... to be honest, I want to see him anyway, today. As a friend ... [ ... they both cared for Estelle very much. ] But if that's the case, I won't ask after her alignment today. I can speak with him again later this week if it's needed.
[ A nod. ] Speaking of Madoka, if she hasn't told you, she's switched her power to Art of Deduction.
[ A pause. His shoulders go stiff, but his expression remains open, though he'll briefly shut his eyes. Very softly, tinged with some regret: ]
You can ask her alignment, just... [senri taps his chin] Yeah. I'll let you know later - the other stuff, if it comes up to anything.
I'm trying to cover my bases, but I'd rather not risk hurting anyone. That's all.
[but he'll accept that information, nodding along up until he stares at yu. there's a flash of something angry in senri's gaze, but it's tempered quickly. his expression grows more exhausted]
... you made Bambi cry.
If you weren't so important to Rise-chan, I'd punch you. You're my friend, but you don't get to do that to my other friends, no matter how well you mean. You weren't feeling well this weekend, but it's still not okay. You swore everyone to secrecy, but told me anyway. I don't get what you were thinking, and it made me really mad.
I think it's important that you know that, so you don't make the same mistakes again.
[ Again he shuts his eyes, just letting it sink in. He's pretty pale. When he reopens his eyes he'll stare up for a minute, his gaze far away, before focusing on Senri again. ]
... I don't know if I could tell you what I was thinking, either. It's hard to parse it all, even now. Even so ... [ he shakes his head. ] I had wanted to talk to her, but not then. Certainly not like that.
It's definitely not something that will happen twice. [ heavily. ] ... thank you for talking to her, Senri. She needed a friend when I couldn't be. ... I want to apologize to her, but I'm sure she needs space. I'll send her a note, soon.
... when people tell you to stop, I need you to consider what they say a little more closely. Because I get it, Yu-kun, you want to help people. I do too.
But some things you suggested this weekend made me really, really mad - because it would put my other friends in trouble.
[but... he sighs, and shakes his head. he's frustrated - it's obvious - but senri isn't the type to hold onto issues forever]
I'm glad you're feeling better, because we need you. But... yeah. Make sure you apologize to her, and work with her. She said that you only come to see her when you want things - and she's probably feeling twice as bad since her followers all left.
Be careful with her, or I won't forgive you next time.
I know. [ this, heavily, too. ] I don't remember why I was so opposed to going to Indulgence myself. I need to thank you for that, as well. You truly saved me, this weekend ... from making things even worse.
[ Yu folds one arm over his chest, the other rubbing his face. ]
... I hate that I hurt her. I don't know if I can possibly express ...
[ the regret is so, so real. ]
Going to her just because I want things? Nothing could be further from the truth. She's my friend. [ Has he made her think that? Feel that way? His gut twists. ] ... if I were to somehow hurt her again, I wouldn't forgive myself. You don't need to worry about that, Senri. [ so quietly. ] I want to take care of her, too. As much as I'm able.
Has anyone ever told you that you kind of have a manpain problem, both cursed and not....
[he sounds more exhausted than anything at least, shaking his head]
You can say that it's not the truth - but that's how she feels. You can say that you're a friend to someone, but you know it doesn't say a lot when they don't feel treated like a friend, you know? And I want to be fair that... sometimes Bambi gets unreasonable, but I don't think this is one of those times.
So you can feel guilty, but I wouldn't wallow too hard in your own feelings when you need to check in on hers.
You troubled Sasuke, and Beauty, too. I heard.
You were cursed and everything then, but you can still choose how you act now. And even though I'm scolding you a little... I'm rooting for you.
[ . . . ]
Jude-kun used to tell me this kind of thing. I'm not as good at it as he is, but I think more people need to hear his sentiments.
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[ A nod. ] Speaking of Madoka, if she hasn't told you, she's switched her power to Art of Deduction.
[ A pause. His shoulders go stiff, but his expression remains open, though he'll briefly shut his eyes. Very softly, tinged with some regret: ]
How did it go?
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I'm trying to cover my bases, but I'd rather not risk hurting anyone. That's all.
[but he'll accept that information, nodding along up until he stares at yu. there's a flash of something angry in senri's gaze, but it's tempered quickly. his expression grows more exhausted]
... you made Bambi cry.
If you weren't so important to Rise-chan, I'd punch you. You're my friend, but you don't get to do that to my other friends, no matter how well you mean. You weren't feeling well this weekend, but it's still not okay. You swore everyone to secrecy, but told me anyway. I don't get what you were thinking, and it made me really mad.
I think it's important that you know that, so you don't make the same mistakes again.
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... I don't know if I could tell you what I was thinking, either. It's hard to parse it all, even now. Even so ... [ he shakes his head. ] I had wanted to talk to her, but not then. Certainly not like that.
It's definitely not something that will happen twice. [ heavily. ] ... thank you for talking to her, Senri. She needed a friend when I couldn't be. ... I want to apologize to her, but I'm sure she needs space. I'll send her a note, soon.
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But some things you suggested this weekend made me really, really mad - because it would put my other friends in trouble.
[but... he sighs, and shakes his head. he's frustrated - it's obvious - but senri isn't the type to hold onto issues forever]
I'm glad you're feeling better, because we need you. But... yeah. Make sure you apologize to her, and work with her. She said that you only come to see her when you want things - and she's probably feeling twice as bad since her followers all left.
Be careful with her, or I won't forgive you next time.
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[ Yu folds one arm over his chest, the other rubbing his face. ]
... I hate that I hurt her. I don't know if I can possibly express ...
[ the regret is so, so real. ]
Going to her just because I want things? Nothing could be further from the truth. She's my friend. [ Has he made her think that? Feel that way? His gut twists. ] ... if I were to somehow hurt her again, I wouldn't forgive myself. You don't need to worry about that, Senri. [ so quietly. ] I want to take care of her, too. As much as I'm able.
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Has anyone ever told you that you kind of have a manpain problem, both cursed and not....
[he sounds more exhausted than anything at least, shaking his head]
You can say that it's not the truth - but that's how she feels. You can say that you're a friend to someone, but you know it doesn't say a lot when they don't feel treated like a friend, you know? And I want to be fair that... sometimes Bambi gets unreasonable, but I don't think this is one of those times.
So you can feel guilty, but I wouldn't wallow too hard in your own feelings when you need to check in on hers.
You troubled Sasuke, and Beauty, too. I heard.
You were cursed and everything then, but you can still choose how you act now. And even though I'm scolding you a little... I'm rooting for you.
[ . . . ]
Jude-kun used to tell me this kind of thing. I'm not as good at it as he is, but I think more people need to hear his sentiments.