usogi | [ canonmates who don't trust each other for shit babey ]

[senri will eventually go to find taka without worrying about anyone else on monday and

he'll greet him with a kiss, because it's nice to not care about whether they're in public or private]

I got a hint... Did you send letters over to the people who passed like I said you should?

Mm.

Why?

T...

[ . . . ]

Did you get Beauty's name yet....

This isn't why - I just get tired of calling him Beauty.

Just call him Tamaki. I don't care.

[ ugh ]

[okay]

Tama-chin [that's not Tamaki] told me to ask other people what they got for their letters, and see if there was anything different or off. I think I'm supposed to be looking more into information about the people on the other side, and Passhi.

No one sent me anything except Patience.

I don't have any friends, remember?

[ . . . . . . . ]

Fortune.....?

She didn't send me anything.

[ his tone says "let's move on" ]

[senri will reach over to cup taka's cheek and give him a kiss]

... I think it takes them a little while to receive things. Hold on.

[he'll reach into his pocket for his phone - and he took a picture of the letter he wrote Fortune]

I sent her this immediately after the trial where we found Newt.

[he - actually reads it over for a second and then blushes a little bit but shakes his head and shows it to taka. it's a letter that says

Can you believe that Takaomi guy managed to do it and figure out what happened to you? Him and Ishirin-san and Ray-kun.... Ah... it's looking complicated over here, but I hope that you're doing well. Everyone was really worried about what happened to you and I think we managed to find out, so....

I feel a little better. Do you?

I'd like it if we could talk again soon.

I don't know if god powers still work over there but... if they do, I think Taka would benefit from a little bit of good luck. But it's okay, if you can't do it, then I'll try to make some for him too.]

And then I got this back on Friday from Indulgence....

[and when taka's done, senri will take his phone and give something else in exchange. they're three napkins that look ghostly and ashen, but still appear firm to the touch.

Senri,

I'm okay. I'll be more okay if I don't see you or Takaomi again until this is all over. Because, if I do, that would mean you'd... you know.

---

I'd give Takaomi all the luck I could if I had any to spare right now. There isn't an offering bowl where I am, so I hope Patience actually delivers this for me. Both of you, please stay well and take care of each other. ...and look out for Qinghua too, okay? What happened to me wasn't his fault, or any of yours except the person who did it.

---

I don't know how quickly your letters will arrive or mine will. I got yours at the end of the week.

Stay safe, and good luck in the competition.

Sheba]

So end of the week might mean... Sunday? I don't know how soon they get them.

[ . . . ]

I'm sure a letter for you is coming, Taka. She'll probably need ten of these to say everything she wants to you.

[ he just stares at it for a couple of extra seconds

before handing them back to senri. ]

It's fine if she doesn't send any.

[ . . . . . . . and senri will put them away in his pocket again before looping his arms around taka's neck

and just pressing soft kisses to both of his cheek, his jaw, his nose, all over his face to try to get him to lighten up a little bit]

No, it isn't! Because then I'll have to send her fifty!

And I'll say 'be nice to my boyfriend, he misses you a whoooole lot!' A letter a day! She'll get like four papercuts, just dealing with all my letters!

[ sfksjfsljgksdlg

he presses his face against senri's neck, to both protect himself from the kiss attack and to just

hide his expression ]

You're such a brat.

[senri huffs a little bit at that, even as he hums softly and holds taka close. he still turns his head to try to kiss taka's ear]

... she cares about you.

[ . . . . ]

I'm not... dumb... when it comes to people, or relationships. She's the one who - [don't be jealous, don't be jealous] - said you're special, right?

She's right. And I think she's really nice... so she wouldn't leave such a special person hanging if she had a choice. I know it.

[he'll lift a hand up to run through taka's hair anyway - he wouldn't have asked, if he knew that taka didn't get letters back but.... well, it sort of answers a question on timing, anyway.]

[ okay the ear thing tickles, and he fidgets at the sensation

he doesn't answer right away; there's a heavy feeling in his chest that doesn't normally hit him when he's with senri.

i'll catch you.
then, i won't be scared of falling at all.

takaomi presses a kiss to senri's neck. ]

[senri squirms a little and.

pauses, because he can't help but feel like there's something that taka isn't telling him.

he settles for inhaling quietly, and burying his face in taka's hair]

.... sorry, if I brought up something bad.

[something he shouldn't have tried to touch]

[ he pauses

and then just moves them to kiss senri properly, a little insistent. ]

[hm

senri will take the kiss, and lean into it - though when he pulls back he just manages to look confused

and still a bit guilty]

... use your words, please...?

[ he presses another kiss to his forehead ]

It's just something I have to figure out. Don't worry about it.

[ . . . . and senri just sighs, not quite placated]

I'm worrying about it....

I - don't like when you keep things from me...

[ he's quiet again after that, not quite sure what to say in response.

it's gotten rather easy to express affection to senri, to shower him in kisses and promise him the world and the future, and mean every single word of it. but this is the part that's hard, that he has to open up a little wider than what he's already managed to accept. ]

Sometimes... when I look at you, I think about how you're the one keeping me here.

[ it doesn't make any sense, and takaomi isn't sure if senri is going to understand what he's saying, but it takes a moment to get all the words out. ]

[senri is quiet, and he's impatient but - if taka isn't pulling away, or walking away, then senri won't either. he'll settle like that for a little while, just keeping taka close even as he watches his expression and.

there's a furrow in senri's brow as he tilts his head]

I'm....?

[it's another moment of uncertainty - where senri thinks that merriment would be able to figure out what taka is saying easily, without having to hesitate or falter. it's what the real soulmate would know how to do and he... pauses when he can't puzzle it out.]

... what do you mean, Taka?

[is that even a good or a bad thing?]

[ he frowns, but he also didn't really expect senri to get what he's saying because he isn't

saying it properly.

he'll try again, from a different angle. ]

If I close my eyes long enough, I can... see them. [ he keep "them" vague. ] And it makes everything feel so impossible. But when I open them, you're there.

[ ... ]

[ . . . . oh.

senri pauses at that, and he'll immediately lean in to press a kiss to taka's forehead in return.]

.... I'm always going to be right here.

[he promises that first, because he can't imagine anywhere else that he'd go]

... you're still holding onto a lot, aren't you...

So is everyone else.

[ it feels silly to talk about it because of that. people have come from places so much worse, and he's sitting here being upset over...

he sighs. ]

We need to keep moving forward.

[ . . . mm.

it's a little funny, to hear what senri thinks, coming from taka. everyone else dealt wish so much worse. they lose time if they stay upset for too long. it's not like they have a chance of reconciling all their trauma here.

he still reaches up to run his fingers through taka's hair]

.... it's just me here.

If you need... to be upset - I mean... I cried on you for like an hour after trial.

You always carry me when I'm not doing well. If it's just the two of us... you can crack just a little. I won't tell anyone.

week 6, monday

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