usogi | [ canonmates who don't trust each other for shit babey ]

Mm.

[ he's torn between being angry that someone would target her, or sad, so he mostly settles on a sort of empty pit in his stomach. ]

She was an easy target.

[ . . . . and senri shakes his head, firmly.]

That doesn't make it fair. Or okay.

I... know she was your friend....

I guess she was...

[ and he admittedly does not have a lot of those here, so he just holds onto senri a little more tightly. ]

Can we go?

... back home?

[but he agrees to that easily enough, pulling back just enough to kiss taka's cheek first, and then he'll reach for his hand - no gloves, because there's no point]

[ anywhere that they won't be walked in on, really.

but he holds onto senri's hand and starts walking. ]

[fair enough - senri will lean against taka as they walk, if only just to be close to him. he breathes in, and sighs faintly]

.... she'll be back - at the end.

[ he doesn't respond at first, quiet, but after a few minutes, ]

I saw someone fall off the ferris wheel.

[ . . . . . . ]

With -

Ishirin-san?

No, we split up.

[ ishi has since decided they will never split up ever again ]

[that's so fucking vaid.

senri will pause - but luckily they're not too far from their house. senri will pull taka inside, and back into their room now that there's no one else in it, and he'll pull him close again, shivering gently]

... we'll go home soon. It'll be over - soon.

It might have been her. I don't know.

[ he buries his face into senri's neck ]

Goddammit...

[senri will accept it, reaching his hand up to run his fingers through takaomi's hair even as he presses a kiss to his temple, trying every small soothing gesture that he can]

... it's not your fault.

If it's not my fault - for not figuring out earlier that someone could've gone after her, this isn't your fault.

[ . . . ]

She told me... she wanted me to make a rule - that no one can blame themselves for anything that isn't their fault.

[ he snorts ]

What a menace.

[ and then he deflates, slowly lifting his head to look at senri. ]

You have other things to deal with.

[ . . . and senri shakes his head as he presses his forehead against taka's]

Not as long as you want my attention.

Nothing - .... no one is as important to me here as you.

[ he's not sure if it makes him a bad person if his heart does a flip at that, even with the current circumstances

it probably does. ]

... talk to me about something. Anything.

[senri will just sigh a little bit at that, and offer a soft smile even as he pulls back, only to take taka's hand so they can go to bed. he doesn't really want to have this conversation standing anymore]

... when we go home, I'm going to ask the third years to help me throw the biggest party. I don't know what I'll say the occasion in, but I'm sure Kumarin-senpai will have an idea.

There's going to be a bunch of really cute dessert, and a mountain of burgers. Maybe Ryugasaki-senpai will get us some virtual reality game to play, and Torasawa-senpai will wear one of those super Dad-like aprons while he tries to cook the food.

[ he lifts up the covers so that they can both get under the pile, and once they're in he'll just. immediately turns to senri. ]

That sounds like it'll turn into something chaotic really quickly.

[once they're underneath the blanket pile, senri is just going to scoot as close to taka as he can, reaching his arms around his neck and leaning in so close that they're practically nose to nose.]

Uh-huh.

Hari probably gets a horse from somewhere, because he misunderstands what kind of party it is. It'll be some rare breed Yumapi has never seen, so he'll try to sketch it. Hanabusa-senpai will arrive late with a knife jabbed into his shoulder, and then Mikekado-senpai will say he's the one who put it there for once.

Shibasaki-senpai will probably trip right into the sound system, and Hakka-senpai will wonder who authorized the party in the first place.

That sounds stupid enough to be right.

[ he could picture it really well, to the point of being able to visualize whatever nonsense conversation they're having.

but it still feels far off. ]

What would you be doing?

[and senri just ducks in closer to taka at that, pressing his face into taka's neck]

.... I'm going to arrive fashionably late, even though it was part of my idea, I think. I'll hang out at the doorway, just watching everyone be ridiculous, because it's been a while. I'll feel exhausted, and tired, but - at home.

Then whenever I see you - stuffing your face with your fourth burger, probably? - I'll finally walk in.

And we'll sit together. And we'll argue, until you say something that makes me so angry I have no choice but to kiss you.

And then we'll be the weirdest part of an already super weird party.

[ ah, that manages to get a small smile out of him. ]

You were already the weirdest part of the party.

[ there's a pause, and he presses a short kiss to the side of senri's head. it's hesitant, since he's still not actually sure if he's allowed to do that despite senri doing the same to him. ]

[senri actually manages a little laugh at that - weak as it is. it makes his shoulders shake along with the cold, and he lifts his head to face taka again]

.... you're not allowed to say that to me when Hari is fictionally right there.

[ . . . ]

.... we'll be okay. I know it - doesn't feel that way right now. [they're cold, and miserable, and traumatized] But... we'll be going home together, no matter what.

Mm.

[ he lifts a hand so he can stroke senri's cheek. his fingers are cold, but so is senri. ]

As long as you're here...

[senri sighs a little bit - in relief? in relaxation? in fondness? who can really say. his expression softens and he presses close enough that their foreheads touch again.]

... I'm not going anywhere.

I'll be with you, for as long as you want me.

[ there's a moment of pause, as he glances away then back at senri. ]

I want you. So... don't worry about that.

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