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... what happened?

[ he'll wrap his arms around senri. ]

[and senri just pauses

and rests his head against taka's shoulder as if it'll manage to obscure his expression. even if he's trying to keep his face neutral, his eyes look a bit sad]

.... how are things between you and Tama-chin?

... why?

[ he doesn't see the connection between this and getting turned into stone ]

.... I think it's relevant.

[and he'll just curl in a little bit closer, wrapping his arms around taka and letting his fingers cling onto the cloth of his shirt. he hooks his leg around taka's too, tangling them up together as much as he can]

[ he just sighs ]

It's awkward. And any time it stopped being awkward, one of us would say something that would mess it up.

[senri hums softly at that - ]

.... because of me?

I don't want to think that you talk about me all the time - I'd prefer if you didn't but...

[this case seems especially

likely]

... because of you.

[ there's no point in saying otherwise ]

[ . . . Ugh.]

Sorry.

.... you know you're the only person that I love, right?

[ he reaches a hand out to caress senri's cheek. ]

I'm kind of stupid. [ ... ] It was just more complicated than it was with Sasuke.

[senri leans into the touch, but his eye grows a little wide. he leans in to press his lips to taka's, as if a kiss will be enough to mend the divide between them]

How can I show you?

How can I remind you I love you and only you?

[ oh

he isn't sure what does it. if it's the desperation in the kiss or his expression, or if it's the words, or even if it's just the stress from weeks of being here. but it's like-- something snaps, finally, and taka starts to cry.

he ignores that though, and instead just pulls senri into another kiss. ]

[ah.

something in senri's heart breaks a little bit when he sees taka cry, but he'll go with the kiss anyway. he thinks he'd probably go with anything that taka could possibly want, if it'll make him feel a little bit better. he presses their lips together once, twice, before he pulls away to kiss taka's cheeks as if that'll help to kiss away the tears]

Taka...

I'm right here - I'm not going anywhere.

[ after the kisses, taka pulls away slightly so he can try to wipe at his face. he knows that senri doesn't react too well when other people cry around him, that he gets upset too, so it'll be better if he stopped. ]

I know. I know, it's stupid.

[senri reaches up to gently hold onto taka's wrist, giving him another kiss before he can wipe at his face anymore, and his expression grows softer.]

... it's not stupid.

Whatever you're feeling, it's not stupid.

You can talk to me about it... if you want to.

Sometimes it's just hard to imagine why you'd pick me.

[ it's said quietly. ]

[senri doesn't hesitate to give taka another kiss, soft and gentle]

... when nothing else is going right, I think of you.

Because you're steady, when I'm not. Because you're brave, when I'm not. Because you're - so much kinder than I am, at the heart of things.

I don't need you to be anyone or anything else besides... you. [his hand comes up to taka's hair, running his fingers through his locks] You match me in a way that no one else can even try to.

[ it's hard, to fight the thought that senri could do so much better when there have been so many people who want him. it's daunting. taka never really thought that he'd fall in love, and he definitely didn't think that it'd be like... this

but senri's voice is so soothing. ]

... thank you for wanting to spend your life with me.

... thank you for thinking that I'm worth it.

[and he'll move to cup taka's cheek with one hand, thumb brushing away any tear tracks on his own, even as senri goes to kiss the other side of his face gently]

I'm sorry... that you ever had room to doubt how much you mean to me.

I'm so happy I chose you.

I never thought I could ever love someone like I love you, my rabbit.

[ he can get so embarrassingly mushy when it comes to senri, but it also feels like it's something he needs to hear. that they both need to. ]

I'm just... sorry that it wasn't as easy as it should be.

[ a lot of feelings were hurt for them to make it here. I

[it's not like senri will ever be upset about hearing how much he means to someone - he's incredibly needy at the end of the day, built up after years and years of not mattering enough to anyone. hearing that taka loves him so much makes him melt so completely.]

... I love you, my brave lion.

[but.

taka does... have a point.]

... I don't know... Maybe it was my fault - but I... [sighs] Ever since we started dating, I tried to be on good behavior... I didn't want to lead anyone on, even if they didn't know we were together...

I must've failed that somewhere - I don't think I was paying attention either.

I guess I just didn't think it was possible for anyone else to want me. I'm... kind of troublesome... You know that better than anyone else.

Well... I can easily see why someone else would.

[ the tears have stopped, at least, even though his face is still wet and red and he probably looks more hideous than usual. ]

You're so special, Senri. So I'm not surprised that I wasn't the only one who saw that.

[stop it taka's cute even when he's crying, be nice. or at least - that's what senri thinks as he will continue to gently wipe away taka's tear tracks with his thumb and give him gentle kisses on his face.]

.... I make a lot of mistakes, and... I'm still really selfish at the end of the day. I still tell lies to people who aren't you, and...

[ . . . ]

I... It's something I've never had before - to have so many people care about me.

But I never wanted it to be a burden on you. I never want you to think that there'll be anything that could pull me from your side.

[ he clings a little more tightly to senri, like he's worried to let go even for a second. ]

I know you're probably upset about it though. That you're blaming yourself for...

[ not being able to go with them instead. ]

[senri goes with the cling, pressing himself against taka even as he sighs quietly]

... I like to make people happy. More than anything else, I want them to be happy, so when they think of me, it's... not with resentment. And if it's someone I'm friends with, that feeling only grows stronger.

But... I'm selfish. I want to be with the person that I love. I don't want to lose on the chance for us to have an apartment together out of school, for our two dogs and a cat, for us to be together for a long time - and I can meet your family, and we can get married, and I'll have forever with you.

That's what I want, more than anything.

[ . . . ]

He wasn't himself. I don't want you to be mad at him, because... you know it's only because he's lonely, and he doesn't want anyone to leave.

... but when he was corrupted, Tamaki tried to turn me to stone, so I could always be with him. He apologized already, and it's not his fault.

He's... important to me, and I don't want to leave him when he's sad. It's the same reason why I want Sasuke to come with us. I want them to have their own home, like what I've always wanted.

But... I want to be with you, more than any of that.

[ this was all a lot of information to take in at once. he listens to senri quietly, and he goes through an odd mix of emotions

it's the first time senri has said the word marriage flat out. and... they've both been talking around it, like how they danced around actually saying the word love when they both kind of knew that was what they meant. but promising to be together is... still a lot, but there's something about being married that makes it feel even more... official? grounded?

but then he keeps talking, and he actually explains what happened and why senri almost being turned into stone has to do with taka's relationship with tamaki, but. now he gets it. ]

There's a chance that we can still see the gods after this, Senri. They said it's possible if they have enough power for it.

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