[ senri & ray are not okay ]

[usogi]

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[selfimmolates]

I see. So, something to forget about for now, assuming we can't also utilize it.

[usogi]

Don't think so.

I finally got to see his face though! So I guess it does show that if you get to know the gods well enough, they'll be able to reveal themselves.

[selfimmolates]

I know.

[usogi]

Oh, did you get to see Love? That's great!

I haven't found the chance to see Cheri yet, but I definitely want to see if I can ask him next...

[selfimmolates]

I don't know if "great" is the word I'd use, but sure.

[usogi]

[he tilts his head]

Why wouldn't it be great....?

It's nice to get to know her, right?

[selfimmolates]

She's a means to an end. "Getting to know her" isn't the goal.

[usogi]

[wh]

What are you saying...

She cares about you a whole lot, you know....?

[selfimmolates]

I'm aware.

[usogi]

And she's still just... means to an end?

Is that everything in this game to you...?

[selfimmolates]

We were brought here for one reason. Or have you already forgotten?

[usogi]

It's not that I've forgotten, but I've never treated this like the competition they want it to be - where we have to hurt each other to get our way. I think it's fine to still get to know everyone here, and want to be friends....

It's not like you didn't know that about me?

[selfimmolates]

Love chose me knowing what kind of person I am. If you're offended on her behalf, you don't need to be.

[usogi]

I'm - well, no, you're right. I'm offended, but I know that she probably accepts it. And I....

I'm just worried about you. You're going full Sasuke-kun 'I can't rely on anyone except myself' mode on me, right after I finally got him to lighten up a little...

[selfimmolates]

Seeing as how none of my allies from home are here, I've been like this from the start. It's hardly a recent development.

[usogi]

[senri's brows raise in obvious surprise]

Maybe not the ones from home but - you know I'm your ally, right? I'm your friend, actually - but if you want to pick that word....

[selfimmolates]

[...]

I know.

[he says, because he can't say what he's actually thinking.]

[usogi]

[senri's brow furrows then - ]

... I don't think you do, otherwise you wouldn't have said that in the first place.

You know I'd never let anything happen to you, right? Like I'd sooner take a bullet than let it happen to you?

[selfimmolates]

[...

he breathes in, out. smiles. also senri, could you, like, not.]

Knowing you, you'd probably just end up missing entirely.

[usogi]

[no!! he continues to look perplexed]

I get it. I'm not the smartest person here, or the strongest, or most useful -

But I'd never let you get hurt, Ray-kun. I haven't told anyone here anything about you just because I don't want you to be mad at me, or feel like you can't rely on me.

[selfimmolates]

[god why the fuck does senri make this so hard]

You're not exactly known for your honesty, so you can understand why I can't take that at face value, right?

[usogi]

No, but -

[ . . . ]

Not even Shishimaru knows anything about you, and I tell him everything that I tell you - minus stuff like your alignments.

I can't bend over backwards to show my loyalty more than I already have, Ray-kun, but I can't figure out what you want from me.

What do you want me to do? Let you stab me and not tell anyone?

[selfimmolates]

Why the hell would I want to stab you? I'd have to clean up afterwards.

[besides even guy did that so that's apparently a really low standard for courtesy??]

And with all due respect, you literally walked up to me yesterday and actively started lying about your curse. Besides, you actually don't know anything about me either.

[usogi]

That wasn't a lie - Sasuke-kun probably did feel like being mean to me. You don't make it easy for me to reveal the names of people who are close to me when you're not volunteering anything on your own either anymore, you know?

[he looks increasingly frustrated.]

Do you think I like how it's been going? I can tell that there's something still off - but you just won't admit it. You'll just keep proving how much you distrust me every second, even when I'm trying to be more honest with you than anyone else in the game.

[selfimmolates]

It wasn't a lie by technicality, but you were being misleading and you know it. Honestly, it'd have been a smarter move not to bring up the curse at all, if you wanted to protect Sasuke. There was no reason to even mention it.

[takes a moment to criticize senri's technique because ray's just like that]

There was only one moment where I asked you to be honest. Otherwise, I've never expected you to be.