It's something that he should talk to you about. It doesn't involve me.
[ well, it does, in the sense that senri is taka's boyfriend and that in the end, it affects their relationship.
but he isn't sure that he should be here for a conversation like this if all it's going to do is upset him to hear it. he can deal with what happens after, but he feels like he's invading something very personal right now. it's kind of like when they were all with cinque, except much more potentially disastrous. ]
... you guys can find me after you talk, and we can discuss it together if you want, but what he has to say is only for you and not me.
[ . . . . it's a little odd, how senri feels like they're a little bit on the edge of something. but he listens to what taka has to say carefully, and he decides that he's right. he also can't force taka to stay for something that he really doesn't want to be a part of, and shouldn't.
so he nods quietly, listening. he uses the hand in taka's to pull him closer briefly, only for senri to give him a kiss and a soft reminder:] ... I love you. So please don't start thinking any lonely or depressing thoughts without me.
I'll find you after.
[after... whatever this is going to be, apparently. and only after he says that is when he lets go of taka's hand.
[He keeps his eye averted, and he frowns. It feels... wrong. To split up again. The reason he did what he did when they were together was so things wouldn't be concealed in the first place.]
No. He can stay. He should stay.
[He doesn't try to run away from Senri.] Takaomi was right. I wanted to ignore it because it was easier. Because... what matters to me is... you're happy, no matter where you are or who you're with. But he wasn't wrong.
I kissed you because it meant something. I had already talked to Love, and she had lessened the curse. I wasn't... even fully cursed. Didn't I tell you... everything was the same? [His eye lifts between them, but only briefly.] It's fine. The two of you...
I didn't mean to get involved. I didn't expect... [Well, he's not sure what he expected, so he just trails off.] I don't know Takaomi well. I had planned... to go back to Konoha. I had planned... to ask for something to make you forget even knowing me. That it would make it easier, so... the two of you could go back together and nothing would be in the way. But... I changed my mind. I'm... tired of running.
Whatever you both decide, I'm fine with it.
If I go back to Konoha, I won't ever see either of you again. The rinnegan... I think I would have to be in the dimension at least once to make the connection. I still have to practice. The Shibuya that was here wasn't your Shibuya. I would have to go with you first, and then I would have to go to Konoha from there. Or it won't work.
[ he's actually almost at the door when sasuke talks, and he pauses at the doorknob. taka doesn't... leave, but he doesn't move back towards them either and he doesn't look at either of them.
there's a twisting feeling in his gut, the same one that hits him when he's talking to beauty and the topic of senri comes up. the sensation that something is happening that he can't control, and that has the potential of snatching away someone so very, very important.
but. he also made a decision, back on sunday, so he can't really go back on it now that senri knows the truth as well. ]
... you are such a goddamn moron. I don't think I know anyone stupider than you.
[ dumbass idiot ninja who has stupid ass plans and doesn't consider the people around him. ]
[you'll have to excuse him, he suddenly doesn't know up from down. there's the growing confusion - like it never registered to him for even a second, after all they've been through, that sasuke might feel that way about him. that he could've kissed him because it meant something, that maybe he wasn't entirely cursed to hell and back.
senri never had even one person look at him this way back home - it's part of what's made him crave the attention so badly, wherever he could get it.
but just the same he knows entirely and completely well that he is so painfully gone for shishimaru takaomi.]
.... you have to get to know Taka better - [the most important part, of everything] - and I know that this was the start of that, but... you can't go somewhere just for me, Sasuke. No one should ever... [do that much, just for him]
I know you have friends back home who are waiting for you. It's why I struggled to ask you to come with us in the first place, but I...
[he blinks a few times - because he's coming to understand that the options in front of him are: take sasuke with them to shibuya, or never see him again. and in the week alone since sasuke had first told him that he was going to come with them.... he'd grown so comfortable with the idea.]
I'm so mad at you...
[no he's mostly just upset now because he doesn't know what to do, thanks]
[Taka isn't exactly wrong again. It was the desperate thoughts of a sad boy is all.]
You toyed with me. [He doesn't look angry, but his face is serious when he looks at Senri.] You strung me along because you're selfish. And then you chose someone else after bullying them into admitting what I'm admitting. [He sighs.] But... I'm not angry. In fact... I...
