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You're the one who started fighting! What, do you want me to start crying next?

[ it's definitely a terrible place for them to be fighting because there's a good chance someone will get tackled

he does stand up at that though. ]

[senri will stand up too, and that's probably bad news.]

I want you to leave me alone! I already know that you're bad with people. We might be from the same place, but that doesn't mean I'll make you look out for me.

So why are you even still here?!

Fine! You're on your own! I was a goddamn idiot for wanting to check in on someone like you anyway!

[ he shoves him again, and turn to leave. ]

[ . . . . ugh.

senri pauses - because sometimes that's all he wants. someone to look for him. and even though they fought, even though taka didn't say the right things to get senri to calm down -

he wipes at his eyes again.]

.... why did you try?

You don't like talking to people - least of all me.

[ he stops

and considers jut leaving anyway, because at this point he's too mad to really want any kind of conversation.

he doesn't move though. ]

... we're partners.

[ and senri was crying. ]

[he hates this.

he hates that it's like this, and he hates that his partner is taka. and he hates that for some reason just having that confirmation makes him feel a little bit better.

and senri will sigh a big breath and crouch down on the stairs again, as if standing was taking just way too much effort for even another second.]

... Shiks has my heart pin.

She's had it since Monday.

[just in case it comes up tomorrow]

Oh.

[ that may be a problem

but at least taka noticed it was missing before today... he's not sure how much is word is worth, though, since it's common knowledge that they knew each other before coming here. ]

You could have just said that.

... I didn't think it'd matter. We were talking about something totally unrelated.

[ . . . . and he'll move to sit down.]

She was playing the game because she wanted to save her partner, in another game she had to play.

Apparently they didn't choose each other. And they didn't get along at first. Shiks said that he was really rude, and thought that she was super annoying, and would walk away from her all the time because he just didn't feel like talking to her.

But something happened to him, and she was forced into leaving him behind - so she wanted her wish this game to be for him.

[he wonders why he feels like telling taka this. why it feels like right now he has to tell taka this. he pulls another pin out of his pocket - the Player Pin that shiki had with her]

So she was going to join my god's team, and we were going to try to win this whole thing, and we'd give our pins back to each other at the end.

... she makes a lot more sense now.

[ taka doesn't elaborate.

but shiki pressed him a lot about his attitude, and friendship, and it all makes more sense with newly added context. ]

You can still give the pin back at the end. You just have to still win.

... yeah. I was just thinking she'd be mad at me for fighting with my partner after all the work she's put in for hers, even though I thought he sounded - [like you] - .... well.

[another sigh and he rubs at his eyes again, as if just to make sure that no more tears will traitorously fall]

... I'm going to win. I have to win.

I need to find out if there's a way to get her god to change still....

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... probably not. Since she'd be officially out of the competition now, so even if she changed her before she died...

[ he doesn't think it'll count.

he leans against the rails, since he's not sure if he should sit. senri probably still wants him gone so it'll be best to be able to make a quick exit. ]

It counts if you're on the winning god's team, even if you're out of the competition. You can still get your wish granted - that's what I was told, but if you could get it confirmed...

[he'd be happier and his shoulders relax, if only by a little bit. moving forward at least gives him less to be completely depressed about.]

... Shiks didn't switch yet. She couldn't - it happens on the weekend. But I don't think Ambition's gonna win.

... then she won't be able to, I'm pretty sure. It'd be cheating in a way, wouldn't it? If you can still switch even after you're out.

[ he glances at senri then looks away. ]

You can still ask. But it defeats the purpose of killing people off, wouldn't it?

She can't ask for the favor, but maybe I can. Or if I win, could I get her wish and mine?

[ . . . and if he can't - what is he supposed to do? choose?

he shakes his head, as if trying to banish that thought.]

... she just didn't deserve this. No one here does.

... mm. It's our current situation though. Whether or not we deserve it, we have to deal with it.

[ for the next couple of weeks.

it seems a lot longer now. ]

[ . . . . . .

and senri just deflates at that. yeah. it feels a lot longer.]

... can I tell you something that I don't know if I can tell anyone else yet?

It's about Shiks.

Yeah.

[ it's not like taka is close buddies with anyone to go and blab ]

[senri pillows his head on his arms again.]

.... they're sending us all back to where we came from at the end of this. That's okay for us.

But I think -

Shiks said she died already, and she was trying to come back to life already before she got here.

[which is -

also part of why senri was so upset, probably

maybe he just wants to share the burden of knowing with someone else.]

[ she'd go back to being dead then.

it's crazy, thinking about how different the places everyone else is from. their world is so normal in comparison that taka wonders why they're even competing against these people. ]

... so there's a way for her to get revived there?

[ if she was trying. ]

Yeah. That's the game that she and her partner were in - but I guess they got tricked and in the end, only one of them could get revived? So she wanted to revive him too...

[senri hates thinking about this because if he's absorbing shiki's wish - does that mean he's responsible for saving lives?]

I see.

[ he finally sits down, but he doesn't move any closer to senri. ]

I'm going to say something, but you're going to call me an asshole for it.

I'm going to hit you if you're too much of an asshole.

[fair warning.

.... though he won't say anything about taka sitting down]

You have to stop taking responsibility for other people. If this game lasts for as long as we were told, then you're going to make more and more friends. And you will make friends-- you're too obnoxious and friendly. And when you get closer to those people, the more you're going to want to make sure their wishes come true.

[ like shiki, who he has only known for a week. ]

[ . . . . . . ]

I still think that's the nicest thing you've ever said to me?

[ he quickly looks away ]

Don't make it weird.

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