usogi | [ canonmates who don't trust each other for shit babey ]

... I understand wanting to give her a general heads up, but he didn't have to pin it all on you. You weren't even the one who suggested Piety in the first place.

[ if anything, taka was one of the first people advocating for him the most. senri's just been following through with the idea. ]

You weren't betraying her, by the way. You just can't always base your decisions on who you're closer with. If that were the case, we'd be trying to get everyone to switch to our actual gods.

.... mmm.

[senri eases, slowly but surely. there's still something tense in his shoulders, but he's quiet as he listens to taka and tries to absorb what he's saying. he presses his face into taka's shoulders and shuts his eye as he sighs.]

.... I was prepared for her to be mad at me, at the end. Maybe that would've been worse, because I would've left and she still would've been mad at me. But... ahh, I'm still so....

[upset. guilty.]

I thought I was really doing better...

Hey.

[ the hand that was brushing against senri's hair moves to rub his back instead. ]

Every time there's a setback doesn't mean you're not doing better. If you think you make a mistake, then sit back and try to figure out how you might be able to fix it. [ ... ] But don't immediately rush into it without thinking. Don't rush things.

[ taka has,,, recently learned that lesson himself ]

[ . . . . and senri just pouts]

... I might've been a little short with Piety... but I was polite.

[ . . . ]

Mostly.

[ . . . ]

I mean, for a certain definition of polite.

[A LONGER PAUSE]

... I'll apologize when I'm not as mad.

[ ................. ]

What did you say.

.... I was just moody, and I didn't like the answer that he gave me. I told him that I wasn't going to pour my heart out to him anymore, if I was just going to end up being a topic of conversation - I didn't think he'd just go and tell her all that when he was the one who warned me that she could be upset in the first place.

[ughhh]

I... wasn't trying to be mean or anything. I didn't call names or...

I'm just still not happy.

Yeah. Apologize later. If you need a mediator, let me know.

[ ..... he knows how grumpy senri can get ]

You're allowed to be mad though.

.... he didn't seem mad at me, but that's just...

[he sighs. it almost made him angrier, but senri's not the type to yell at someone who won't yell back anyway. he shakes his head]

I just walked away when I didn't have anything else to say...

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I'll apologize for being short with him, I guess.

I just don't know if you being mad at him might affect anything.

[ the final tally, he means ]

[senri sighs]

... No, I've only told Connor-san and you. I'm not going to start trash talking him or anything, when you and Ishirin-san still have your faith in him.

I don't need to have faith in him - just his vision. Balance. Everything else will fit into place after that.

... well, like I said, you're allowed to be mad. And so is Ambition.

But you're all going to have to meet in the middle somewhere.

[ . . . and senri sighs]

I'll talk to her. I don't want her to think that I'm not her friend, or that she hasn't done great. She's been amazing.

... I just... If I can't convince everyone else of that, I have to make a choice...

Right?

Just remember that you're not the deciding factor here, Senri.

You're not here to convince everyone. You can give them the option, and then they decide.

[ . . . and senri just sighs]

A performer should be able to get people to listen to them....

[and he presses his face against taka's shoulder]

... you're right. You and Cheri are both right. It's not... on me... but - I guess I just wanted to make a persuasive case...

A performer can get someone to listen to them, but what the audience takes away from the performance is up to themselves, isn't it?

[ he kisses senri's hair ]

Two people can watch the same show and both love it, but it might only become one of theirs favorite. That doesn't make your performance any less powerful, it just means it connected with one person a little more than the other.

[ . . . and senri just nods quietly at that, closing his eye as he presses against taka as if just having him closer is all senri needs to feel better]

.... there's just... a lot of really important wishes.

That's still all I want... If convincing everyone to believe in Bambi would get them all, I'd do that in a heartbeat. But if it can only happen through Piety...

... that's what I think, anyway. I'm going to feel bad if something goes wrong but....

[ . . . ]

My wish already came true. I'll be okay no matter what.

If it doesn't go as planned then it's not your fault. People are unpredictable.

[ his grip tightens on senri. ]

You did well.

[ . . . and senri just sighs]

... we'll see.

I'm not going to start counting until after we find out what happens tonight. I'll still do my best.

... mm.

Depending on how the weekend goes, it could change a lot.

[senri nods quietly]

... I have Above Suspicion, at least, so...

[he'll reach up to wrap his arms around taka's neck and pull him closer, so that senri can lift his head and press their lips together quietly]

... Please be safe, so I can still be next to you tomorrow.

I told you, we're both making it to the very end.

[ because even with the guaranteed revival in place, the last thing taka wants to happen in this game is for senri to die, even temporarily. ]

I believe you.

[but don't mind senri if he just

kisses taka again anyway, as if to seal it with a kiss]

... just a few more days.

And then we'll be home.

[ home, with a head full of trauma and a heart full of love, it's fine. ]

So let's do our best til then.

[ . . . and senri just hums softly]

Mm. As long as I have you, I'll be able to keep moving forward.

[so it's fine if they just cuddle in bed for a while - they have some time before curfew still]

... sorry about earlier. I'm not mad at you anymore. I still don't think it was your fault - or you didn't mean to hurt anyone.

... it'll be okay if you were still mad.

[ taka's still angry at himself about it, after all. ]

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