...strangely, forgive you.
[Again, he tries to get his arm away, gently, though he doesn't seem ready to run.] I can go back and forth between you world and Konoha. The rinnegan's dimensional travel is unlimited, just... I'll have to rest after each time. It requires a lot of chakra. But...
I'm not going with you if both of you don't agree to want it now that you know the truth. This decision isn't only mine.
It's yours. Because you're both together. Because it's your world.
that does get him to turn around, at least, and his expression is angry, but-- he manages to still not approach either of them, considering he hadn't even planned to be part of this conversation in the first place.
still. he has to bite his tongue not to yell. and he already made a decision on whether or not he wants sasuke to come, so it really is up to senri, in the end, but ]
... don't say things like that. He didn't "string you along," you make it sound like he was pulling shit just to be mean. How is he supposed to know if you're feeling hurt if you don't say anything?
[he winces at the explanation - somewhere between pained and saddened. did he do that? did he string someone along? did he bully taka into saying that he liked him? in the end, was this all his fault and could he have done something to keep people from being upset?
he lets sasuke's arm go then - if only so that he can cross his arms in front of himself a little weakly, fingers pressing into his arm]
... I should've noticed....
[is all he has to say for taka. because he's good with people, so he should've noticed. he should've been aware of what they were feeling. it was just another thing that he didn't read, another piece that he was missing this whole time.
but when he speaks again, it's soft]
... there's always going to be a place for you with me, Sasuke. I meant it when I said that - because you're my friend. And I want you to be happy, and find peace, and...
[ . . . ]
I'm sorry - that I didn't notice. But it doesn't make you any less important to me.
But... I want what Taka wants, because his happiness is important to me too. So...
You don't have much room to talk about not saying anything. [It doesn't sound ugly, but he glances at Taka briefly.] It was too late. By the time I had accepted it, after the weekend, you both were together.
So... it didn't make any difference. All I could do was pull back.
[Softly:] It's fine. Stop apologizing. Ninjas endure, so... that's what I'll do and keep going. [His sigh is heavy, but maybe a little relieved. To have said something rather than keep it all in like he's done for so long. Taka still hasn't told him blatantly whether or not he wanted him to come; it was hearsay through Senri and little hints. In fact, Taka hasn't old him much of anything.] Sorry. For all I've done.
...I'm going to put Ray's camera back. I'll see you both later.
taka is still in the way of the door as he hasn't moved from it, and he still doesn't, but he's looking between sasuke and senri. he wants to tell people to stop liking his boyfriend, because it would make things so much easier for him. but he also can't exactly blame them, because there really isn't anyone as wonderful as senri, and it would make sense that others would notice that as well.
but he also can't argue against not being able to say anything, because at the end of the day, takaomi really is the person in this room who has admitted to his own feelings and goals less than anyone else; he hasn't admitted, not once or to anyone, what his wish even is. ]
... I told you that we'll figure things out. And you should go to Tokyo. Even if it's only for the one time, and you don't come back again after that because you decide you actually hate it-- you should come with us.
[ he shifts awkwardly, looking at the ground. ]
This isn't something we have to solve right away. All the complicated parts. But... at least visit once.
[senri still can't help but feel ashamed, like he missed a big thing here that could've prevented a lot of heartache. and yet at the same time, when he looks back over what's happened over the past couple weeks - he can't say for certain that he would've changed anything.]
... Come with us, please. We'll figure out all the hard parts when we're there, or later on - but... I don't want to have to say goodbye forever when we don't have to.
[if there's a way that sasuke could even vaguely stay in senri's life, even if he decides he doesn't want to be there permanently...]
I don't want anyone to have to apologize anymore, then. For anything.
[It's probably an agreement, but it's all he gives them. For a moment or two, he looks over Senri's face without saying anything. His brows knot. He doesn't do anything, no hug, no touching, nothing. If he has decided to go with them or go back home, he doesn't say.
Carefully, he winds around Senri and passes by with the camera and the parfait. Taka is still in front of the door, so Sasuke comes to a stop in front of the other boy. Here, too, he searches Taka's face even if Taka won't look at him.
