[ senri & ray are not okay ]

[usogi]

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[selfimmolates]

You trust everyone.

[usogi]

.... not everyone.

[he sighs]

Everyone in different levels, maybe. But I do trust Ishirin-san not to suddenly feel like murdering all of us just because.

[selfimmolates]

Mm.

[apparently, ray has no opinion on that.]

[usogi]

[ . . . . . ]

Ray-kun, if you don't tell me why you're making cryptic comments, I can't say anything.

[selfimmolates]

I'm not making cryptic comments. I don't really have an opinion on Ishikirimaru.

[usogi]

You're talking even less than usual.... and being gloomier than usual....

Are you doing okay - after everything?

[selfimmolates]

Of course. All things considered, what with all the culprits being dead, this was pretty much the best outcome we could hope for.

[usogi]

[ . . . ]

You don't have to just think things through logically all the time, you know...

[selfimmolates]

Why?

[usogi]

Because you're a person, not a robot.

And I think even Connor-san has some feelings - even though they mostly hover around 'confused'.

[selfimmolates]

I have feelings. They include being exasperated with you a lot.

More importantly, being logical helps keep me alive. I don't see a reason to change that.

[usogi]

.... I know that - but expressing feelings around me isn't going to get you killed, you know?

Whenever we talk about this kind of thing, you always get as detached as possible... but like you said, we have four more weeks of this....

[selfimmolates]

This is my default state of being. You're expecting me to be something I've never been.

[compared to all the years of his life so far, four weeks is nothing.]

[usogi]

There's always room for growth, you know?

[ . . . ]

But I get it, too. I just thought I'd offer - because sometimes you worry me too.

[as if senri wasn't the one who had a big kerfuffle during trial yesterday]

[selfimmolates]

[he did grow. but the only person he learned to trust like that is in another world entirely, beyond his reach.

and after the events of this week, showing weakness again is the last thing he wants. even if it means being alone, it's better that way.]

Focus more on worrying about yourself.

[usogi]

[he shakes his head at that and easily parrots - ]

You're the one who said that caring isn't a finite resource, right? So I can worry about me, at the same time that I'll worry about you.

[selfimmolates]

[this idiot.]

It's not needed, though.

[usogi]

Too bad, it's happening.

[senri shrugs]

Technically speaking, you don't really need to worry, or care for other people in your life - but I'm gonna do it here anyway, because I think that's what's right.

[selfimmolates]

[STOP IT SENRI HE'S ALREADY REVERSED THIS SOCIAL LINK]

Right? When has this ever been about doing what's right? You're wasting your effort!

[usogi]

[wh]

Ray-kun...?

I'm not saying anything different to you than since the game started.

[senri decided they were friends week one?]

[selfimmolates]

This isn't the game start anymore.

[his hands clench into fists.]

[usogi]

[senri's ??????? intensifies]

I know that - but I don't know why you're upset, and I won't if you don't tell me.

[selfimmolates]

Shut up!

[whether that's solely to senri or to himself as well, he's not sure.]

[usogi]

Hey—

[what the fuck???]

Are you still mad after all?!

[selfimmolates]

I wasn't mad to begin with but you're really pissing me off right now!