[senri swore that when he left the house, he was walking.
and then he was jogging, and then he was sprinting - and he pushes himself all the harder once he actually catches sight of taka.]
Takaomi!
[and taka doesn't have much a choice - for how senri runs to him and throws his arms around him, pulling him as close as he can. he's breathing hard and he's still trembling from the cold but. ah. he can't even begin to imagine how taka must feel.]
[senri pulls him in, and holds him close. they're a little ways away from everyone else, so he doesn't think they need to move anyway more secluded right away.
he rests his head against taka's and tries to find the words - it's hard. he can say so many wrong things, in a situation like this.]
.... I'm sorry. [that's all he can find right now - ] I'm so sorry.
[but he agrees to that easily enough, pulling back just enough to kiss taka's cheek first, and then he'll reach for his hand - no gloves, because there's no point]
senri will pause - but luckily they're not too far from their house. senri will pull taka inside, and back into their room now that there's no one else in it, and he'll pull him close again, shivering gently]
[senri will accept it, reaching his hand up to run his fingers through takaomi's hair even as he presses a kiss to his temple, trying every small soothing gesture that he can]
... it's not your fault.
If it's not my fault - for not figuring out earlier that someone could've gone after her, this isn't your fault.
[ . . . ]
She told me... she wanted me to make a rule - that no one can blame themselves for anything that isn't their fault.
[senri will just sigh a little bit at that, and offer a soft smile even as he pulls back, only to take taka's hand so they can go to bed. he doesn't really want to have this conversation standing anymore]
... when we go home, I'm going to ask the third years to help me throw the biggest party. I don't know what I'll say the occasion in, but I'm sure Kumarin-senpai will have an idea.
There's going to be a bunch of really cute dessert, and a mountain of burgers. Maybe Ryugasaki-senpai will get us some virtual reality game to play, and Torasawa-senpai will wear one of those super Dad-like aprons while he tries to cook the food.
[once they're underneath the blanket pile, senri is just going to scoot as close to taka as he can, reaching his arms around his neck and leaning in so close that they're practically nose to nose.]
Uh-huh.
Hari probably gets a horse from somewhere, because he misunderstands what kind of party it is. It'll be some rare breed Yumapi has never seen, so he'll try to sketch it. Hanabusa-senpai will arrive late with a knife jabbed into his shoulder, and then Mikekado-senpai will say he's the one who put it there for once.
Shibasaki-senpai will probably trip right into the sound system, and Hakka-senpai will wonder who authorized the party in the first place.
[and senri just ducks in closer to taka at that, pressing his face into taka's neck]
.... I'm going to arrive fashionably late, even though it was part of my idea, I think. I'll hang out at the doorway, just watching everyone be ridiculous, because it's been a while. I'll feel exhausted, and tired, but - at home.
Then whenever I see you - stuffing your face with your fourth burger, probably? - I'll finally walk in.
And we'll sit together. And we'll argue, until you say something that makes me so angry I have no choice but to kiss you.
And then we'll be the weirdest part of an already super weird party.
[ ah, that manages to get a small smile out of him. ]
You were already the weirdest part of the party.
[ there's a pause, and he presses a short kiss to the side of senri's head. it's hesitant, since he's still not actually sure if he's allowed to do that despite senri doing the same to him. ]
week 3, friday
...
so it's a little bit after when he starts walking back, trying to avoid anyone except just one specific person. ]
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and then he was jogging, and then he was sprinting - and he pushes himself all the harder once he actually catches sight of taka.]
Takaomi!
[and taka doesn't have much a choice - for how senri runs to him and throws his arms around him, pulling him as close as he can. he's breathing hard and he's still trembling from the cold but. ah. he can't even begin to imagine how taka must feel.]
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but he immediately wraps his arms around him, and sighs deeply against him ]
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he rests his head against taka's and tries to find the words - it's hard. he can say so many wrong things, in a situation like this.]
.... I'm sorry. [that's all he can find right now - ] I'm so sorry.
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[ he's torn between being angry that someone would target her, or sad, so he mostly settles on a sort of empty pit in his stomach. ]
She was an easy target.
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That doesn't make it fair. Or okay.
I... know she was your friend....
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[ and he admittedly does not have a lot of those here, so he just holds onto senri a little more tightly. ]
Can we go?
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[but he agrees to that easily enough, pulling back just enough to kiss taka's cheek first, and then he'll reach for his hand - no gloves, because there's no point]
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but he holds onto senri's hand and starts walking. ]
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.... she'll be back - at the end.
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I saw someone fall off the ferris wheel.
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With -
Ishirin-san?
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[ ishi has since decided they will never split up ever again ]
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senri will pause - but luckily they're not too far from their house. senri will pull taka inside, and back into their room now that there's no one else in it, and he'll pull him close again, shivering gently]
... we'll go home soon. It'll be over - soon.
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[ he buries his face into senri's neck ]
Goddammit...
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... it's not your fault.
If it's not my fault - for not figuring out earlier that someone could've gone after her, this isn't your fault.
[ . . . ]
She told me... she wanted me to make a rule - that no one can blame themselves for anything that isn't their fault.
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What a menace.
[ and then he deflates, slowly lifting his head to look at senri. ]
You have other things to deal with.
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Not as long as you want my attention.
Nothing - .... no one is as important to me here as you.
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it probably does. ]
... talk to me about something. Anything.
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... when we go home, I'm going to ask the third years to help me throw the biggest party. I don't know what I'll say the occasion in, but I'm sure Kumarin-senpai will have an idea.
There's going to be a bunch of really cute dessert, and a mountain of burgers. Maybe Ryugasaki-senpai will get us some virtual reality game to play, and Torasawa-senpai will wear one of those super Dad-like aprons while he tries to cook the food.
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That sounds like it'll turn into something chaotic really quickly.
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Uh-huh.
Hari probably gets a horse from somewhere, because he misunderstands what kind of party it is. It'll be some rare breed Yumapi has never seen, so he'll try to sketch it. Hanabusa-senpai will arrive late with a knife jabbed into his shoulder, and then Mikekado-senpai will say he's the one who put it there for once.
Shibasaki-senpai will probably trip right into the sound system, and Hakka-senpai will wonder who authorized the party in the first place.
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[ he could picture it really well, to the point of being able to visualize whatever nonsense conversation they're having.
but it still feels far off. ]
What would you be doing?
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.... I'm going to arrive fashionably late, even though it was part of my idea, I think. I'll hang out at the doorway, just watching everyone be ridiculous, because it's been a while. I'll feel exhausted, and tired, but - at home.
Then whenever I see you - stuffing your face with your fourth burger, probably? - I'll finally walk in.
And we'll sit together. And we'll argue, until you say something that makes me so angry I have no choice but to kiss you.
And then we'll be the weirdest part of an already super weird party.
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You were already the weirdest part of the party.
[ there's a pause, and he presses a short kiss to the side of senri's head. it's hesitant, since he's still not actually sure if he's allowed to do that despite senri doing the same to him. ]
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