[ senri & ray are not okay ]

[usogi]

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[selfimmolates]

[he counts off on his fingers.]

Ruin, Justice, Ambition, and Cunning.

[good coping mechanisms: you can't have issues if you're too busy being terrified!!]

[usogi]

.... why?

[RAY????]

[selfimmolates]

Why not? Three of those were my assigned gods, right?

[usogi]

[oh my god]

... and then Ambition just for fun?

[selfimmolates]

I figured I might as well.

[usogi]

[senri siiiiighs]

I guess.... Well, in that case, I went to Piety and Ishirin-san to figure out what was going on with them.

And I think Ishirin-san found a loophole, so hopefully he'll be okay tomorrow. The rules say that the gods need to lose a follower, not that they need to be removed from play. So he was already going to defect.

[selfimmolates]

Guess we'll see tomorrow.

[usogi]

.... they told me not to do anything.

And Beauty said that I couldn't borrow Above Suspicion for my favor - though I don't know if that's entirely true, or because he wants me to join his team so I can use his power directly. I don't think he'd lie to me, but it sounds like it's one of the rules he's less clear on....

.... and I don't want to get him in trouble, so. I won't try.

[selfimmolates]

Pardoning someone from execution would be a pretty hefty reward. I wasn't really expecting it to work in the first place.

[usogi]

I worked hard and I earned it.

[ . . . ]

And I know Beauty would've wanted to help, if he could've - in that kind of dire situation.

[selfimmolates]

Better not to place your hopes on that kind of thing. It's too unreliable.

[usogi]

.... I know it wasn't guaranteed, but it was worth trying if we needed to.

[smh]

It's just lucky we don't need to.

[selfimmolates]

Unless Ishikirimaru's loophole fails.

[usogi]

[ . . . . ]

Ray-kun is always holding onto the worst case scenario.

[selfimmolates]

It makes more sense to.

[usogi]

I know - but that's why I think it's extra important that I have enough faith for the two of us.

[senri please,,]

... I'm nervous, and I'm mad that I can't do anything - but I hope it'll be okay.

[selfimmolates]

[it's infuriating. it hurts. he almost wants to laugh over the absurdity of it all.

instead, he locks all of that down.]

Probably not. We're only on week two of at least six.

[usogi]

.... well, our other options are to lose hope or give up, so I think I'm going to stick with mine.

[ . . . . ]

I... don't think the people are so bad here.

[selfimmolates]

Didn't stop four people from dying this week. Whatever their intentions, people will likely continue to kill.

At the end of the day, from a practical standpoint, it doesn't matter if they're "bad" or not.

[usogi]

... so we work harder.

[ . . . ]

Ishirin-san is going to Merriment specifically so that he can try to keep a watch out for other people, at least....

[selfimmolates]

Using All Nighter? Great, we might have a better idea of who to execute, then.

[usogi]

Uh-huh. I trust him.

[this is so odd to write about a teej character but it's true]

[selfimmolates]

You trust everyone.

[usogi]

.... not everyone.

[he sighs]

Everyone in different levels, maybe. But I do trust Ishirin-san not to suddenly feel like murdering all of us just because.

[selfimmolates]

Mm.

[apparently, ray has no opinion on that.]