and he isn't sure how to vocalize that it's because every weekend he is reminded again and again of how easily they can die. and even though they're going to get revived at the end, that moment where someone targets you and you can see death approaching--
it's terrifying, and taka escaped it, but he might not escape it next time. senri might now.
so it seems so pointless to waste time hiding behind a lie. ]
week 5, saturday
taka isn't saying anything. ]
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but
eventually senri calms down]
.... we have to keep looking....
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[ it's fine he doesn't mind the snot ]
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.... I need all the last alignments.
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So it's not me asking.
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[and senri pauses]
... Connor-san, if I can get him to believe in me.
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I need him to trust... me....
Not because of Zo, or Ray-kun, or Yu-kun.
But me. None of this works if I... get thrown under the bus.
[though he pauses]
... I'm taking on Ray-kun's wish. I can't lose, or forfeit anymore.
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You're abandoning your own?
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curls in closer to taka again]
... I'll get it when we win top seat.
It'll be okay.
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[ but he leans in and presses a kiss to senri's forehead. ]
Can I make a selfish request?
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You can make it.
[even if he can't promise he'll listen]
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[ he's tired and they can die any week ]
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... I....
[he just looks nervous again]
You could... get in trouble because of me....
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[senri will just lean in to give him another kiss, soft but tentative]
... if that's what you want from me, it's not like I can say no....
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[ he'll easily stomp on his own feelings for senri. ]
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and settles so he can rest his hand on taka's shoulder]
... you just let me cry all over you for an hour....
I think I owe you a favor - so I guess that can be going public, if you want.
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[ there's a pause, and then he shakes his head. ]
Forget I said anything.
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.... Taka...
[he'll peer up at him]
... I didn't mean it like that.
I want what you want...
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Just-- I shouldn't have brought it up after trial. We can talk about something else.
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move to crawl on top of taka instead, leaning down to press their lips together again]
... you're so stupid.
I'll always take an excuse to kiss you, if you'll let me.
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and he isn't sure how to vocalize that it's because every weekend he is reminded again and again of how easily they can die. and even though they're going to get revived at the end, that moment where someone targets you and you can see death approaching--
it's terrifying, and taka escaped it, but he might not escape it next time. senri might now.
so it seems so pointless to waste time hiding behind a lie. ]
You're stupid.
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