usogi | [ canonmates who don't trust each other for shit babey ]

[ he blinks in surprise, and then he lets out a breath that he didn't really know he was holding. taka leans in more to the touch, nuzling his cheek into senri's palm. ]

I kinda thought you were gonna dump me.

[ and that he was just delaying it due to the current circumstances. ]

[senri looks noticeably surprised at that, even as he lets his thumb run across taka's cheek - ]

What?

I spoke to Beauty on Tuesday. It was... kind of obvious he had a thing for you.

[ although not obvious to senri, apparently. ]

[ . . . ]

Sorry....

[he actually. doesn't seem to know what to say aside from that?]

It must get tiring - to be patient with me, when all I do is...

[find trouble.]

You're... a lot, but I've known that for months now.

[ before he even liked him as a friend, even. ]

You annoy me, and sometimes you do things without really thinking about them and make a mess, but... I want to be there for all of that, you know. You're worth it.

[it's that overwhelming feeling again. like something is twisting in senri's chest, because he didn't think that he'd ever have anyone that would stay. he didn't think he'd ever had anyone that could still care about him, no matter what mistakes he made, or what lies he told.

he pauses - and he just lets his head fall against taka's shoulder as he thinks about it, quiet and stunned.]

... I wanted - just one someone. Who could still stay with me, no matter how cold it got, or...

[ . . . ]

I think... I got a lot more offers than I was prepared for - to be that someone. People to take care of me....

So I... I'm sorry if I'm still - figuring that out. [how to handle people who like him, somehow, despite his laundry list of faults] But... please stay with me.

I'd like it if I - could always come back to you.

I'll always be here.

[ here, and back home, regardless of if they get their wishes or not. ]

... I don't think I can understand that much. I don't have any friends here. [ it's said with a small, dry laugh ] Ishikirimaru, I think, and Merriment, and...

[ fortune, but she's dead. ]

But it's kind of different with the gods, since they're not in the same position as we are. So you're... kind of the only one that I can...

I'll be here, Senri.

[ . . . . and senri is just quiet, and he lifts his head again to lean in close to taka, his hand tracing along the shape of his jaw, his expression growing thoughtful]

.... Luke-kun really wants to be your friend. He thinks you're really cool - for some reason. [he teases, but follows it with a kiss to taka's cheek] Madopyon likes you a lot, too....

[ . . . ]

You'll always have me.

But I don't want you to feel alone, when I'm not next to you.

[ he's silent for a moment, and his brow furrows, and then, ]

Is that what the crab thing was about...?

[ he. he just thought luke really liked crabs. ]

[ . . . . ]

Crab thing?

He really wanted to catch a crab for me.

[ he'll point over to where the dresser is. there's a sand dollar on it. ]

Luke gave that to me when he couldn't get the crab.

[ . . . . . oh my god.

senri is.

laughing.]

What?

I told him to just talk to you about music and then he'll lose five hours of his life! Why would he do that?

I don't think he knows anything about music.

[ taka's tone is one of disbelief but..... he's biased ]

I don't think so either.

[he tilts his head]

But you could tell him - and I'm sure he'd be happy just to see how excited you get when you talk about something you love.

Hm, maybe...

[ he leans in so he can press a soft kiss to the corner of senri's mouth, then settles back down again. ]

[sdlkfj

hm that's embarrassing. he's flustered? he stares at taka for a moment before glancing away and. yeah he's blushing. god dammit.]

You really...

[yep, there are the dumb butterflies]

Stop distracting me... I'm just saying that people are trying to reach out to you more than you think, so I'd appreciate it if you could try to let them in....

... maybe.

[ he was kind of ready to quit after getting brave enough to confess to senri. that was enough putting himself out there emotionally to last for the next ten years or so, really. ]

I'm not as likable as you are... I won't admit that again.

[ . . . . and senri just laughs faintly at that. he snuggles in closer to taka, if at all possible.]

Only because you're such a jerk at first glance.

.... after that, you're way nicer than me in every way. I feel outclassed by how smart you are. Braver, more thoughtful, more considerate....

No matter how hard I'm trying to get better at it - I'm still... not as honest as I could be.

If people like me, it's just because I'm careful about what they see. People don't have to worry about that with you. I don't... and that's why I like you.

[ oh. his cheeks redden. ]

You need to give yourself more credit, stupid.

[ takaomi hates liars, but even before they came here, he was still drawn to senri. he made a joke to fortune a few days earlier, of how it's an ongoing cosmic joke that he and senri can't move ten feet without running into each other. ]

You deserve all the good things you got.

[ . . . . hah. Senri's brow furrows.]

... I don't think I do....

[because at the end of the day, Taka gives up a lot, for a lot of people. he's giving, and generous. Senri has a habit of taking and taking - and he hasn't managed to break it. maybe because he doesn't want to, as long as he keeps receiving but - ]

... lately I've been trying to do better, so maybe it balances out a little bit.

[even now, he doesn't know how he managed to earn taka's attention, and affection.]

But... I still want to ask - can I kiss you, Takaomi?

[ oh...

his blush deepens, and taka lets out a quiet laugh

it's funny, but also not, that they can just keep finding faults like this. they argue about everything, and he can tell they can probably just keep going on like this for a while.

so instead. ]

... yeah. You can.

[they'll argue about anything, given the chance.

but senri would rather focus on the answer he received, and his expression softens immediately. he leans in closer to taka, wrapping his arms around him, and leans in to press their lips together, soft and gentle as anything.

it's not the ideal third kiss - but so far they've been pretty bad at thing. senri can't help but think that's kind of funny too. they're clumsy about everything when it comes to each other, and it's not necessarily a bad thing. it's just how it is.

even now he's blushing - but he thinks they'll have to get used to this eventually]

[ ah, he's kissing his boyfriend

literally everything outside of this room is terrible. fortune is dead, and there are three other bodies as well. senri got his heart broken by someone else, and taka may have watched someone fall to their death just a couple of hours ago but

he's kissing his boyfriend. and such a small thing shouldn't make him feel better, but it does. despite the cold, it gives him a warm feeling that makes him think that everything will actually be okay.

maybe not right away, but it will be. especially if he can keep holding onto this boy. ]

[it'll be fine - one way or another. senri appreciates the slight way that taka relaxes, and wonders if he can do anything else to help. a silly story here, a kiss there - any small gesture that he can do to soothe the anxiety of a boy who's worked too hard for everyone else's sake.

when he pulls away, he kisses both of taka's cheeks too, and then leans in for another quick kiss on the lips, just to be embarrassingly affectionate.]

.... I like this almost as much as beating you in video games.

[ he squirms at the kisses, and then raises an eyebrow. ]

I hope not. That means I'm never going to get kissed.

[ he may be feeling sappy but he won't ever not dunk on senri ]

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