senri's trying to keep going as best as he can, but aside from him trying to keep it together in the courtyard this time, he's fairly morose for the rest of the day.
and then he'll be making tea in the kitchen - again. he turns at the sound of someone entering and offers a smile]
He was with Sincerity. I know he told everyone he was leaving Disorder, but he told me that he was going to Sincerity - and he invited me to go with him. I told him I'd think about it....
So Sincerity is the god that Disorder hates the most.
Four people are dead - and they'll come back, as far as I know. They're not like Uchiha-san or Shiks, who...
[who are already gone.]
But it's causing a lot of suffering... and I don't like that no matter how much I run around, no matter how many people I talk to, the game isn't over yet.
[The look she gives him is both sympathetic and fond.]
It was already pretty obvious you have higher standards for yourself than for everyone else. I think you just... Need to get out of your own head. Which is way easier said than done.
To be honest... I miss being on a stage. I miss performing for people, and making them laugh, and watching them enjoy themselves with the story I'm telling.
You said you don’t need music, so... If you want to perform, there are a ton of things you can do that won’t break the rules, right? And you’ve always got an audience.
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week 2, friday
senri's trying to keep going as best as he can, but aside from him trying to keep it together in the courtyard this time, he's fairly morose for the rest of the day.
and then he'll be making tea in the kitchen - again. he turns at the sound of someone entering and offers a smile]
Still just as pissed this week, Zo? Or more?
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[She doesn't feel like she can really return that smile, but she does pause.]
Were you friends with any of them?
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Chuuya-san was nice to me. He told me a lot of stuff, actually. I couldn't really trust him with anything in return but...
Ah, I feel bad now.
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[It’s a gentle way to say that he shouldn’t blame himself or feel bad.]
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[senri pauses before continuing to make tea]
He was with Sincerity. I know he told everyone he was leaving Disorder, but he told me that he was going to Sincerity - and he invited me to go with him. I told him I'd think about it....
So Sincerity is the god that Disorder hates the most.
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[She sighs, though.]
Hey, Senri?
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Zo...?
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[Back to her original point, though...]
You know there’s nothing to feel bad about, right?
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[four people are dead? he thinks there's plenty to feel bad about]
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[that kind of feeling bad, at least.]
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I think I have to work harder, Zo.
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Why?
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[who are already gone.]
But it's causing a lot of suffering... and I don't like that no matter how much I run around, no matter how many people I talk to, the game isn't over yet.
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Okay. So you’re blaming everyone else who hasn’t fixed this, either?
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[and he turns to her with a tired look]
I know what you're going to say. It doesn't make sense then - if I'm not blaming you, or Bakaomi, or anyone else, then why am I blaming myself?
... but I guess it's because I'm the only person I can control. And that means I feel guilty, even if it doesn't make sense.
And not being able to control everyone else is part of the problem in the first place.
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It was already pretty obvious you have higher standards for yourself than for everyone else. I think you just... Need to get out of your own head. Which is way easier said than done.
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Maybe we should do another face mask.
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Is that the only thing you do to relax?
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I play video games too? Things like that...
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Do all of your performances involve music?
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Then come on. There might not be a stage, but there’s a dance studio, right?
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Hm? What are you planning, Zo?
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You don't have anything better to do, Zo?
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