[ canonmates who don't trust each other for shit babey ]

[usogi]

time to solve some MURDERS, taka


thanks jan

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[bakaomi]

Anyone you have in mind?

[usogi]

Nonon-san. We're going to start working together.

[and senri pauses]

... Connor-san, if I can get him to believe in me.

[bakaomi]

... he seems to trust Yu, at least, so we have something there.

[usogi]

[he shakes his head]

I need him to trust... me....

Not because of Zo, or Ray-kun, or Yu-kun.

But me. None of this works if I... get thrown under the bus.

[though he pauses]

... I'm taking on Ray-kun's wish. I can't lose, or forfeit anymore.

[bakaomi]

[ he frowns slightly. ]

You're abandoning your own?

[usogi]

[and he just

curls in closer to taka again]

... I'll get it when we win top seat.

It'll be okay.

[bakaomi]

... it's your decision.

[ but he leans in and presses a kiss to senri's forehead. ]

Can I make a selfish request?

[usogi]

[ . . . and senri will nod]

You can make it.

[even if he can't promise he'll listen]

[bakaomi]

Can we stop pretending?

[ he's tired and they can die any week ]

[usogi]

[senri pauses at that]

... I....

[he just looks nervous again]

You could... get in trouble because of me....

[bakaomi]

I think that if I get in trouble at this point, it'll be my own fault.

[usogi]

....

[senri will just lean in to give him another kiss, soft but tentative]

... if that's what you want from me, it's not like I can say no....

[bakaomi]

You can say no. I'm not going to force you to do something you don't want to.

[ he'll easily stomp on his own feelings for senri. ]

[usogi]

[senri huffs out a laugh

and settles so he can rest his hand on taka's shoulder]

... you just let me cry all over you for an hour....

I think I owe you a favor - so I guess that can be going public, if you want.

[bakaomi]

... I don't want it to be a favor.

[ there's a pause, and then he shakes his head. ]

Forget I said anything.

[usogi]

[senri blinks and pauses]

.... Taka...

[he'll peer up at him]

... I didn't mean it like that.

I want what you want...

[bakaomi]

It just feels like I'm guilting you into something.

Just-- I shouldn't have brought it up after trial. We can talk about something else.

[usogi]

[senri shakes his head and he'll

move to crawl on top of taka instead, leaning down to press their lips together again]

... you're so stupid.

I'll always take an excuse to kiss you, if you'll let me.

[bakaomi]

[ he kisses him back

and he isn't sure how to vocalize that it's because every weekend he is reminded again and again of how easily they can die. and even though they're going to get revived at the end, that moment where someone targets you and you can see death approaching--

it's terrifying, and taka escaped it, but he might not escape it next time. senri might now.

so it seems so pointless to waste time hiding behind a lie. ]

You're stupid.

[usogi]

[and senri is just going to laugh quietly at that, nuzzling against taka's cheek because he can't quite understand his complicated feelings. it's gross because senri's face is probably still warm and damp from the tears but]

.... I am.

But you're smart.

And you make up for the places that I can't, so... there are things we can do together.

[bakaomi]

[ he's just going to hold senri closer. ]

You're not actually stupid. You're one of the smartest and most useful people here.

[usogi]

[and senri laughs at that, weak even as he goes with the pull]

What.... Did you get hit in the head overnight or something?

[bakaomi]

You do so much. And just because you aren't book smart doesn't mean you're not at all.

[ taka please don't call senri out on being a bad student while complimenting him ]

[usogi]

[ . . . . senri just shakes his head and presses his face into taka's shoulder again]

... it's not enough.

No matter what I give people to start, it's not enough. If... If I had Ray-kun around, or Jude-kun, or Zo - they could've fit together all the pieces I couldn't get to click, I bet.

[and he's blinking back tears again]

[bakaomi]

You don't know that.

And you're not the only person in trial, Senri. It's not your job to figure out everything on your own.