuring that out, too.

If she loves him so much he should just date her...

[ it's muttered

even though senri is literally right there so he can easily hear it ]

Yeah, that's what I said. That's why I thought he was straight.

[LIKE???/]

He always gets weird when we talk about her... and I told him last week to stop pretending that he's not going to go back to Konoha and date her.

Because he is.

Huh. A little unfortunate in retrospect.

[ senri,,,,

but he kisses his cheek ]

They should just hurry and hook up then. I'm not sharing. You shouldn't even think about returning his feelings.

[ since earlier senri was wondering if he'd even be able to do that ]

[sdlfkjsldkfj]

Cheri said, once upon a time, that the only "should" and "should not" when it comes to love is that you should talk to everyone involved and should not try to make decisions all by yourself.

And then something about two-way and maybe three-way streets—

[senri loves sincerity more than anything

but he'll just give taka a kiss]

... but I told Cheri that you'd be way too jealous for that. But... it's not like I mind either.

Sometimes I don't understand how you love me as much as you do - it's already a lot more than I deserve.

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