[ canonmates who don't trust each other for shit babey ]

[usogi]

time to solve some MURDERS, taka


thanks jan

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[bakaomi]

[ he looks away ]

As if I pay any attention to you.

[usogi]

Stop lying. You technically have to sometimes.

[bakaomi]

[ he just sticks his tongue out ]

[usogi]

[senri mirrors the action

but also - ]

... You talked to Madopyon then? And she told you that I'm with Beauty?

[bakaomi]

[ he's quiet for a moment. ]

She actually kind of assumed you already told me.

[usogi]

[and he laughs]

I wonder if people assume we get along better than we actually do.

[or if they're just in denial about how well they get along]

[bakaomi]

They do. I get asked about you all the time.

[ it gets on his nerves a bit.... ]

[usogi]

[yeah isn't that weird when they're walking arm in arm in the snow and senri's attached to taka for warmth]

Ah. Who do I have a damaged reputation with now?

[bakaomi]

[ listen no one is around it doesn't count ]

More like you have a fan club and they want to know what my relationship with you is.

[usogi]

Fan club? Really?

[hE LOVES THIS]

[bakaomi]

[ ugh he should have never said anything ]

They want to know why I'm bullying their precious Nito-kun.

[usogi]

[HE'S GLOWING]

Ahh, it's a good question, you know! You should be nicer to me.

[bakaomi]

[ he tries to take his arm back at that ]

[usogi]

Ah, that's the opposite of nice!

[he's clinging on tighter]

Come on, don't be sore, I'm working really hard to keep you alive when people ask me about you too, you know?

[bakaomi]

You probably tell them how much I hit you.

[ senri hits back...... but no one knows....]

[usogi]

Of course I do.

[ . . . . ]

But I tell them that you're smarter than me, and more trustworthy than me. So.

[So.]

[bakaomi]

[ ah

he decides this is a good time to look at the snow ]

You're so gross.

[usogi]

[senri glances over at him and

smiles and laughs

before glancing away again]

Shut up.

I already told you I don't want to see anything happen to you, so don't undo my hard work, okay?

[bakaomi]

I'm not doing it on purpose.

[ there's another pause, like he's not sure if he should say something ]

She told me something else. That she thought I already knew.

[usogi]

[senri blinks, tilting his head]

What?

[bakaomi]

Your wish.

[ he's still looking away ]

[usogi]

[ . . . . . ]

Maybe I lied to Madopyon about that too.

[and he's quiet for a moment, before he lets his gaze drift to the sky where snow is falling. there's only the sound of their feet crunching in the snow, and he thinks about how he's so cold and still not prepared for this.]

... Tokyo gets cold in the winter too, you know? Just this past Christmas, I was telling our senpai about how sometimes being left alone during a time like that can make you feel like you're really far away from a beautiful and glittering world. Like you don't belong there....

I didn't have to feel that this last Christmas...

[because taka came to stay with him, with a cake santa in tow.]

.... but when I was growing up, it wasn't that easy. I just wanted someone who would take care of me when I was sick, and make me soup, and pat my head.

[ . . . ]

I.... kind of wish that I wanted something more than that.

[if only his wish was something a little bit more thoughtful, a little bit more complicated, a little less... pitiful]

[bakaomi]

[ he shifts slightly, so he's leaning more towards senri.

they touched on this slightly before, but taka brushed him off in the end. another one of his lies. his pleas for attention. his need for people to pamper him. but that need has to come from somewhere, doesn't it? ]

A family.

[ taka is aware of all the times he complained about his own. his sister, his mom. smothering and loud. ]

[usogi]

[ . . . . and senri just sighs. he doesn't mind that taka is leaning more on him, and he buries his face in his shoulder again for a second. it's one of the few things here that's familiar, even if they've been forced to get closer than they were before. when senri couldn't even imagine telling anyone back home, when he lied a thousand times over to cover it up.]

.... just one, would be nice. Just one person who....

[ - would love me unconditionally.

he can't get the words out, and he shakes his head instead of expressing what he really wants. someone who would notice him, who would take care of him even when he's being the worst, who would think well of him even if the rest of the world doesn't know anything at all.]

Don't... tell anyone. Not even back home. I don't want to make anyone feel bad, or think I'm....

It's not important.

[bakaomi]

[ it's obviously important.

if it wasn't important then senri would have never agreed to come here for that wish to be granted. but senri lies, even when he's telling the truth, and all taka can do is move a little closer to him because he's bad with words when emotions re involved. ]

I won't tell anyone.

[ he's quiet again. ]

You'll find someone.