The parfait gets shifted to the hand of the arm with the camera. He raises his hand, a fist, then two fingers extend and he jabs both gently into Taka's forehead.] I'm not sorry about either kiss. [And then the hand drops back down. He doesn't say anything about another time.]
[Sasuke is patient. He waits for Taka to slides over before he opens the door.] Mm. [It's more like an acknowledging grunt, if anything, but he does give both of them a short glance over the shoulder.
And then he leaves with Ray's camera and the parfait.]
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[ well, it does, in the sense that senri is taka's boyfriend and that in the end, it affects their relationship.
but he isn't sure that he should be here for a conversation like this if all it's going to do is upset him to hear it. he can deal with what happens after, but he feels like he's invading something very personal right now. it's kind of like when they were all with cinque, except much more potentially disastrous. ]
... you guys can find me after you talk, and we can discuss it together if you want, but what he has to say is only for you and not me.
[ he kisses senri's hand. ]
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so he nods quietly, listening. he uses the hand in taka's to pull him closer briefly, only for senri to give him a kiss and a soft reminder:] ... I love you. So please don't start thinking any lonely or depressing thoughts without me.
I'll find you after.
[after... whatever this is going to be, apparently. and only after he says that is when he lets go of taka's hand.
and then to sasuke - ]
... please don't try to run away from me.
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No. He can stay. He should stay.
[He doesn't try to run away from Senri.] Takaomi was right. I wanted to ignore it because it was easier. Because... what matters to me is... you're happy, no matter where you are or who you're with. But he wasn't wrong.
I kissed you because it meant something. I had already talked to Love, and she had lessened the curse. I wasn't... even fully cursed. Didn't I tell you... everything was the same? [His eye lifts between them, but only briefly.] It's fine. The two of you...
I didn't mean to get involved. I didn't expect... [Well, he's not sure what he expected, so he just trails off.] I don't know Takaomi well. I had planned... to go back to Konoha. I had planned... to ask for something to make you forget even knowing me. That it would make it easier, so... the two of you could go back together and nothing would be in the way. But... I changed my mind. I'm... tired of running.
Whatever you both decide, I'm fine with it.
If I go back to Konoha, I won't ever see either of you again. The rinnegan... I think I would have to be in the dimension at least once to make the connection. I still have to practice. The Shibuya that was here wasn't your Shibuya. I would have to go with you first, and then I would have to go to Konoha from there. Or it won't work.
But I don't have to go.
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there's a twisting feeling in his gut, the same one that hits him when he's talking to beauty and the topic of senri comes up. the sensation that something is happening that he can't control, and that has the potential of snatching away someone so very, very important.
but. he also made a decision, back on sunday, so he can't really go back on it now that senri knows the truth as well. ]
... you are such a goddamn moron. I don't think I know anyone stupider than you.
[ dumbass idiot ninja who has stupid ass plans and doesn't consider the people around him. ]
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senri never had even one person look at him this way back home - it's part of what's made him crave the attention so badly, wherever he could get it.
but just the same he knows entirely and completely well that he is so painfully gone for shishimaru takaomi.]
.... you have to get to know Taka better - [the most important part, of everything] - and I know that this was the start of that, but... you can't go somewhere just for me, Sasuke. No one should ever... [do that much, just for him]
I know you have friends back home who are waiting for you. It's why I struggled to ask you to come with us in the first place, but I...
[he blinks a few times - because he's coming to understand that the options in front of him are: take sasuke with them to shibuya, or never see him again. and in the week alone since sasuke had first told him that he was going to come with them.... he'd grown so comfortable with the idea.]
I'm so mad at you...
[no he's mostly just upset now because he doesn't know what to do, thanks]
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[Taka isn't exactly wrong again. It was the desperate thoughts of a sad boy is all.]
You toyed with me. [He doesn't look angry, but his face is serious when he looks at Senri.] You strung me along because you're selfish. And then you chose someone else after bullying them into admitting what I'm admitting. [He sighs.] But... I'm not angry. In fact... I...
...strangely, forgive you.
