I'm not going to announce my Piety plan. There are wishes I want granted more than others - so I'm going to try to convince those people, definitely. We just need a majority.
But if anyone has suggestions while we're all gathered, they're free to make them.
I don't need it anymore, or... I don't... need it as much.
[he's quiet and looks down at his phone, like he can't quite face majima]
I don't tell people this, because I'm sure it'll make me an even easier target but... Taka and I go to a pretty elite academy. If we graduate at the top of our class, we can get resources to pretty much anything we've ever dreamed. It'll take three years, but... I've already waited fifteen.
If we can do that then - I'm sure I'll be able to find my family, or even just... my mother.
I don't know. I thought I needed some blood relative to love me, like how everyone else I know gets one. I wanted that, like it'd fix or forgive all the mistakes I've ever made.
[ . . . ]
I can give that up though. I'm taking Ray-kun's wish instead, to make sure he wins.
[ fuck. he'd known from the start just how important the issue of family is to senri; he'd made it clear from the moment he genuinely thanked majima for playing house way back at the beginning.
he can't say he can relate. he came from an abusive household and left as soon as he was able to; the only family he acknowledges—aside from the dumb, silly family they've established here—are his oath brother and his sister. but he lost them the same day he lost his eye, and that's just what happens when you let yourself become vulnerable in that way, isn't it...?
...
he's lost in thought as he ruminates on his past, leaving senri without a reply. ]
[ . . . it's a familiar sentiment and senri just offers up a small smile]
... Tama-chin told me that, too. At the very beginning, he told me... expand my heart to see who else might become family.
[and senri pauses before he takes out a folded up photo from his uniform pocket]
And then... someone gave me this.
[he turns it around to show majima - it's a family photo, it's hard to call it anything else.
it's an idealized sort of family, with people who certainly didn't pose for the picture all together. but they're faces that majima would recognize from the game, other participants who senri's grown fond of over the course of the game, and some gods too. senri's in the middle, because of course he is, but right by him there's taka. sasuke. ray. ishikirimaru. majima. madoka. zoe. shiki.
justice, sincerity, and beauty are also all in the photo - though some may be masked based on whether majima's seen them remove their mask before, otherwise they remain covered.
three people in the photo are gone now but - ]
... I'm pretty proud of the one I made for myself, here.
[ to majima's eye, the only mystery figure in the photo is justice. everyone else is clear as day, and wow, they really do all look like one big weird family, even if he's a little weirded out to see his likeness so perfectly shown in a picture he obviously didn't take—
... it takes his breath away, honestly, in a good way. ]
[senri lets it sit on the counter in front of him and he traces the faces of the people in it.]
I found it in my pocket and... ahh, I cried so hard I worried a bunch of people. Taka got so scared that I was hurt. I ran to all the gods to give them big hugs and everything... I think I'm a little cried out right now, luckily.
[even though he gets a little choked up as he lingers on ray and zoe in the photo]
... it hurts a lot, to look at it. To know what I'm going to lose soon.
But I'm grateful if it means... that I got to have it at all.
[senri can't quite bring himself to look up - and he blinks furiously as if that'll manage to get the moisture in his eye to disappear. he reaches up to try to brush it away anyway.
it's hard to admit, sometimes. because it's so hard to be here. it's so hard to suffer through every week but.
he nods.
because he doesn't know what he'd do, if he didn't find this odd place where people still managed to care about him, against all odds]
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.... I don't mind not telling them.
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[ senri????? ]
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I'm not going to announce my Piety plan. There are wishes I want granted more than others - so I'm going to try to convince those people, definitely. We just need a majority.
But if anyone has suggestions while we're all gathered, they're free to make them.
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[ beat. ]
So what's yours, Senri-kun? I know I asked ya once, an' ya still don't have to answer... but I'd be lyin' if I said I wasn't still curious.
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I don't need it anymore, or... I don't... need it as much.
[he's quiet and looks down at his phone, like he can't quite face majima]
I don't tell people this, because I'm sure it'll make me an even easier target but... Taka and I go to a pretty elite academy. If we graduate at the top of our class, we can get resources to pretty much anything we've ever dreamed. It'll take three years, but... I've already waited fifteen.
If we can do that then - I'm sure I'll be able to find my family, or even just... my mother.
I don't know. I thought I needed some blood relative to love me, like how everyone else I know gets one. I wanted that, like it'd fix or forgive all the mistakes I've ever made.
[ . . . ]
I can give that up though. I'm taking Ray-kun's wish instead, to make sure he wins.
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[ fuck. he'd known from the start just how important the issue of family is to senri; he'd made it clear from the moment he genuinely thanked majima for playing house way back at the beginning.
he can't say he can relate. he came from an abusive household and left as soon as he was able to; the only family he acknowledges—aside from the dumb, silly family they've established here—are his oath brother and his sister. but he lost them the same day he lost his eye, and that's just what happens when you let yourself become vulnerable in that way, isn't it...?
...
he's lost in thought as he ruminates on his past, leaving senri without a reply. ]
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... yeah, it's not that impressive. Not like Madopyon's wish, or anything.
[he tries to cover it up, as if embarrassed for sharing]
So - don't worry about it, Ogou-san... That's just all it was, since you asked.
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Family ain't just who ya share blood with, ya know.
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... Tama-chin told me that, too. At the very beginning, he told me... expand my heart to see who else might become family.
[and senri pauses before he takes out a folded up photo from his uniform pocket]
And then... someone gave me this.
[he turns it around to show majima - it's a family photo, it's hard to call it anything else.
it's an idealized sort of family, with people who certainly didn't pose for the picture all together. but they're faces that majima would recognize from the game, other participants who senri's grown fond of over the course of the game, and some gods too. senri's in the middle, because of course he is, but right by him there's taka. sasuke. ray. ishikirimaru. majima. madoka. zoe. shiki.
justice, sincerity, and beauty are also all in the photo - though some may be masked based on whether majima's seen them remove their mask before, otherwise they remain covered.
three people in the photo are gone now but - ]
... I'm pretty proud of the one I made for myself, here.
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... it takes his breath away, honestly, in a good way. ]
Who gave ya this...?
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[senri lets it sit on the counter in front of him and he traces the faces of the people in it.]
I found it in my pocket and... ahh, I cried so hard I worried a bunch of people. Taka got so scared that I was hurt. I ran to all the gods to give them big hugs and everything... I think I'm a little cried out right now, luckily.
[even though he gets a little choked up as he lingers on ray and zoe in the photo]
... it hurts a lot, to look at it. To know what I'm going to lose soon.
But I'm grateful if it means... that I got to have it at all.
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[ majima sets his hand on senri's shoulder, and squeezes firmly. ]
Even with all the shit we went through, ya wouldn't trade this for anythin', right?
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it's hard to admit, sometimes. because it's so hard to be here. it's so hard to suffer through every week but.
he nods.
because he doesn't know what he'd do, if he didn't find this odd place where people still managed to care about him, against all odds]
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All right, ya better stop cryin' or you're gonna embarrass me.
[ what he actually means: "you're gonna make me cry too" ]