[Again, he tries to get his arm away, gently, though he doesn't seem ready to run.] I can go back and forth between you world and Konoha. The rinnegan's dimensional travel is unlimited, just... I'll have to rest after each time. It requires a lot of chakra. But...
I'm not going with you if both of you don't agree to want it now that you know the truth. This decision isn't only mine.
It's yours. Because you're both together. Because it's your world.
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that does get him to turn around, at least, and his expression is angry, but-- he manages to still not approach either of them, considering he hadn't even planned to be part of this conversation in the first place.
still. he has to bite his tongue not to yell. and he already made a decision on whether or not he wants sasuke to come, so it really is up to senri, in the end, but ]
... don't say things like that. He didn't "string you along," you make it sound like he was pulling shit just to be mean. How is he supposed to know if you're feeling hurt if you don't say anything?
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he lets sasuke's arm go then - if only so that he can cross his arms in front of himself a little weakly, fingers pressing into his arm]
... I should've noticed....
[is all he has to say for taka. because he's good with people, so he should've noticed. he should've been aware of what they were feeling. it was just another thing that he didn't read, another piece that he was missing this whole time.
but when he speaks again, it's soft]
... there's always going to be a place for you with me, Sasuke. I meant it when I said that - because you're my friend. And I want you to be happy, and find peace, and...
[ . . . ]
I'm sorry - that I didn't notice. But it doesn't make you any less important to me.
But... I want what Taka wants, because his happiness is important to me too. So...
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So... it didn't make any difference. All I could do was pull back.
[Softly:] It's fine. Stop apologizing. Ninjas endure, so... that's what I'll do and keep going. [His sigh is heavy, but maybe a little relieved. To have said something rather than keep it all in like he's done for so long. Taka still hasn't told him blatantly whether or not he wanted him to come; it was hearsay through Senri and little hints. In fact, Taka hasn't old him much of anything.] Sorry. For all I've done.
...I'm going to put Ray's camera back. I'll see you both later.
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taka is still in the way of the door as he hasn't moved from it, and he still doesn't, but he's looking between sasuke and senri. he wants to tell people to stop liking his boyfriend, because it would make things so much easier for him. but he also can't exactly blame them, because there really isn't anyone as wonderful as senri, and it would make sense that others would notice that as well.
but he also can't argue against not being able to say anything, because at the end of the day, takaomi really is the person in this room who has admitted to his own feelings and goals less than anyone else; he hasn't admitted, not once or to anyone, what his wish even is. ]
... I told you that we'll figure things out. And you should go to Tokyo. Even if it's only for the one time, and you don't come back again after that because you decide you actually hate it-- you should come with us.
[ he shifts awkwardly, looking at the ground. ]
This isn't something we have to solve right away. All the complicated parts. But... at least visit once.
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[senri still can't help but feel ashamed, like he missed a big thing here that could've prevented a lot of heartache. and yet at the same time, when he looks back over what's happened over the past couple weeks - he can't say for certain that he would've changed anything.]
... Come with us, please. We'll figure out all the hard parts when we're there, or later on - but... I don't want to have to say goodbye forever when we don't have to.
[if there's a way that sasuke could even vaguely stay in senri's life, even if he decides he doesn't want to be there permanently...]
I don't want anyone to have to apologize anymore, then. For anything.
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[It's probably an agreement, but it's all he gives them. For a moment or two, he looks over Senri's face without saying anything. His brows knot. He doesn't do anything, no hug, no touching, nothing. If he has decided to go with them or go back home, he doesn't say.
Carefully, he winds around Senri and passes by with the camera and the parfait. Taka is still in front of the door, so Sasuke comes to a stop in front of the other boy. Here, too, he searches Taka's face even if Taka won't look at him.
The parfait gets shifted to the hand of the arm with the camera. He raises his hand, a fist, then two fingers extend and he jabs both gently into Taka's forehead.] I'm not sorry about either kiss. [And then the hand drops back down. He doesn't say anything about another time.]
Let me out.
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he finally looks up at him and doesn't move right away. but he does eventually, sliding over to the side to allow him to leave. ]
See you later.
[ if sasuke won't say it then he will ]
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... thanks for the jacket, Sasuke.
I'll find you tomorrow.
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And then he leaves with Ray's camera and the parfait.]